a srs post. again.

[myglock_yrface]

so no one is really left on livejournal, which is why I feel comfortable posting this publicly. my life has been in shambles for a while now, & it's getting to a breaking point

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[agentdanger]

Hey, I chipped in! (Real name initials K.D.)
I can relate, since I've had times in life with no money, etc. Good luck to you!

[myglock_yrface]

thank you dearest! I hate being a soon-to-be-26-yr-old failure at life.

[glazomaniac]

if you're not yet 26, my friend, you've only yet begun to live. you can't honestly be dubbed a failure until you're at least 28 107.

[myglock_yrface]

I just feel older every damn day. I NEED TO GET OUTTT

[danschank]

this all sounds sucky. maybe also excitingly life-change-y too, which could be good, eventually? i don't know. i wish i had $$$ to donate, but i'm preparing for a big move myself and i'm super broke right now.

there are probably practical things you can do though, right? could you find a shit job for a few months and open a savings account? or are you paying your BF's family rent?

as for grad school, you can always just borrow the fucking money. i did, and i'm totally up shit-creek for it financially, and sometimes i feel like a total ass for doing so, but it was still 100% worth it. plus it's a great way to go to a new place and have built in people with similar interests.

if nothing else, be glad you aren't a half month shy of your 35th birthday (seriously, just put a fork in me right now and be done with it) and on your way to erie, PA for a year (my GF got a real-deal adult job), hahaha...

[myglock_yrface]

yeah, I desperately need a change. I thought moving away from wilmington would be enough, but it isn't even th place so much, but myself/my life I really need to turn around drastically.

I have applied to shit jobs. no luck w/ even lowest of low retail. I'm not paying rent but it still is impossible w/out money. or a car.

I need cash just to take th gre & get transcripts & application fees done, I don't even have that kind of scratch, & it's coming up soon. blah.

good luck w/ yr move, eek!

[danschank]

thanks... and good luck with whatever happens.

[hooveraardvark]

i'm really sorry hannah . . . i've been there. jonah and i lived with my parents for 7 months after college and it was awful, i totally understand. also if j and i ever broke up it would be a similar situation since we are also best friends with each other.

i sent you some monies and i will send more once i get paid at the end of this week.

if you need somewhere to stay while doing interviews/getting shit together you are totally welcome to come back to nyc and crash at our place again!

do not do egg donation, it has a lot of risks they don't advertise, and honestly your health is worth way more than any money they could offer you.

[myglock_yrface]

thanks, sarah, I really appreciate it. I've only been here for a little over three months & it is already exhausting. having a fixed car would help a lot, I think, & hopefully that will change soon, I talked to my father about getting it done this week. bleh.

I don't think I would get approved for egg donation as it is, my health isn't tiptop. it seems like a quick fix for money woes, but I know it's a dumb idea.

& if you ever need to talk about things, lately I'm on gchat almost constantly.

[hooveraardvark]

:( i'm sorry. let me know if i can help with resume/interview/school shit, i'm good at making people look impressive on paper!

one thing i have noticed about egg donation - THEY ALWAYS WANT THE DONOR TO BE TALL. oh, the hatred of the small folks.

can i send you a care package or will that add to stress (more stuff that you don't have room for etc)?

[myglock_yrface]

thanks, I might need some resume help actually, I can never seem to get an interview.

a care package would be nice <3

i wish i could help out even a little bit

[ghost_dinosaur]

but i have 2 dollars and 9 cents in my bank account until october. all summer my gf has been paying for everything whenever we go anywhere, which would make me feel a little guilty (and it does), but she does have a super real grown up job where she makes over $20/hr -- more than double what i have ever made at any job.

Re: i wish i could help out even a little bit

[myglock_yrface]

if you win th lotto think of me!

ha yeah, I have been in that situation way too often; I hate being a freeloader especially now, since we aren't together. I am going to sell some clothes at buffalo exchange (including stuff I like since most everything I could sell is in storage ;___;) & maybe my nintendo ds & games & some records & criterion dvds to a used bookstore here that gives cash. I hate that everything I could easily part w/ is not an option to sell because of being stuck here.

I've applied to so many jobs they have begun to blur together. I just want a damn paycheck.

where is all your stuff?

[ghost_dinosaur]

is the storage unit like in a diff city or something?

Re: where is all your stuff?

[myglock_yrface]

it's in two different storage units, jumbled up w/ Michael's parents stuff, so I'd need one of them along to help me, & that'd just raise drama right now. (his mother is a mid-to-high-level hoarder, which makes things exceptionally hard.)

hope it helps

[bob_le_flambeur]

keep me posted/i'll try to be online more often to talk and such!

Re: hope it helps

[myglock_yrface]

thank you lovely. I am selling a few things (criterions & horror dvds, nintendo ds, a couple books) to a used book/media store & clothes at buffalo exchange today, hopefully I will get some kind of cash for them. if I had easy access to my stuff it would be easier to sell things, once my car is fixed I need to go mad at th storage facility & just sell whatever I can.