Stayed with Rick again last night, and probably again tonight. My dad actually told me to stay over again last night (because of the stain on the dining room floor) which was pretty funny ( Read more... )

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It will be necessary to immerse myself in dreamland--i.e. the world in Manda's head--for the next couple days. For the next month, more like. I'ts getting harder to stay where I am, I'm ready to move on. Amanda is in a state of suspension.

8:09 p.m.In order to distract myself I'm going to buy a book. I'm fidgity and anxious, and for some reason on ( Read more... )

( Yesterday sucks, today sucks, everything sucks. )

( catching up. blah. )

3.26I'm at work right now, writing this out longhand (our computers are all completely DOS mode), and I feel...well, blah. This is the first job I've had since high school I don't wake up dreading going to work though. Today I actually feel like shit, and I didn't even consider calling in because I'd rather be here than at home, with my mother ( Read more... )

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It's odd, the new Mars Volta album uses two names--Miranda and Cassandra--I have used quite frequently in my past writing. I use Cassandra for the legend attached to the name (the seer of Troy) but I'm not sure why Miranda ( Read more... )

It's been storming. The wind has blown tree pieces everywhere and power's been down places so it isn't the usual slow Sunday at work, and I'm tired. Everyone keesp saying I look it too. "Are you all right Amanda?" But last night I got a full 8 hours of sleep after a week of only 3 to 5 a night. It's odd. I've been sleeping at least 3 hours per 24- ( Read more... )

I'm exhausted. The stomach hurts. I hadn't really eaten since Wednesday night except for less than 800 calories of candy and cookies per day, but this morning at around six I binged on two cheeseburgers and two bowls of cereal, but then my sister woke up to leave for work and I couldn't vomit before she left, and I fell asleep while I was waiting ( Read more... )