i had kindof a fucked up weekend ( Read more... )

patric and i have exchanged "i love you"s. today, we were laying and he was holding me and he said, "i just wanna hold you like this forever!" and i really wish that i could say that i wasn't at all excited when he said that. i really really wanted some time off of being a girlfriend. but i can't help how i feel about him. when he holds me tight ( Read more... )

i've had a lot of fun with patric the past couple of days. i've been through a lot of stress from the cj break up. but now that the dust has kinda settled, i've got new stuff to think about. i know i over think things and over analyze everything, i just can't help it. i worry about stuff. specially matters of the heart ( Read more... )

i just saw avatar today. it was more amazing than i thought it'd be ( Read more... )

i've been obsessed with the new placebo single out. i love it. it's, exactly how i feel most of the time. like... my insides ached when i listened to it today. yeah... i'm aching ( Read more... )

sooo... i'm never forgiving brian ever. ever ever ever. tagen asked him about bolting halloween night and he said that he felt uncomfortable, same thing he told me and then he said that everyone of us are morons. and then i guess not only did he insult everyone at my party for saying that but later he said, "i don't even like lori, i just tolerate ( Read more... )

*notice: this is the same update on my myspace blog.*

so today i played dj hero for the first time ever. it was kinda fun. but it's not really the type of music i'm into. i mean i don't mind it. but i have no rhythm with the hip hop so i missed a lot of "beats" i guess you would call them. they're not "notes" like in guitar hero but idk. but i was ( Read more... )

i might have to give my puppy up. yesterday was a nightmare. tubby was trying to eat mudd's raw hide bone. mudd started growling at him but tubby wouldn't back off... mudd bit him up pretty good. puppy's terrified of mudd now. it's really sad. i feel awful. i'm so glad cj was as fast as he was and got mudd off of the puppy before something really ( Read more... )

today... i felt kindof lethargic. didn't want to do anything. but idk... i cleaned up a bit last night. i didn't feel like cleaning up till late late. but my living space is pretty tidy now. it's more open. it made me feel better for a few minutes. i keep having dreams about people i know. well... not about people i know but people i know keep ( Read more... )

i want this. i want it.


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