I've decided I am going to return to grad school next year.  If they will take me back.  Since I was academically disqualified.  I'm going to take it slow, one class at a time.  I need to finish what I started.  I will always wonder about if if I don't ( Read more... )

I'm having horrible, horrible problems with anxiety.   Existential terror, anyone know what this is?    When I am anxious, this is where my mind goes, to my belief that this is all there is.  That there is no god, no afterlife, etc.  And I literally have a panic attack everytime.  I just did.  It happened to me last night too.  I remember having ( Read more... )

So Jenna Loves Rocco grossed me out, though I loved the chain bra that Jenna was wearing over her big fake breasts.   I'm so not in that place right now!  Men are just grossing me out.  And no, that doesn't mean women are suddenly looking good.  I don't think I am looking for sex.  I'm just looking for a transcendental connection.  I don't connect ( Read more... )

I'm so excited!    I've almost downloaded all of Jenna Loves Rocco.  That's going to be the highlight of my night.

Mindy canceled tennis on me to go to some lame ass party she thought was actually tomorrow night.  Then some asshole backed into my car and drove off.  Nice.  My poor little Honda.  It's not bad but the back bumper got fucked up.  No ( Read more... )

A Stranger I Know

When I look in your eyes, I fear I will catch fire, burn up
and become a pile of ashes at your feet.
With every glance I am exposed,
wishing to hide.
I've known your voice since birth,
riding in the back of the Chevy on the way to Riverside. 
Watching the adults attempt to live
while walking in shackles.
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I was talking to Mindy yesterday when she asks me to go to F Street to pick up some bachelorette party supplies for a friend of hers.  The mission was "to buy five penis straws and a veil with penises hanging from it."   I declined to help, but later I was thinking about this.  Do men wear big vagina hats and eat corn-nuts out of bowls shaped like ( Read more... )

Today I have a new obsession: Graham Nash.    I saw him at a lecture at MOPA back in late March and there was something about him, an aura or something, that I felt very drawn to.  There's just something about him.  I know, so why am I thinking about this now?  Well of course I saw CSNY a few weeks ago but, and I am ashamed to admit this, I just ( Read more... )

I just returned from Fashion Valley with close to $300 worth of clothes in my bag...courtesy of my AMEX.  There are a lot of clothes this season that are "rock" inspired and I wanted to get on in it before they were gone.  I bought two shirts, one I am calling my Mary Austin shirt (for my Queen people out there) and the other is kind of hard to ( Read more... )

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