April 1, 2005 "Ready? Set? EXPLODE!"

This isn't a silent tragedy.
It's read and reread and reread.
I've my ending.
I've my mixed feelings.

You left about two hours ago. Time's bent back and forth, very indecisive, like some teasing pendulum.
It knows that it has one up on you.
If this' the end, again, then I'm kind of pissed off that I'm still in one ( Read more... )

Keep in mind that some of this was written nearly or well over a month ago.

3/15/05 "This is what it means to take the dive."
Imagine a hole, a plain, a desert.
Surrounded by endless docks. Sea shells are the clouds over head.
The cracked dirt beneath your feet is the color of your eyes.
My favorite color.There are a random assortment of tin ( Read more... )

2/25/05

A hero is someone who does what they can.
Nervous laughter.
"Dude, I can't feel my body."

The party's still kind of rumbling in the background. The lights are all the while growing brighter and darker at the same time. Everything's explaining to me that it's alright.
I really can't see straight.See also: The cyclops ( Read more... )

My eyes were focusing on the screen.
My thoughts were wandering to different states.
Suddenly I came to and I was staring at the DVD player-
And everyone was asking me what was wrong.Something might be horribly wrong. Or not at all. I can feel it. I don't think I'll ever be as fortunate to sleep through hell when it breaks loose this time around ( Read more... )

Just for the record and fair warning (Last chance, turn back now ( Read more... )

These are the types of days that make me want to sit in the shower and slash my wrists and scream ( Read more... )

IF SLEEPLESSNESS PERSISTS
CONTINUOUSLY FOR MORE THAN
TWO WEEKS, CONSULT YOUR DOCTOR.
INSOMNIA
MAY BE
A
SYMPTOM OF
SEVERE
UNDERLYING
MENTAL
ILLNESS.

You have no idea.

Though you may say things that make my eyes close, I still find that marvellous.
Though you may say things that shatter and degrade, I love how you can make me feel infinite and ( Read more... )

I'm curious, and this is interesting. Before I go off on another ranting tangent-

You're going to ask me a question. There are no boundaries. I may, or may not answer you here.
If you want to know, Dying to know, now is your chance ( Read more... )

Here's where I begin-
Leave off
Abandonment. Senseless and irrational jealousy. HATRED.
Replacement? Replaced.
Wandering, Wondering, Wandering.
Have you ever seen the mountains in California? (Burn)
My tongue is sharp.
I am blind.
I am confused.
I am more than likely on too many drugs.

Nothing. NOTHING. NOTHING. NOTHING. NOTHINGNOTHINGNOTHING.
Is ( Read more... )

Where do I even start with all of this?

I can't.
I know that there are other places and another person and things that I should be taking part in.
I can't.
Kill me quick.

-Just Clinton