currently experiencing the sensation of my uterus tearing in half. therefore, i cannot sleep. in order to pass the time and keep from my miserable tossing and turning, i am searching my brain to remember the ( Read more... )

shit. i just ate my leftover pad kimao that i intended to save for lunch. i'm such a heffer. i've been fighting off the melancholy with positive thinking all day, but at this hour i've lost my strength to do anything but feel sorry for myself and kiss my cat. which reminds me of a certain lindsay hall who wouldn't allow herself to talk to boys ( Read more... )

do you find yourself grappling for selflessness and a glimpse of meaning in your days only to come to the end of them and find yourself to be a hedonistic bastard? and you cry yourself to sleep at night because you realize that you are everything that you've convinced yourself that you hate ( Read more... )

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as i attempt to lay my head down on my pillow at the end of this glorious day, i must admit that this is perhaps the greatest thanksgiving ever. not only did i wake up in denver colorado to mountains and a crisp clear sunny sky, i also woke up to the sound of my family's footsteps above my head as i snuggled into my down nest in the basement. a ( Read more... )

i love crisp red and orange leaves, with the new animal collective in my ears and a latte in my hands. this weather is just not natural! but i can't lie, i heart it. there will be time enough for scarves and sweaters. last night i watched too much pbs and now i'm deathly afraid of the bird flu and a little groggy. i should be reading but writing is ( Read more... )

they're painting faces in the learning center today for halloween. after i meet with my last client i think i might get a shining sun on my left cheek. halloween celebrations have been going on for the past four days now. most of it felt like a scene from a movie. laura's myspace costume was an especially big hit. dancing with dirk at the ( Read more... )

hurricane katrina. tropical storm stan. earthquake in india and pakistan.

what the fuck is going on? so much death and pain. it's hard to understand.

last night i dreamt that theo tried to escape from my house and i caught him by the hind legs as he attempted to dash off the porch and he kept pulling and pulling away from me and i couldn't get a good grip on him and i was soooooo scared. but there were tons of friends on the porch so i finally yelled "can i get some help please!?!?!" and finally ( Read more... )

last night i busted out my down comforter and snuggled in so right and tight while the crisp fall breeze came through my window and blew across my nose. i continually woke up, looked at my clock, then smiled to myself as i remembered that it was saturday, snuggling deep deep deep into my cozy bed. my new curtians have turned my room into a blissful ( Read more... )