feel the kiss of love- know that it's real these emotions we feel- feel the kiss of love- know that it's true when it happens to you. this stuff really really does get my stomach a-hurtin'. i'm sad about probably not seeing bradley...but you never really know at a time like this. i wish matt would get online. i like matt. i called him and ( Read more... )

I hate not having more music to listen to. I hate knowing people will read my shit. i'm bored so i'll just write. brian has a beautiful voice. makes me want to die and be sweet. i just got my cup back from fireworks. i'm happy because you can't read most of the words. all i put on it was tori lyrics. i love her. my tummy hurts. i really ( Read more... )

a beautiful limb ( Read more... )

alright. let's get two things straight.

1. i dont want anyone reading this besides the select few few very few friends i have told this about...

and

2. straight a's aren't the world.

i will crawl away into a corner now. thanks for not listening.

i swear my sister is a psychic and she's also out to get me in trouble every chance she can. life sure is a bitch. i smell like my man. mm. he's so fiiine hee hee. i have 2 dollars and 5 cents. i will slowly save up for brad monies. i love him up to death. i will talk to him soon. he is so wonderful and i miss him. he is so unbearably ( Read more... )

so many partial journal entries have been started and never sent because of other problems here at the home. I hope to see him today. He got up the other day. I went too. Yesterday he was sinking but more or less floating in one spot so i'm hoping he stays there until i can bring the helium because i dont want to have to scrape the pavement ( Read more... )

Yeah. I am sick. Period + sadness. I'm so very lonely. I have a feeling this is going to be a very lonely summer. I wonder if the music you listen to is a reflection of your mood--chosen because you were there, or something that puts you in a mood...or just deeper into the beginning of one. i'm not sure but i bet it's both. I am angry that ( Read more... )

brad is giving up. i really hate crap.....life in general. my stomach hurts so fucking bad. so much to say. i want to die...

ahh...finally. he is here with me. we listen to my music. we play our music. we play our games. we drive our car. we are happy...and he is so very very very very cute. happiness. last forever

he will be on soon. tomorrow is his last day. hopefully he can come thursday and play with me and eat pizza together. yum. i love him. he will be on soon. sun chips sun chips music sex sun chips happy thoughts missful thoughts i'm hot where are you to keep me warm i miss you and i'm dripping dripping dripping with sweat for you. more later ( Read more... )