sooo...here's the update ( Read more... )

HAPPY NEW YEAR.....hope you all had a better one then me...i was spent watching the ball drop alone, b/c i didn't feel goood so i didn't go anywhere....then crying in my room the rest of the night wishing i had dan to kiss and be with....so yuuuuuuuuupp, there it is

soooo i haven't updated in a long time...so here it goes...basicall....everyone in my family...knock on wood accept for my mom dad and i, have gotten the flu......ummmm.....christmas was ok, i haven't felt good for like a week for some reason.....today is my freakin 18th BIIIRTHDAYYYY!! hehehehe......umm so theres the good things, now the bad....i ( Read more... )

so yeah....i know that like 2 weeks ago or however long ago it was i told dan that i was over him...BLAH BLAH BLAAAAAAAAAH..and all that crap...and i was doing sooooooooo good for those two weeks...i BARELY even ever thought about him...or even talked about him...but the last 2 days have been horrible for me...all i can do is think about him and ( Read more... )

soo...i haven't updated this in like 23028913 years....nobody comments anyways so whats the point? oh well.........so this weekend was SOO MUCH FUN! and i only thought about dan ONCE thank you veeeery much! i did try calling him tho...BAD BAAAD BAD of me.....but thats ok whatever....i talked to joey pretty much all weekend and that made me ( Read more... )

Here are some things that i WISH would happen ( Read more... )

so blaaaaaaaaaaah...dan, jake, ryan, and a buddy from work all went up north this weekend.......i hate myself....i hate dan......i didn't hate talking to joey and derek last night....it was nice having someone to talk to....i haven't had that in a long time......and even tho i taked to them for an hr and a half....i got of and still felt lost.....i ( Read more... )

FIRSTS ( Read more... )

so i feel like my last like 4 or 5 entries have just been a bunch of complaining....but that's not what i'm trying to do AT ALL. I'm just trying to vent......put my feelings down....i don't want to talk about it with people one on one b/c all that they will do is roll their eyes....get mad and say "i told you so" and i don't want to hear it....so ( Read more... )

sooo this is what my break consisted of ( Read more... )