This is basically mind-boggling...

I am so damn happy. LAst night I couldn't sleep(but i wasn't upset about it, it was just cause I'm happy) and then I kept waking up this morning. At areound 9:30 I coudn't stay in bed anymore so I just got up. I'm going to the movies with my family at around 12:30 and then work till 7.

After work I'm gonna go ( Read more... )

I actually have had a really good day. I enjoyed myself with all the goofing off, tickling, and such. I have to be with other people much more often. It was fun doing a whole lot of nothing and not being nervous the whole time. I like being able to be myself and not worrying about what other people think. Thursday night should be good as well ( Read more... )

I'm really fucking confused about everything right now.  I know I update this thing spastically, perhaps because of the current problems I will update more? Maybe that will help me.  I really don't know...

I almost forgot what it felt like to want to die. I'm oh-so-fucking-glad its back, stronger then before.

I don't think i give a shit about ( Read more... )

I'm sorry I'm depressed again

Dan: its not because you're hanging out with friends

I don't know what's wrong with me

Such stupid little things make me almost cry, or actually do make me cry

I'm pathetic

Please don't yell or be angry at me; I'm just low

I wish I could control my feelings;

I just wanted to make the shit stop

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What is my mood? I am quite confused....

I think (and am afraid) that I may relativley stop eating.  I know this isn't good, and I don't want to upset anyone it's just.... gah.  I'm hungry, but not really.  I'd rather focus on my hunger then eat to fulfill it.  I don't want to eat.  I know that I'm not fat, but I am beginning to gain a bit of a ( Read more... )

I'm horrible at updating journals; whether they be online or real.  I keep them up for a week or so, sometimes even a month then I just stop writing in them.  It always happens, I don't know why I even bother starting new journals.  Yes, I would like a journal that I could read back on, but for some reason I just stop writing.  I guess  I do start ( Read more... )

Wow.... long time since I've updated. Over a month I think. ...

No idea what to say, or what to write rather. Nothing new really is going on in my life. Things with Dan are amazing, but I expected that, hehe :P. We went on a field trip the day of our threemonth annerversary. That was a lot of fun, 17-hour field trips, woot!

I'm still getting ( Read more... )

It's funny how a simple moment in an ordinary day can bring about a complete change in the way you look at life. Every person has several defining moments in their lives, moments that define how they look upon life, what they see for themselves in the future; these moments truly define each of us. When these special moments happen we are sometimes ( Read more... )

I'm babysitting Tor right now (Victoria, my 6-year-old sister) and its really not that bad. Yea, she can get really annoying but when its just me and her she's ok. Right now I'm introducing her to classic rock, now Floyd and next Zepplin; she needs something better to listen to then little kid shit. She will not grow up to listen to pop and ( Read more... )