Trying just to cope...still kinda in a state of shock...I miss my social structure almost more then the much needed finances. Thanks for the kind words.
While I am sorry to hear that, it will do you no good to sit there moping about it.
I mope enough for the both of us.
So you can't get swept into a hurricane while dealing cards anymore. Big woop. Life is all about opportunity. Take the money you've been saving up and go find something in your field that you are passionate about. Or even consider going back to school to widen your field if you like.
I don't have money saved, I was trying to get caught up, been having lots of car problems lately...but whatever. I like what I was doing and WHO I was doing it with. I just lost my work family-which hurts more then my financial instability. I am happy in this field and the opportunity is there to make it. Fuck my "field" and fuck you if you can't understand. For that matter fuck going back to school-why so I can be a lifetime student?! Maybe that's your passion, not mine. It's my life and I'll deal with it how I want and do with it what I want. And I won't be talked down to by someone like you who I've never seen act like more of a hypocrite. I'm still in shock and I'm venting-that's what a journal is for. Not happy bullshit thoughts. I don't question your emotional rants, if you can't be supportive, stay out of mine.
LOL, glad you liked it :-) Have I mentioned lately I miss you!!! Thanks for replying. Still don't know what I'm going to do. I'm exploring my options in that depressed, broke, not eating much and sleeping lots kind of way. But I have filed unemployement and submitted some resume's. We'll see where we go from here.
I applied over at Hard Rock today. The thing is they only have Poker right now which I don't deal and they hire all dealer's from within first. However there is a lot of talk of them getting class 3 gaming (all that fun stuff that is not currently legal in Florida like Black Jack, Craps, Roulette, that kind of thing...hence the reason for all those boats to beging with). Since they are a reservation they will get it first, but that have to fight freaking Jeb and the religious right. Rumos says they've already bought the tables-question is how long will the red tape last. If I get a job in a nondealing capacity it could get my foot in the door-but the pay for what is available is sucky...Who knows right now? Sure as hell isn't me.
Miss you too! As far as Hard Rock see below... I did email my resume to Sun Cruz today as they are all over the state including a location near here they are planning on reopening. Though they like their dealers to have 3 years experience. You'd be amazed how hard it is to break in with lil experience. It's all who you know...so I'm working on my networking. Don't have a clue where I'll end up though. we'll see...
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and start over.
it is OK, happens to everyone
you will find something else
possibly something better!
don't sink into sadness
try & keep your head up
otherwise you won't see
the possiblities.
love,
jaime
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I mope enough for the both of us.
So you can't get swept into a hurricane while dealing cards anymore. Big woop. Life is all about opportunity. Take the money you've been saving up and go find something in your field that you are passionate about. Or even consider going back to school to widen your field if you like.
Just stop feeling sorry for yourself.
Think less. Act more.
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Love you sweetie, and I am sorry that things are not great for you right now.
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If all else fails, you should just move back to this area and work for Sterling or SunCruz....they need some more personable dealers. =)
Miss you!
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