(not to generalize your pain, but perhaps, to make it something less daunting and admitting that this could be completely wrong) I think you're just single. The relationship/romance/whatever angle of your life, previously (at least a little more) stable, has been thrown into chaos again.
Yeah, I think that being single is really starting to sink in for me now... Because it's just starting to get me upset when I think about the fact that I'm not needed, or something... gah. I just wish I was confident in my own skin and actually liked myself and never had to doubt that... and the fact that I don't feel needed makes me feel even more alone..
bleh. yeah. just not used to it I think. And to be honest it's a pretty shitty thing to get used to..but if I don't get used to it then that means I'll never have a good chance of getting out of it! So, once again.. I need to get over myself.
Dammit, I hate when I have nothing to say that can possibly be useful to you. I will never be able to understand why people are so thrown off-balance by being single. Probably because my default mindset is "I DON'T NEED ANYONE AT ALL BWAAAAH GO AWAY" and when I know someone is in love with me/needs me, it makes me squirmy in a bad way.
So... if I said I needed you it would totally contradict what I just said, but I LOVE YOU and I'm terrified that you'll go back to him.
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(hugs)
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I just wish I was confident in my own skin and actually liked myself and never had to doubt that... and the fact that I don't feel needed makes me feel even more alone..
bleh. yeah. just not used to it I think. And to be honest it's a pretty shitty thing to get used to..but if I don't get used to it then that means I'll never have a good chance of getting out of it! So, once again.. I need to get over myself.
Thank you for the hug!
*hugs back*
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So... if I said I needed you it would totally contradict what I just said, but I LOVE YOU and I'm terrified that you'll go back to him.
Also, give it time.
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but I'm going to feel like shit about the fact that I want to. :\
pissbuckets.
bah! time!
impatience is all I got X_X
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You just gotta keep fighting through this LifeSucks period, and eventually you'll figure it out.
::insert epic motivational monologue here::
FREEDOM!
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and I know it's more amazing than dwelling on LifeSucks, so yay. I'll figure it out soon
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