yeah..another day in this crappy year..I have totally lost my x-mas spirit. I'm going crazy too..I saw Santa out driving today..and b4 that I saw like tons of ppl in santa hats. This is the very 1st year in which I'm not excited or happy about x-mas. Must be like the very 1st x-mas in which i am depressed and sad. Hopefully it'll be my last. Gah, ( Read more... )

I hope you have a wonderful b-day even tho jsh is being an @$$hole today and I sorry about that. You can watch R-rated movies now! YAY! Only 2 more years for me tho.

Gah, why do guys have to be so stupid and act like a jerk most of the time???!?!?!

till x-mas, yet where is the christmas spirit this year? YAY! I got out of the hosue today!! Went to borders and target w/ nick and nithya. Nithya: Lookie @ the metal thong for carmine! HAHA. Too bad ralphus no show up and that lacey and josh show up right before I leave. Satisfaction be the awesomest song eva! I was like listenin to that song ova ( Read more... )

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I feel so..LIBERATED and a lil bit HAPPY!! Exams were horrible! I should've study..but it was way too boring. Had Chem and Math exam. Stupid clock in Math was 1 hr ahead..and when I look up @ clock it said 12 and i was like HOLY CRAP, I ONLY HAVE 10 FREAKIN'MINUTES, so I like rushed thru everything. O well. Nithya's party tonite! YAY!! It gonna be

Thanks to all the people who be concerning about me lately, good news; i sorta better now :) I be able to eat and sleep! *don't worry, i not gonna kill myself..eva, cuz i too big of a chicken to do that ( Read more... )

stupid bottled emotions within me are starting to make me sick *literally* I can't eat or sleep and everytime I try to eat, it literally does hurt me and causes pain. My stomach feels like rejecting everything I consume and the only thing I can manage is to drink. I feel as if I'm returning back into my childhood of rejection, my relationship with ( Read more... )

Couldn't get ne sleep last nite..dunno why, but I did get me 1 hour of some good sleepin'..then my mom comes in and be like "TIME 4 SCHOOL" which suxs..cuz it took me like 4 hrs just to get to sleep. I go to school all tired yet...strangely energetic?! Good thing we had a fiesta in spanish today,but I got like a sugar rush from eatin' all that ( Read more... )

Ah, every year we have a lil thing called the Martinez Christmas Parade, b4 i started high school..I liked watchin' the parade and especially gettin' candy but since I've started marchin'band, I dread the parade now.This year was really crappy cuz we were the freakin' last band!!! I got there like around 1 and it didn't start till 3 and we had to ( Read more... )

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