Glad that you're still looking for that. I thought something happened the other night. I'm so tired of getting my hopes up to have them shot down again and again.
I just miss you. And it should be me tonight.

I guess I'm emotionally fucked now. For good. I swear my hearts literally the size of a dime now... or at least the pieces are. He's #1 in your life now.. I can't change that I guess. I just want you to be happy..

FUCK. Why does this make me so sick?

I feel like the biggest pile of shit right now. The worst part being it's not even something in my control. I feel like you hate me. I feel like I've let you down yet again. I seriously hate myself right now.

I'm really scared, and I'm really confused. I don't know what to think about this upcoming weekend. I just know it won't be anything I can expect. We're two different people, and I think we're both in for a shock. I hope everything stays good between us, and things work out how they're supposed to. More than anything I want you to be happy. I want ( Read more... )

Fuck me.

I can't stop shaking now.

I hate the powers you have.

Ouch. 
For real. 
Fucking ouch.

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I just had someone show me someone else's lj entry, and it caught me completely off guard.

"Patrick and I havent spoken in 3 months and I miss him and just wish I could tell him that Im sorry. Sorry for everything."

I kind of wish you would tell me that. I would like to see you face to face again. Maybe to start over..

!!!WAY EARLY CHRISTMAS LIST!!!


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This is dedicated to two beautiful women,
Two of my best friends, who mean nothing less than the world to me.
You've always been here, for as long as I can remember.
Always comforting, and never quick to judge,
Putting me before anything and everything,
And showing me what true love and friendship is.
I don't see you two often enough, 
But when I do, it's ( Read more... )

ever have those days lifetimes, where you just want to die?