i have a job.. for about a week... this is so sad...someone just hire me and give me all your money!!

Well,I suppose what I did wasn't that horrible.I was just being dramatic.hm..either way I can't sleep and I'm awfully tired and I hate wander thoughts at the late hours.it doesn't do much good to your anxiety.it makes it much worse.I don't know what's really happenning in there.I just get nervous and it bugs me and its ok to feel all these emotions ( Read more... )

ok.. i'm going to try to have a normal entry and not fill up a the entire screen..cuz i don't want to sit infront of the comp so damn long. I just had the pondering thought of how can you feel soo happy and try to remain content with what you have..I know " Happiness is not a destination but a journey" but life isn't always so extreme in emotions ( Read more... )

change of mood. i don't feel like writing an entry but i'm full of thoughts, i promise ( Read more... )

i developed a disease called stay away from me cuz i'm useless and boring. and I'm still unemployed.i just don't know what to think anymore.I feel like i'm in this rut that i can't get out of.. theres my sense of pride that is limiting me from things...and i'm being that troubled teenager that wants to lay in bed and not dare to look into the ( Read more... )

LP ROCKS!!

finally lj, i got internet at my apt! this is amazing.. for months i have been fighting with the cable people.. and this whole not watching tv thing...WOW.. cable makes a difference.. i mean i hate tv but i love watching movies.. and thats all i have been doing.. and of course looking for jobs cuz BEING BROKE SUCKS in the most major way. I've been ( Read more... )

yeah i can't agree more with es about being depressed around the holidays. tho usually i dn't know why its one my favorite time of year. but its totally completely a time full of anxiety now to even enjoy the "spirit of the holidays" it just seems like a far distant memory of actually enjoying it. 2005 in about a week.. am i ready.. i think not. ( Read more... )

Hey lj!weLl I don't completely have the hang of using This contraption just yet.well anywho I'm getting all emotional and I don't want to deal with it.I'm completely in love with the tegan and sara album and its just so depressing.maybe its just me but I think that album had a lot to do with sara's breakup with her girl."so far away and I just can' ( Read more... )

Too much of a good thing can go bad.one must learn to let go.I wonder if she will ever let go .