so here i am. long time no see ( Read more... )

LJ is stupid but i've always written for me and for me only. besides, i'm at work in student services and i'm bored as shit and i can't look at myspace or facebook for another second or my eyes might fall out ( Read more... )

my dad got laid off today. happy thanksgiving everyone.

If only I could still obsess of you
Well, I suppose that I probably still do
'Cause you're the only unattainable
Untainted, the one infallible

all i need to do is remind myself what matters and what im working for and everything will be okay. all this nonsense and stupid clutter on the way is just biding my time as a filler. i came to monmouth for two reasons and only those two reasons. me and music. ill get myself through this year by the skin of my teeth. then i'll move on. ( Read more... )

hate is a strong word. i am raging.

i need something to fill this void.

today is the first day of freshman orientation, which means two days til the first day of classes, and i am a senior. SO WEIRD. nothing feels in its right place. summer is over? when did summer start ( Read more... )

3am and i can't effin sleep 2nd night in a row. i really never thought it would be this way but i can't sleep without him. i can't spend another night here; i have to convince my parents i can't stay for the second graduation and get back to school tomorrow. i've never been in a needy relationship like this, i think, cause actually it's hard to ( Read more... )

i feel sick. i am hoping that this summer i will trip and land in myself or something and cure this terrible disease called confusion in who i am.

MAINE is:

nothing short of beautiful, a different way of life, unbelievable, non-mid-atlantic, calm, quiet, stress-free, breathtaking, cute, friendly, unique, untouched, slow, peaceful and loving.

my trip to maine with ed is something that will always define us.