Paper angst
Given the choice between F/S angst and "writing a final paper for a grad class" angst, I will take always take the first, even if it breaks my heart....
So, I have taken off work for half of the week to work on my paper. It has to be 20 pages, give or take. I've written 14 strong (without the three page "works cited") so far (don't even ask how many hours I've spent). I should be happy with the progress, but I've bitten off more than I can chew, seemingly, and to really do a proper job on this paper it would take me a whole semester and be twice as long, at least. This is the working title: VIEWS OF VIRGINITY AND CHASTITY FOR WOMEN IN LATE ANTIQUITY, ANGLO-SAXON ENGLAND, AND LATE MEDIEVAL ENGLAND: AN EXPLORATORY PAPER ON THE CONTINUITY OF IDEAS
I haven't even gotten to the "examine an Old English text" part of the paper yet (what my professor really wants), although I've written all around it. I've read an incredible amount and have learned just as much. I have to figure out how to finish it in a way that won't make me cringe. I am a perfectionist and am awfully hard on myself, especially when it comes to writing and scholarship I will be judged against.
Can't wait to be finished and just dally on LJ again. Well, tomorrow is another day to hack at this, and tonight is not over yet....
*waves and retreats*