So I never write on this thing anymore, and maybe I should, but I really don't have anything important to say ( Read more... )

Fuck everyone that I actually thought was my friend, turns out I just get stabbed in the back, EVERY fucking single time!

I wanna make you happy
But I'm falling
I'm sorry.

So, I'm so confused about all my emotions right now, and honestly, I don't think that anyone really knows how I'm feeling, and I hate that I'm being pushed to explain how I feel about everything all the time, who cares anyway, who ever cares ( Read more... )

I'm sick of being me, I wish that I wasn't. I really wish that I wasn't used all the time. USED!!!! I'm on the phone with Casey right now, I miss him, I miss him A LOT!!!! <3. Fuck LIFE!!!

Just to let everyone know, so no one talks about it at all:

ETTI AND I ARE NO LONGERA COUPLE, SO PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE DO NOT TALK ABOUT IT... I'M OK, I JUST DON'T WANT TO HEAR ABOUT IT!!!

Besides all of that, the show was cool, the complex is alright, and they have another show on Friday the 13th. at the Cajun house!! (Venue of Scottsdale)

I haven't said anything in awhile. Etti and I are going down the drain, I just don't think that there's much chance for us, although I would like things to work out. I think I'm just better off being alone maybe, cause everytime I try to do something, I end up getting hurt... I don't know if that's cause I'm doing something wrong, or if wrong ( Read more... )

weird thing, its been about five months since I last talked to Chase, and here I am, catching him online, talking to him, it's weird...

That's about it!

*You, you are all and everything that I have always wanted, I hate that I can't do anything about it and I hate that you can't trust me. I wish we had met at another time, when I wasn't so down on myself and when you had known what you wanted... Know that I will always care about you and our friendship means the world to me. I will never forget ( Read more... )

Ok, so its four twenty one and I am sad, I wish there was something that I could do to make me happy but I don't think there is. I don't think I am in a healthy relationship, which maybe that's why I'm in it, I care about Etti and I doubt that Etti cares about me. Now that I'm in this relationship it's like I almost feel like less of a person ( Read more... )