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everyday before work, i'm sitting outside smoking a cigarette with a cup of coffe in my left hand. it's like my "me" time. you know, i'm really not getting enough of those ( Read more... )

so this is it. i'm shutting down once again and it's not like i can help it. this weekend i realized i'm too dependent on bernard so things are starting to change. it's funny cuse for 17 years i've dealt with everything on my own and i was beginning to get used to it, but then bernard comes into my life and changes everything ( Read more... )

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sometimes i really hate this LE JAY ( Read more... )

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so in less that 24 hours bernard and i will be having massive heartpulsing bodypumping going so hard it gets hard to breathe sex. maybe get some touchups on my tattoo. along with xbox live i'm giving bernard my first and only copy of the perks of being a wallflower because it changed my life and so has he ( Read more... )

in 20 days, bernard and i will be celebrating our 1 year anniversary. hopefully if things plan out the way they should, there will be a romantic candlelight dinner with rose petals and me in ( this. )

nobody ever said starting over was easy. i don't know why i continue to have expectations when i know they won't be met. i feel the start of 2005 has put me back in confusion. the past three weeks, i have been thinking about what i've learned and what i can bring into the new year, and now. i don't know ( Read more... )

i really need to be over this. over everything. long entry with jumbled everything later.