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mystar1102

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Mar 27, 2004 00:59

I just feel like nobody understands. I mean, am I not supposed to be upset about this? I feel like nobody cares. Mike asked me what was wrong tonight... he said I was acting funny. Taryn doesn't even give two shits... all she cares about is the fact that Brent had sex with another girl. And shes supposed to be my friend. Bussard acts like I shouldn ( Read more... )

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ash_kem March 27 2004, 12:39:32 UTC

i wish i could give you the answers you need, but i can't. i went through the same thing with aunt lynne, and i know how tough it is. and it's scary. you wonderi wish i knew the answers to those questions, but i don't. i asked the same questions when aunt lynne died. you wonder how people can continue to go about their business when your life is so disrupted by the death of someone so close to you. it's hard. and it's scary. i always wonder who's next. because someone has to be...

it's so horrible. but, like with everything else, it will get better with time. just keep her in yoru heart.

& i'm here.

ash_kem March 27 2004, 17:27:50 UTC

aw, man. i spelled "your" wrong. not to ruin the mood, but yea, it bothered me. i still love you. :)

ash_kem March 27 2004, 20:27:01 UTC

Thanks baby :). I'm glad you know what I'm going through. And Car, I'm glad that you don't (at least I don't think you do). Most of the time its just so hard to explain... like you think about it, and think about it, and think about it and it just makes you go nuts. I couldn't sleep last night because I kept seeing her face. Nights are the worse. But I keep trying to tell myself that it's ok, that I don't have to hurt. And then I realize that shes not gonna be here anymore. I picture her sitting in her chair across from my grandfather and then she just disappears. You always feel like you can change things... like you can make it different somehow. But you can't. Because shes gone. And the scariest thing is, how are you supposed to know if you are ever going to see them again? What happens if when you die... you just die? Its hard to believe in Heaven and yet, its hard not to. I just wish I could stop hurting. I hate this... I can't stop being sad.

?? ash_kem March 28 2004, 15:56:48 UTC

um in not sure if that was suppose to be an ignorant comment or what but thats how i took it,,,i do understand i have lost 2 grandmothers already and another in which is dying right now,,,my pap which i must say was the hardest considering i lived with him as he died and i slept in his hospital bed in this same exact house as i live in today,,,i watched him from the stairs as they rolled him out of this house...and to keep in mind i have lost 2 of my cousins before they even turned sixteen,,,i mean i could be taking this wrong but i do understand death is just something id rather not talk about,,im sorry