The End of our story, is only just the Beginning (one-shot)
Title : The End of our story, is only just the Beginning (one-shot)
Characters : Donghae, Sungmin, Hyukjae, Kibum, Siwon
Genre : angst
Rating : G
Disclaimer : I'll never admit that I don't own Super Junior (Shiz, I just did it!), the song belongs to Lara Fabian and others related
Warning : don't expect too much, this is my 2nd fic *sigh*, fail ending
Summary : Donghae's trying to heal his broken heart as time passed by... (another terrible summary)
A/N : hello, readers! I used a song "Broken Vow" by Josh Groban in this fic. It's originally sung by Lara Fabian, included as Ost Meteor Garden 2 (Taiwanese Hana Yori Dango). It's one of my favorite songs ever. Hope you guys read and like my fic. Please read and comment???*puppy eyes*
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I don't know what to do. My body freeze hearing you say those words. I never imagine this could be happened to us. I thought our love would last long, because we simply loved each other. Or at least i tought so. I don't even ask you more the reason, because suddenly i become a statue, can't think and do anything. I fall on my knees as i watch you walk away. Teardrops start trickling down on my cheeks. My vision become blurry as i look down to the wooden floor of my room in our shared apartment. Yes, this place used to be ours. But now you're leaving.
I curl up to a ball, hugging my knees as my body drop down to the cold floor. I might be drown in my own tears because it won't stop falling like a waterfall. I sob really hard and cry my heart out. I can't believe that you broke up with me. Why is our love supposed to end up like this?
Your voice is still echoing in my ear, stuck on my brain. "I want us to go our separate ways. I'm sorry Donghae, we can't continue this." you said coldly, staring at the floor. I blinked, my eyes got teary. "But why Bummie? Do you not love me anymore? Is there someone else? Kibum?". My voice was trembling. You didn't even look me in the eyes, but you nodded. "I'm sorry, Donghae. I've fallen in love with someone else. Now i have to go."
You didn't say anything more, just left me in my current state right now. It's been hours since you left me, but i'm still here, crying silently like there's no tomorrow. I just don't know how to live without you, without your love. I don't want to imagine it. But i wonder why you don't love me anymore. Is this why you changed and avoiding me these days? Who is he with you now?
Tell me his name I want to know
The way he looks and where you go
I need to see his face
I need to understand
Why you and I came to an end
Tell me again i want to hear
Who broke my faith in all these years
Who lays with you at night while I'm here all alone
Remembering when i was your own
I let you go, I let you fly
Why do i keep on asking why
I let you go, now that i found
a way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow
Tell me the words i never said
Show me the tears you never shed
Give me the touch the one you promised to be mine
Or has it vanished for all time
I close my eyes, and dream of you
and then i realize
There's more to love than only bitterness and lies
I close my eyes
I'd give away my soul to hold you once again
And never let this promise end
I collect all my strength to stand up and reach the bed. I lay down there lifelessly. I hold my chest, because it hurts like hell. I feel exhausted, and let sleep claim me.
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The next morning, i wake up and glance at digital clock on the desk, 8.43 PM. I wonder what time i started fall asleep last night, but it feels like only a few minutes. I rub my eyes and feel they are puffy. Suddenly the memories fill my mind. I feel a pang in my heart and clutch it hard. You used to be here beside me, hold on to me, give me a goodmorning kiss, and force me to get up first.
My phone's vibration interrupts my thoughts of you. I take and open it. It's message from Sungmin, my best friend since i was in middle school.
Hey, don't forget that we have lunch together. You promised me right? So, be there.
I almost forget that i was supposed tobe having lunch with him at cafe near my apartment today. It's been a while since the last time i met him. We usually share anything, including my relationship with you. But in my current state right now, it's impossible i'm going out. I feel like staying at home is better now, since it's sunday too. Maybe Sungmin doesn't have anything to attend beside our meeting. So i'll ask him to come here, instead of cafe.
Then I reply to him : Mianhae, i feel not good today, Min. Can you just come to my place?
After few seconds he replies : You do? But Kibum's with you right?
Actually no, he isn't here. I need you to accompany me right now. Come here, ok?
I think i need no reply for it. i just have to wait for him. But before, i have to take a shower. So i go to the bathroom. I stop in front of mirror only to see my own terrible state. I laugh to myself pathetically. But then i change my expression to gloomy again. I put off my clothes and turn on the shower. I let warm water pouring my body for a while, hoping it will warm my heart as well.
I take shampoo, only to remind me of you. This aloe vera scent shampoo belonged to you. I was too lazy to buy these stuffs. You knew it. And now i still use it, because i get used to it. I quickly finish shower, then brush my teeth. I look at my face, and i hate it.
I walk to the closet, only to see your clothes still there. You didn't bring those last night. I wonder when you will come and take it all. Or will you not and let it left here? Or you will be coming home and tell me that what happened last night was all jokes?
I shake my head to get those thoughts out of my mind, and sigh. After get dressed, i walk lazily to the kitchen and reach a bottle of water in the refrigator. I pour it to a glass and take a seat. I gulp the water non-stop, then catch my breath. I slam the glass to the table and put my forehead on the cold surface. I really need to cool my mind. Why does everything i do, everything i touch, everything in this apartment just reminds me of you?
I get up suddenly when i hear the bell ring. I walk to the door slowly and open it, only to see Sungmin's worried face. I quickly hug him, not letting him greet me first. "Donghae, what's wrong?", he says, pulling apart. I just answer him with a weak smile. Then drag him in.
We sit on the couch crossed to the television. I tell him what happened last night, what i feel right now. And it only makes me start to cry bitterly again. Sungmin puts an I'm-so-sorry look on his face. He takes me to his embrace, rub my back, and start to reassure me with any words that i can't catch clearly, because i have lots of things in my head.
After a plenty of minutes, i finally calm down and can control myself, and mumble 'thanks' to the man in front of me. Then Sungmin starts another topics, "Hey, i guess you skipped breakfast, didn't you?", he says firmly. He knows me too well. I nod weakly and let him drag me to the kitchen. "Come on, i'll cook for you".
I watch him collecting the ingredients from the refrigator. I glance at the clock hanging on the wall. It shows 10.55 pm. No wonder i'm starving now, since i skipped dinner too last night, but not that i have my appetite in this kind of situation.
I'm really glad Sungmin's here. You used to be cooking for me back then. I cross my arms on the table and rest my chin on it, while i watch Sungmin turn on the stove. He glances at me and smile warmly. He's like my own hyung, always know how to treat me well. I curve my lips slightly for him. I know i can't disappoint him.
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It's been few weeks since the day you broke up with me. You never comeback. But I finally can manage my feeling of sadness. Not that i'm happy now. I still cry everytime i cherished our memories. But it's not very often, only sometimes. I realize that i have to live my life, even without you. Though i know i still can't get you out of my mind. But i decided to let it be. I never want to force myself to forget you. Just let it flow. Until i find someone to spend my life with.
Now i'm having lunch with Sungmin at coffee shop near my dance studio. I spend more time with him recently, sometime he took his boyfriend Kyuhyun along with him. I know Sungmin doesn't want to let me alone, being a caring bestfriend he is.
When i chew my food, my eyes widen as i see someone familiar comes in. It's you. But you're not alone. You're with a tall man who has a good body, and very handsome. I freeze when our eyes meet. We stare at each other for God knows how long. Then i see your grip on him tighter.
Then Sungmin snap my thought out, "Is that Kibum with Siwon?", he says. I look at him immediately, "Huh? Who?".
"I said he's Siwon who's with Kibum." he says in a low voice.
"You know him? Who is he anyway?", i ask him, trying to look careless.
"I don't know him that well. I just knew him because he's one of my friend's friend. He's the heir of his parent's business company." he adds carefully.
I just respond him with a weak 'oh'. I know Sungmin thinks that i don't want to continue this topic, so he remains silent. This is the very first time i meet you since that day. So, It's him. I finally understand why you left me in the first place, why you fell out of love with me. Siwon, or whatever his name, is just too good to be true. I can't compare to him. I'm not as handsome, as tall, as rich, as perfect as him. Maybe that's why you fell in love with him. I just smile bitterly accepting this. I think it's the best for us. For you at least.
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I was on my way to the right turn, when i bump onto this guy. We both fall on our butt and facing each other.
"I..I'm sorry i didn't focus on my walking...", i appologize to him, as i get up abruptly and reach my hand to help him get up too.
"It's alright..", i hear him saying. But instead of take my hand, he tries to collect the papers that shattered after the crash. Then realization comes to my senses, so i help him collecting those. I take one paper, that caught my attention, because it seems familiar. My eyes widen in surprise as i look at it. It's the dance competition form application.
"Are you going to take part on this competition too?" i ask him, still wide-eyes.
"Huh?", he blinks, giving me a confused what-are-you-talking-about look. Well, that was... cute.
"I mean i'm taking this competition as well", i'm pointing at the form. "Well, i think we're going to compete each other." I add as i smile to him. I see him smiling back and nodding as he answer me. What a beautiful smile it is...
"Really? Well, i can't hardly wait~", he laughs, only to show his gums. I feel a thump in my heart as i saw his lovely gummy smile. My smile is getting wider unconsciously.
"Anyway, i'm Hyukjae." he throws his right hand enthusiastically.
I tilt my head slightly, then laugh. I think that was cute.. again. "I'm Donghae. Nice to meet you." Then we shake our hand.
Today, the sun seems shine brighter to me. I think i can face my next days with confidence. I'm no longer stuck in my past. I know i still can't get over you. But i know deep in my heart. i fall out of love with you as time pass by. I know i can move on now. I won't let my past haunt me. But not that i'm leaving it all behind. I'm learning from it. Because, every story of my life, whether it's happy or sad, has its own place in my heart.
~~~end~~~
A/n: Huff, it's done! Yay! I'm sorry it's boring... becoz i thought it's a cliche plot. Well, I was supposed to make hyukjae who left donghae instead of kibum. But i didn't have a heart. You know what i mean, right? I hope you guys enjoy to read this. Please comment?? I want to make friends with you all... Thanks *bow*
A/n 2: FYI, i'm working on Donghae/reader, can i post it to Hyukhae comm? Should i? Would you anticipate it? Oooh, i don't know...*frown*
Characters : Donghae, Sungmin, Hyukjae, Kibum, Siwon
Genre : angst
Rating : G
Disclaimer : I'll never admit that I don't own Super Junior (Shiz, I just did it!), the song belongs to Lara Fabian and others related
Warning : don't expect too much, this is my 2nd fic *sigh*, fail ending
Summary : Donghae's trying to heal his broken heart as time passed by... (another terrible summary)
A/N : hello, readers! I used a song "Broken Vow" by Josh Groban in this fic. It's originally sung by Lara Fabian, included as Ost Meteor Garden 2 (Taiwanese Hana Yori Dango). It's one of my favorite songs ever. Hope you guys read and like my fic. Please read and comment???*puppy eyes*
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I don't know what to do. My body freeze hearing you say those words. I never imagine this could be happened to us. I thought our love would last long, because we simply loved each other. Or at least i tought so. I don't even ask you more the reason, because suddenly i become a statue, can't think and do anything. I fall on my knees as i watch you walk away. Teardrops start trickling down on my cheeks. My vision become blurry as i look down to the wooden floor of my room in our shared apartment. Yes, this place used to be ours. But now you're leaving.
I curl up to a ball, hugging my knees as my body drop down to the cold floor. I might be drown in my own tears because it won't stop falling like a waterfall. I sob really hard and cry my heart out. I can't believe that you broke up with me. Why is our love supposed to end up like this?
Your voice is still echoing in my ear, stuck on my brain. "I want us to go our separate ways. I'm sorry Donghae, we can't continue this." you said coldly, staring at the floor. I blinked, my eyes got teary. "But why Bummie? Do you not love me anymore? Is there someone else? Kibum?". My voice was trembling. You didn't even look me in the eyes, but you nodded. "I'm sorry, Donghae. I've fallen in love with someone else. Now i have to go."
You didn't say anything more, just left me in my current state right now. It's been hours since you left me, but i'm still here, crying silently like there's no tomorrow. I just don't know how to live without you, without your love. I don't want to imagine it. But i wonder why you don't love me anymore. Is this why you changed and avoiding me these days? Who is he with you now?
Tell me his name I want to know
The way he looks and where you go
I need to see his face
I need to understand
Why you and I came to an end
Tell me again i want to hear
Who broke my faith in all these years
Who lays with you at night while I'm here all alone
Remembering when i was your own
I let you go, I let you fly
Why do i keep on asking why
I let you go, now that i found
a way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow
Tell me the words i never said
Show me the tears you never shed
Give me the touch the one you promised to be mine
Or has it vanished for all time
I close my eyes, and dream of you
and then i realize
There's more to love than only bitterness and lies
I close my eyes
I'd give away my soul to hold you once again
And never let this promise end
I collect all my strength to stand up and reach the bed. I lay down there lifelessly. I hold my chest, because it hurts like hell. I feel exhausted, and let sleep claim me.
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The next morning, i wake up and glance at digital clock on the desk, 8.43 PM. I wonder what time i started fall asleep last night, but it feels like only a few minutes. I rub my eyes and feel they are puffy. Suddenly the memories fill my mind. I feel a pang in my heart and clutch it hard. You used to be here beside me, hold on to me, give me a goodmorning kiss, and force me to get up first.
My phone's vibration interrupts my thoughts of you. I take and open it. It's message from Sungmin, my best friend since i was in middle school.
Hey, don't forget that we have lunch together. You promised me right? So, be there.
I almost forget that i was supposed tobe having lunch with him at cafe near my apartment today. It's been a while since the last time i met him. We usually share anything, including my relationship with you. But in my current state right now, it's impossible i'm going out. I feel like staying at home is better now, since it's sunday too. Maybe Sungmin doesn't have anything to attend beside our meeting. So i'll ask him to come here, instead of cafe.
Then I reply to him : Mianhae, i feel not good today, Min. Can you just come to my place?
After few seconds he replies : You do? But Kibum's with you right?
Actually no, he isn't here. I need you to accompany me right now. Come here, ok?
I think i need no reply for it. i just have to wait for him. But before, i have to take a shower. So i go to the bathroom. I stop in front of mirror only to see my own terrible state. I laugh to myself pathetically. But then i change my expression to gloomy again. I put off my clothes and turn on the shower. I let warm water pouring my body for a while, hoping it will warm my heart as well.
I take shampoo, only to remind me of you. This aloe vera scent shampoo belonged to you. I was too lazy to buy these stuffs. You knew it. And now i still use it, because i get used to it. I quickly finish shower, then brush my teeth. I look at my face, and i hate it.
I walk to the closet, only to see your clothes still there. You didn't bring those last night. I wonder when you will come and take it all. Or will you not and let it left here? Or you will be coming home and tell me that what happened last night was all jokes?
I shake my head to get those thoughts out of my mind, and sigh. After get dressed, i walk lazily to the kitchen and reach a bottle of water in the refrigator. I pour it to a glass and take a seat. I gulp the water non-stop, then catch my breath. I slam the glass to the table and put my forehead on the cold surface. I really need to cool my mind. Why does everything i do, everything i touch, everything in this apartment just reminds me of you?
I get up suddenly when i hear the bell ring. I walk to the door slowly and open it, only to see Sungmin's worried face. I quickly hug him, not letting him greet me first. "Donghae, what's wrong?", he says, pulling apart. I just answer him with a weak smile. Then drag him in.
We sit on the couch crossed to the television. I tell him what happened last night, what i feel right now. And it only makes me start to cry bitterly again. Sungmin puts an I'm-so-sorry look on his face. He takes me to his embrace, rub my back, and start to reassure me with any words that i can't catch clearly, because i have lots of things in my head.
After a plenty of minutes, i finally calm down and can control myself, and mumble 'thanks' to the man in front of me. Then Sungmin starts another topics, "Hey, i guess you skipped breakfast, didn't you?", he says firmly. He knows me too well. I nod weakly and let him drag me to the kitchen. "Come on, i'll cook for you".
I watch him collecting the ingredients from the refrigator. I glance at the clock hanging on the wall. It shows 10.55 pm. No wonder i'm starving now, since i skipped dinner too last night, but not that i have my appetite in this kind of situation.
I'm really glad Sungmin's here. You used to be cooking for me back then. I cross my arms on the table and rest my chin on it, while i watch Sungmin turn on the stove. He glances at me and smile warmly. He's like my own hyung, always know how to treat me well. I curve my lips slightly for him. I know i can't disappoint him.
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It's been few weeks since the day you broke up with me. You never comeback. But I finally can manage my feeling of sadness. Not that i'm happy now. I still cry everytime i cherished our memories. But it's not very often, only sometimes. I realize that i have to live my life, even without you. Though i know i still can't get you out of my mind. But i decided to let it be. I never want to force myself to forget you. Just let it flow. Until i find someone to spend my life with.
Now i'm having lunch with Sungmin at coffee shop near my dance studio. I spend more time with him recently, sometime he took his boyfriend Kyuhyun along with him. I know Sungmin doesn't want to let me alone, being a caring bestfriend he is.
When i chew my food, my eyes widen as i see someone familiar comes in. It's you. But you're not alone. You're with a tall man who has a good body, and very handsome. I freeze when our eyes meet. We stare at each other for God knows how long. Then i see your grip on him tighter.
Then Sungmin snap my thought out, "Is that Kibum with Siwon?", he says. I look at him immediately, "Huh? Who?".
"I said he's Siwon who's with Kibum." he says in a low voice.
"You know him? Who is he anyway?", i ask him, trying to look careless.
"I don't know him that well. I just knew him because he's one of my friend's friend. He's the heir of his parent's business company." he adds carefully.
I just respond him with a weak 'oh'. I know Sungmin thinks that i don't want to continue this topic, so he remains silent. This is the very first time i meet you since that day. So, It's him. I finally understand why you left me in the first place, why you fell out of love with me. Siwon, or whatever his name, is just too good to be true. I can't compare to him. I'm not as handsome, as tall, as rich, as perfect as him. Maybe that's why you fell in love with him. I just smile bitterly accepting this. I think it's the best for us. For you at least.
~~~~~~~~~
I was on my way to the right turn, when i bump onto this guy. We both fall on our butt and facing each other.
"I..I'm sorry i didn't focus on my walking...", i appologize to him, as i get up abruptly and reach my hand to help him get up too.
"It's alright..", i hear him saying. But instead of take my hand, he tries to collect the papers that shattered after the crash. Then realization comes to my senses, so i help him collecting those. I take one paper, that caught my attention, because it seems familiar. My eyes widen in surprise as i look at it. It's the dance competition form application.
"Are you going to take part on this competition too?" i ask him, still wide-eyes.
"Huh?", he blinks, giving me a confused what-are-you-talking-about look. Well, that was... cute.
"I mean i'm taking this competition as well", i'm pointing at the form. "Well, i think we're going to compete each other." I add as i smile to him. I see him smiling back and nodding as he answer me. What a beautiful smile it is...
"Really? Well, i can't hardly wait~", he laughs, only to show his gums. I feel a thump in my heart as i saw his lovely gummy smile. My smile is getting wider unconsciously.
"Anyway, i'm Hyukjae." he throws his right hand enthusiastically.
I tilt my head slightly, then laugh. I think that was cute.. again. "I'm Donghae. Nice to meet you." Then we shake our hand.
Today, the sun seems shine brighter to me. I think i can face my next days with confidence. I'm no longer stuck in my past. I know i still can't get over you. But i know deep in my heart. i fall out of love with you as time pass by. I know i can move on now. I won't let my past haunt me. But not that i'm leaving it all behind. I'm learning from it. Because, every story of my life, whether it's happy or sad, has its own place in my heart.
~~~end~~~
A/n: Huff, it's done! Yay! I'm sorry it's boring... becoz i thought it's a cliche plot. Well, I was supposed to make hyukjae who left donghae instead of kibum. But i didn't have a heart. You know what i mean, right? I hope you guys enjoy to read this. Please comment?? I want to make friends with you all... Thanks *bow*
A/n 2: FYI, i'm working on Donghae/reader, can i post it to Hyukhae comm? Should i? Would you anticipate it? Oooh, i don't know...*frown*