ahhhggggg
im getting really sick of everything ,my life, everything...
:(
my parents...if you even want to call them parents...drive me insane...everytime i start to get somewhere with one of them or those few rare occasions when i have them both...somethign goes wrong all they ever do is fight over who did what and whos doing what with who...its so lame...im sick of being put in the middle of it, like 2 weeks ago , my mom was meeting with a lawyer bc she knows all the stupid crap my dad puts me thru now, shes moving, and im living with him...what the hell..my dad going on a cruise this weekend...my mom going to miami...this ones more on my mom then my dad...we were there last weekend...im sick as hell...shes leaving...theres no way im going to miami so ill stay here for the weekend...once again left alone...i used to think this was cool and i still think its fun to stay with my friends...but sometimes i just want my parents...to my dad im somethign to hold over my moms head and threaten not to pay child support, to my mom im her best friend one minute and her child the next, they both claim i will understand one day, i dont see what there is to understand, they arent parent-like, my mom begs me to stay home so that she doesnt have to get up in the morning, my dad lets me do just about anything i want with whoever i want, while he has suspicions of me doing bad things, they want to be my friend, and thats not what i need, like just now me and my mom got into a heated discussion about all this and how flaky they have both gotten and how they both accuse eachother of the same things and say how wrong they are, and how my dad doesnt take care of us and do his part and blah blah, then britt im going out with ppl from the office i wont be home late, last time she said that she strolled in at about 5:30 am, she holds every little thing she does for me over my head and makes me feel like im asking for so much or doing so much when really im just doing what all my friends are, she thinks im doing all these bad things if she really took the time to like look at my life maybe she would see, i have gotten away from so much "bad" stuff that i used to do and have new friends that she used to love and now im doing drugs and having sex, how bout when i was drinking she thought i was the best kid in the world, she reads me all these statistics and tells me all these stories about kids in divorced families and blah blah, she needs toopen her eyes she knows my biggest issue, her leaving, and over and over all she does is apologize claiming she didnt know how my dad was going to act blah blah that is the dumbest excuse ever, you were married to the guy, then she turns around and leaves again, sometimes i feel like i dont matter at all to either of my parents, they fight about everythign reguarding me and i feel like im just a burden to themm, i hate it, nomatter what im never going to live up to my families expectations and sometimes i wonder why i even try, they had an image for me before i was even born, everyday my mom asks me why im not hanging out with my old friends the ones she hated by the way, the "popular" girls, im like fine mom ill go hang out with them and get drunk and stoned will that make you happy as long as i am with the cool kids, she wants me to be her, cheerleader, date the jock, prom queen, homecoming queen, its just not me, she critizes my friends all of them, and like not even 4 months ago she adored them she doesnt see that they are pretty much all i have sometimes, she doesnt talk to me and tells me how dumb i am when i get upset over fights or other stupidness...when she saw me crying on the phone a few weeks ago she was like your so lame hang up on them, alright im sick of ranting
arg i have a buncha typos but i dont even care
ahhh
:(
my parents...if you even want to call them parents...drive me insane...everytime i start to get somewhere with one of them or those few rare occasions when i have them both...somethign goes wrong all they ever do is fight over who did what and whos doing what with who...its so lame...im sick of being put in the middle of it, like 2 weeks ago , my mom was meeting with a lawyer bc she knows all the stupid crap my dad puts me thru now, shes moving, and im living with him...what the hell..my dad going on a cruise this weekend...my mom going to miami...this ones more on my mom then my dad...we were there last weekend...im sick as hell...shes leaving...theres no way im going to miami so ill stay here for the weekend...once again left alone...i used to think this was cool and i still think its fun to stay with my friends...but sometimes i just want my parents...to my dad im somethign to hold over my moms head and threaten not to pay child support, to my mom im her best friend one minute and her child the next, they both claim i will understand one day, i dont see what there is to understand, they arent parent-like, my mom begs me to stay home so that she doesnt have to get up in the morning, my dad lets me do just about anything i want with whoever i want, while he has suspicions of me doing bad things, they want to be my friend, and thats not what i need, like just now me and my mom got into a heated discussion about all this and how flaky they have both gotten and how they both accuse eachother of the same things and say how wrong they are, and how my dad doesnt take care of us and do his part and blah blah, then britt im going out with ppl from the office i wont be home late, last time she said that she strolled in at about 5:30 am, she holds every little thing she does for me over my head and makes me feel like im asking for so much or doing so much when really im just doing what all my friends are, she thinks im doing all these bad things if she really took the time to like look at my life maybe she would see, i have gotten away from so much "bad" stuff that i used to do and have new friends that she used to love and now im doing drugs and having sex, how bout when i was drinking she thought i was the best kid in the world, she reads me all these statistics and tells me all these stories about kids in divorced families and blah blah, she needs toopen her eyes she knows my biggest issue, her leaving, and over and over all she does is apologize claiming she didnt know how my dad was going to act blah blah that is the dumbest excuse ever, you were married to the guy, then she turns around and leaves again, sometimes i feel like i dont matter at all to either of my parents, they fight about everythign reguarding me and i feel like im just a burden to themm, i hate it, nomatter what im never going to live up to my families expectations and sometimes i wonder why i even try, they had an image for me before i was even born, everyday my mom asks me why im not hanging out with my old friends the ones she hated by the way, the "popular" girls, im like fine mom ill go hang out with them and get drunk and stoned will that make you happy as long as i am with the cool kids, she wants me to be her, cheerleader, date the jock, prom queen, homecoming queen, its just not me, she critizes my friends all of them, and like not even 4 months ago she adored them she doesnt see that they are pretty much all i have sometimes, she doesnt talk to me and tells me how dumb i am when i get upset over fights or other stupidness...when she saw me crying on the phone a few weeks ago she was like your so lame hang up on them, alright im sick of ranting
arg i have a buncha typos but i dont even care
ahhh