A lot has occurred in the past 2 days.  I'm still trying to wrap my mind around it all.  He told his mum about us.  I'm both glad and quite nervous about that.  Glad cos that means I am an important person in his life, but nervous cos that now puts some pressure back on me to try to impress them...and get his family's approval of me.  Though as he ( Read more... )

I'm not interested in anyone reading this, I just need an outlet.  And this is my one "safe" haven.  When the morning started I had no clue what kind of day I was in for.  Kev is wonderful and sweet and did his level best to distract me from what was going on, but he can't be up all day.  I love the way he wakes me in the mornings and how that ( Read more... )

Today he spoke to her. Today he picked up the phone and rang her. I'm not sure how long he spoke to her. I think it's best that I not think too much about that lest that green-eyed monster rear it's ugly head.
While my head understands his need to speak to her (I know he loved her and that they promised to remain friends), I'm not so certain of my ( Read more... )

This is the first time, I've really added anything since Kev said we could give this (a relationship) a try.  I'm still a bit worried that I may be his rebound girl, but I'm hoping that time will prove me wrong.  He is speaking to me of a future, a future with us together.  I had wanted to see him at Christmas, but that's just not going to be ( Read more... )

I'm not sure that there's much that could marr the happiness I'm still feeling. It's been a long day...well, actually a new day has since begun.   I've a sick child to attend to and several loads of laundry now to finish up.  O_o;;  But even that has not dampened my feelings of happiness.  He finally told me what I had so longed to hear.  He says ( Read more... )

My letter (unopened) to you ( Read more... )

It's been 3 weeks, maybe longer. I've no real concept of the amount of time that's passed. She broke up with him...which lasted only a few days, then yesterday, they seem to have broken up for good. He is, of course, heartbroken and I....I no longer know what I am. Over the course of the last few weeks he has managed to take me on one huge ( Read more... )

Why must my body betray me so?  I woke this morning and Kev's name immediately came to the forefront of my thoughts.  And when it did, I felt my pulse begin to quicken and my heart begin to race.  My breathing becomes more shallow as I find he really is capapble of taking my breath away.  My body betrays me!!  These are not the reactions of someone ( Read more... )

I'm a sad, sad sod.
He is still mad about her though she's no longer quite so mad about him. And like the fool I am, I'll sit here waiting....always waiting.
Waiting for a love that will indeed not be returned to me.
I'll sit here with my daydreams and my secret desires, all the while knowing it'll never be.
For all the things he's said and even ( Read more... )

I shouldn't have let myself think about it, let alone have a rather vivid daydream of it. But there it is....I did think it, I did daydream about it, and now I'm all the sorrier for it. I hate that I even allowed myself to have hope that it could even be a possibility...a reality. I'm not sure what made me think of it. But suddenly there was ( Read more... )