sometimes i can just feel everything the world has to offer, and i don't know if i'm ready for it

[mymusicaljesus]

today during my lunch break (which i take in my car under the shade) i just broke down. No one was around and my eyes just started to water and my stomach and heart were both in knots. i miss my mom and i can't help but think of the last time i saw her and the conversation we had. the sincerity in her eyes when she spoke. The hope she had for

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[heartpump]

i always think about how, if i knew it were the last time i'd have seen her, i would've been so different, so much more grateful. whatever. it's fucking torture. i'm sorry.

[ilovehotpockets]

I just heard about you and Ashley about two weeks ago while passing the Wig Wam motel and freaked out.

[mymusicaljesus]

So, you heard how she had been talking to some guy from phoenix while we were still dating and that i eventually caught her and she broke up with me. Saying that the AZ guy was nothing, yet she moved there for a month this summer. and that while we were still "talking as friends" she neglected to tell me she was running away to him or to another state (not that it's my business, but honesty always helps) and that now, less than 3 months after breaking up, she is dating this guy and calling him her boyfriend. I never expected her to be the type, but was i fucking wrong. I did EVERYTHING for this girl. I just wish i could get over a four year relationship as fast as she did.
She's not the same.
I don't think she even knows who she is anymore. (the truth hurts)
she needs time to be on her own and to quit leaning on others. And it's not even that I wish she was with me right now, i just miss the girl with the sun in her hair and eyes like a deer.
and that's the stupid dramatic truth of it all.

i'm glad you and i met though.