one life to live...

[mystic_shika]

Sometimes I really just hate myself... I have a beautiful girlfriend whom I love with all my heart... and yet I find ways to push her away. I'm so scared of losing her that I ask stupid questions all the time or I assume things, and I have no reason to... I don't want force her away, but I feel like I am. I have told her countless times that I am

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[writer_of_all]

Britney that is pretty normal to sometimes feel that way so don't think it's just you. Sometimes you just get crazy and lose your head sometimes. I would for nothing but happiness for you, even if it's not with Shawna, as long as you find someone who when you hold their hand,for that second in time the entire world just fills with love.
Also she is young so she may be confused who knows, but my uncle told me to just enjoy the moment and don't worry about the future, just let the clock tick away and what will be will be. Also if she isn't willing to tell people about you it might be a deeper and bigger problem than you truly think or that she comprehends.
Just remember, if it becomes more than you can handle and you feel you're being shoved back into the closet and hidden away, then maybe you'll have to make that difficult choice of saying goodbye but that is your call.
You know you can always call if you need to talk.
Love ya my favorite les. ^^