Artist Baton
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LOL. THIS IS GONNA BE LONG. 'CUZ I TRIED TO ANSWER IT, SERIOUSLY. I THINK. 8D;
◆ Your name?
SPAAAAIN!SAKU. (笑)
◆ If possible, your age?
Turned 81 last month... FTW.
◆ When did you start drawing?
Ughm. Never thought about this, LOL ... I've been drawing since forever and forever ago = w=a ... IT'S LIKE HAVING THIS. BEATING. FUNCTIONAL HEART. OTZ. EACH HEARTBEAT, I DON'T AND CAN'T EVEN COUNT ANYMOAR, JUST LIKE THE YEARS I'VE BEEN DRAWING ;DD *romanticplz!* SHT. MAN. DRAWING. ART. ITS LIKE. MY FUCKING LIFE-LONG LOVER, BITCHES @ W@!!<333333
......... seriously? I think it can go as far back as ... kindergarten or earlier?? = w= ... seriously started to draw "animuu" shit is probably ... around 3rd grade? I dunno. 8D.
But that's liek. with pencil and marker and that kinda ghetto crap @ u@)/!!! ... ... probably around 8th grade I started CG that sorta spiffed out shit, I think? @ W@ ..........
◆ Which hand do you use for drawing?
... right, when I'm srs. Left, when I'm bored -- I think my left hand creates THE MOST EPIC SHIT ever \ @ A@)/ (nokidding!)
◆ Which is easier to draw - male or female?
.... female, I guess. orz. Because. I... am someone that needs to observe anatomy and sht alike -- and I feel ... awkward, staring at a man's crotch when I'm trying to figure out how to draw something -- LOL. AS IN. I DON'T CHECK GUYS OUT -- .......... ohsht. This makes it sound like as if I check girls out instead TAT !!! ... N-NO! It's 'cuz I'm a girl, too LOL?! ... so .......... yah. if... that made any sense, WOW. 8D;
But. All in all, I like ... androgynous things. Oh, my pretties<333...
◆ Which is easier to draw - long hair or short hair?
Ughmm .... I guess long, but it's a pain to colour? @ W@; ... Short is. simple and easy. but I really fail in capturing the "layerings" LOL orz... so they always look ... FLAT /criez/ ..... but. hopefully .... because I have short(er) hair now... I'll be able to draw better short hairs? = w=b...
I dunno.
◆ Is it easier to draw the head facing towards the right or the left?
.... I prefer drawing faces that's towards... the left ... orz. I can do right. But. when I flip it, it doesn't look good :c ... so I get really super paranoid about it and gets all over perfectionist freak tendencey @ W@; .... (actually, I flip my facing-towards-left drawings, too LOL just to double check...) orz;;;;; YES. I GET VERY... OBSESSIVE WITH IT. Therefore, I really DON'T like to draw couples and/or more than one characters - 'cuz they always gotta face the opposite direction, ya'know?! orz.
◆ Is it easier to draw the side view of the face or the front view?
... I wish I could draw prettier/better side views :'c ... I've been practicing that, lulz. So... ugh. I guess it's easier to draw front view = A=; ... I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW TO DRAW HAIR, WHEN IN SIDE VIEW *criez*
◆ What do you have problems in drawing?
.................. l-like what? ... I guess, my wannabe perfectionist tendencey is a problem. Srsly. Orz. *can't bullshit things* .... it's. um. hard for me to... step out of = w= ... WHICH includes my problem of having to do super neat fcking awesum clean and neat nice linearts. OTL. ... btw, which, I don't like very much -- because, the 'clean' lineart + black lineart = very confined. veryveryvery VERY confined. I don't like that @W@. I WANT MY ART TO FLOOOWWW BITCHESSSS orz. .........
Also. I think. My art is too ... stationary and boring = A=; always boring people smiling pretty smiles, the end. There's no action. No cool layouts. and all that cool shit.
HOMFGZ. THIS MAKES IT SEEM LIKE THE VERY EXISTENCE OF MY ART = A PROBLEM. *criesincorner*
◆ What do you like to draw?
..... I like. Unicorns.
(.....?)
... I dunno man. 8D I like. to create random OCs ... like those one-time-use OCs, just 'cuz I want to create a story. Btw, I'm talking about something that I don't show to people LMFAO @ A@;; it's only some few... exceptional people that sees it, huuur.
... I like to draw trees, LOL. yah.
◆ Are you a traditional artist or a digital artist?
.............. I like to draw traditional more. There's usually more flows & actions to my traditional arts. Also. I like my traditional art ten billion times better than my digital ones >A>; It's more like. ... ........traditional art ... is my own guilty pleasure (whut?) @ W@;; ... What I draw traditionally ... is usually what I LIKE to draw, and what I WANT to draw-- get it, get it?? ..... and ... to me, digital art has .... over the years, become something to "please the eyes of the public" and I hate that, thanks 8DDD... < selfish and wants to do everything for herself @ W@;;;
AND. TO SAY THE TRUTH. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO CG AND DO DIGITAL ARTS... OTL < always just slapping things on and hoping it looks good OTZ;;;;;; .... as opposed to... when I draw traditionally... I tend to KNOW what the fuck I'm drawing and doing instead of just going ' UGHH *slaps down some lines and colours and shit* ' ... orz;
But. 'course, digital art has its own advantages =w =a ...
But. I think. I draw faster/better traditionally OTL; ... even though, I really ... don't show much traditional arts = 3=; huuu. Digital art sure is time consuming... 8/
◆ Where do you start drawing from?
.... usually the headshape, I get it down... and then the eyes, nose, mouth ... then hair, ear ... and then, I look everything over, all paranoid-ly .... and correct things =w=; .... I tend to draw eyes too high on the face 8/ ... so shift things around ... and/or eyes too big or small .... so gotta resize those around.... orz. sometimes, too much hair, sometimes too flat... and so forth and so on = A=;
I get very paranoid with.... correct anatomy. OTL. I think. taking that physiology/anatomy class .... was helpful = w=)b ... but then, it makes me go overally paranoid, I'd be like " FCK, THAT DELTOID LOOKS OFF. NOOOO. FCKING TRICEPS, WHICH WAYYY?!!!? .... DAMNED PECTORIS, I CAN'T DRAW MALE. FCCCK. sexy collar bones, whoo!! " .......... but, half of the time, I forget ... what I'm doing = w=; it's really until I lineart everything (away from the sketch) ... that... I realize what the fck is wrong OTL-- actually. It's usually AFTER I coloured everything that I go " WELL DAMN. I SPOT SOMETHING THAT'S WRONG THERE. FCCCCCCK. /poor attempts to fix it and then gives up/ "... yah. 8D
But that's digital =w=a....
Traditional is less pain staking, but about the same method -- headshape, eyes, nose, mouth, hair. Sometimes, I start with the eyes, then the hair and then the other facial expressions THEN the headshape =w=.... but generally, I like to start with the headshape<3.
◆ What is your drawing habit that you are aware of?
... when drawing traditionally, I have a BAD habit of ... leaning my head on my left arm. OTZ ... and so, my drawings actually ... comes out slanted ROFL -- it's pretty funny, orz;;;;..!!!! ...... been trying to correct that -- it's so bad to the point that.. it's ruining / unbalancing one of my eyes (left, if I remembered correctly -- I've been told by the optometrist that I ... strain my left eye too much, and that's badddd ... but I'm not sure if this would be the cause??) OTL;; ..... ...
... when colouring, I'm um. not exactly thinking about the colouring, half of the time = A=;; *is thinking about other stuffs* LOL. this is ESPECIALLY amusing when... I do it at night / early morning hours where I'm not really thinking about anything and not really "awake/conscious" @ A@; it's pretty cool. LOL. j-just... watching the hand work its magic = A=;; and I'm just.. spacing out ROFLZ. and then, later, when I snap back, I'm liek " hosht. I put down all the base colours already?! * A*;;; " hahahaa... fun, fun. = w=;
Can't think of any other habits though -- 'cept that... leaning on my left arm one 8/ ...!
◆ What do you keep in mind when you do lineart?
............... the smooth-ness of the lineart? I dunno. 8| so that... it. flows. hopefully. Half of the time, I'm trying to correct my anatomy OTZ;;; ..... sometimes, my sketch is clean enough to pass off as lineart @ W@; (especially true with a lot of my traditional arts LOL; but those takes time = 3=; ) ...... I don't ... think I really think half of the time when I'm drawing T AT; -- well, thinking, as in, thinking about how to draw .... I'm thinking about other stuffs -- RL shit ... or what I'm going to eatt and what I'm supposed to be doing, but am nottt 8DDD??
◆ Any tips for coloring/shading?
......... yoooooooooooou ... slap on the colours @ W@bb (....) ... ... I dunno man. ... 8|; .... o-observe other people's drawings, LOL? ... I find it fun. whenever I look in the mirror, after taking a shower, my hair seems sorta shineh from the light @ U@; and then. I observe that highlight and sum shadows here and thar-- but I don't even do realism, ROFLZ ............
I'm sorry, I fail in teaching @ W@)/ ... it's also probably 'cuz I don't know what I'm doing half of the time when I'm CGing OTZ;;; ...!!! ...
JUST. SLAP ON THE SHADOWS, WHERE EVER YOU THINK SEEMS RIGHT @ A@;;
btw.
I'm a cheater, just so the world knows :c .... I change layer opacity & effects around to make my shades and lights work = A= huuu.
There's .......... really no. erm. special tricks to my colouring... OTL; THAT'S WHY IT SUCKS!!! orzorzorzorz........
... I was telling a close friend 'bout how I CG ... and then, she was like " ohhh " and then I told her " lulz, there's nothing special and amazing and spiffed out about how I do it :'c ... " ... and she agreed, LMFAO T AT!!! ....
◆ How long does it take to finish a piece of art?
... depends on what I'm drawing and what I'm using to draw? @ W@. .... it doesn't take long, if I ... focus -- but that's not what happens most of the time, HAHAHA = w=;;;!!!
Waist up, single ... probably some few hours D: ... I'm thinking around 4-1o hours . A.; *FAILS AND IS SLOOOOWWW* orz .... most of the time is usually spent on the sketch (+corrections) ... and the lineart. ... I tend to make my sketches rather somewhat ... detailed OTL but it's... messy? so I re-trace it ... and that becomes the lineart OTZ ........... .... colouring is somewhat easier D: because of my lame way of colouring, orz;; yaaah. and if I have to slap on a background, it'll probably take another hour or so = A=;; /LAME AND FAILS AT IT, OKAY/
◆ What music do you listen to while you draw?
... depends on my mood/day/thesky/etc. @ U@)/ ... I'm a... very ....................... .... mood dependent person OTL; ... most of the time, I'm not paying attention to what I'm listening to, though @ W@; .... so I can have a song on repeat for weeks and won't realize it 8/ ... until. that is. someone yells at me to change it LOL (usually my sisters or mum :'DD) ...
I listen to mainly Japanese, and Chinese = w=a ... some Korean .... some English (most are pretty old, songs from back in my... middle school days LOL >u
Sometimes, it's just pure silence. ............ until I snap out of it and go " OH LOL. THERE'S NO MUSIC. HAHA 8D!!?? " ...........
... I had a phase where, I only ... really liked to listen to game OSTs @ W@;; (FF8, particularily .... sometimes FF10) .... @ n@;; but jyah. I listen to random OSTs ... LOL = A=;; LIKELIKE... OOFURI'S <3333 ... BACCANO! ... Bartender ... = w= hmmm... KamiKazoku ... DOTHACK. .. ah hahaa = w=..................... yah.
◆ How long does it take you to come up with an idea?
......... depends on what we're talking about? @ W@; ... as in "idea" -- as in, the whole drawing itself? or coming up with a character/story? ... or. what 8|; huu. .... poses, I tend to take forever, unless I can seeeeee the pose. in my mind =w= but it never comes out the way I want, OTL.
◆ Your favorite drawing utensils?
...... pencil&eraser. I guess :'D! ... pens are fun, too =w=a ... random ball-point pens. LOL..... but I'm not too good with 'em but I liek it! ........ ahhh ... tablet&photoshop, I guess = A=;; ACTUALLY. NO, TO PHOTOSHOP. 'CUZ. THATS THE ONLY SHIT I KNOW HOW TO USE *feels lame* T AT!!! it's not even an art program! OTL .... note the "PHOTO" in its name??? D: ...
◆ Your favorite color/the color that you use a lot?
.... my favourite colour depends on my mood, bitches @ W@! .... lol. I've had people ask me that question, quite a lot 8|; .... but ugh jyah = A=; I guess a scarlet red or wine red... or crimson red.... works. or the blues and colours of the skiess * u*!!! ..... my favourite colour "combination" is definitely green x orange!! > u< ... and I can't stand... blue x orange. OTL. THAT IS SUCH A SIN. DDD8 .... it's definitely blue x yellow. but the. I like yellow x purple more... SO BLUE'S JUST SINGLE. OKAY DDD8; ... orz. but yes. I don't really like it when green or orange is paired with other colours ('cept themselves) OTL < has problems..................
colours that I seem to use alot, I noticed... is black and white 8|;; or. well. a lot of people that commissions me uses black and white, alot. >8/ ...
I like to use orange and green @ W@;; and soft pastel yellow .... ughmm jyahh .. .ALSO. EYE HURT NEON COLOURS. HOMFGZ. LOOOOOOVEEEE <33333
◆ Your favorite style(s)?
............ that's. hard to say. LOL @A@; ... ... I like that sexy kawaii style. (huh?) ... '''OTL??? ................. ... I'm not sure @ 3@; just... whatever captures me -- and I have... somewhat odd tastes, OTL or so I've been told huuu;;; .... a lot of normal things don't ... capture my attentions D;
◆ Are you satisfied with your current art?
... I dunno man ... :/ .... .... I ............. ... I'm still looking forward to seeing my art 'mature' ... I dunno if that... means anything OTL; I want to see a more... "mature" style, steming outta my art, I think. D: ... I still sees it as "too childish" I dunno........... OTL; *weird* ....
◆ What kind of artist are you aiming for?
THE AMAZING KIND (huh?) orz........... not really.
I wanna be .... the kind of artist that's ... able to draw whatever he/she wishes ... that's not quite of the norm, and unique in its own ways... but yet, attracts people \ @ u@)/ ?? ... but it's not for the sake of "popularity" and "feeling good 'cuz everyone loves me" .... type of things. ........... I dunno. OTL.
Then. Again. there's really no "aim" and "goal" to an artist, methinks. Because ... I think ... artists are always creating things, and thriving higher ... and trying to reach a new "depth" to the colours and lines and things that they create ... sooo ... if there is a "goal" and "aiming to be" ... that means there's a finish line. But. What's beyond the finish line is more of the question to me... do you stop once you've reached the finish line? Or do you keep going, and look for the next marathon to run? ... I wish I can run for forever ... if it's for art.
I ..........
... want to draw alot of things. I want to create alot of things. I want to see alot of things. I want to paint alot of things. I want to see the different colours come to live, the objects come to live. I want to ... do alot of things, with art.
But alas.
...
it always makes me want to smile sadly, whenever I think about the future. And how empty it would be, without art to fill it. My future, that is. It's such a boring ... future, I think. I think, my future would be so boring I'd want to die everyday. And feel suffocated. Because, it's going to be one without art, and without drawing.
But who am I to complain?
The Disney cutesy types of happy ending and great future, and successes through "hardwork" doesn't exist in our world, not much anymore.
But what can I do about it?
... and, to say the truth, I'm a coward. A complete coward.
That is why, I can't aim for art. Because I'm a coward. I'm like your typical person in our society&world. I'm too scared to reach for it. It's just like how when you're too afraid to confess to someone. You're afraid of rejections.
I'm afraid of rejections.
I'm afraid that... if I followed art, and is "led astray" by it... ... then, my future might as well be plummeting into the abyss.
But I wonder, is it really that bad? I wonder.
Somehow, the idea of ... having art in your future ... is such a romantic idea, to me.
... you see. I'm really not that much of a "smart" person. I'm not an outstanding good and upright citizen who does community works and go out there and make money and sociable. I don't know anything. I don't want to know anything. I'm selfish and self-centered, I just want to .... encage myself and draw, safely.
But safety doesn't exist. So, what do I do, I abandon It.
It. That gives me so much joy. I let it go.
And. I think ......
More and more, I'm trying to make time for it. More and more, I want the "now" more than the "future" ....... I know I'm growing up. I know I'm getting older, I know I'm supposed to be more mature. I know I'm supposed to ... do this and that, and be independent, be responsible.
And. Someday. I won't have the time to draw. Someday. I might forget about it all. Someday, I might not ever be able to draw again. I don't know. I don't know when that might be.
But the thoughts of that "someday" always chokes me up. And so, I think. I tend to draw like I'm desperate. Like a fish out of water, trying to ... get back into what was once my environment.
But ya'know. The duties of .... a person that's no longer a "child" .... becomes heavier and heavier. And.... I don't know what to do anymore.
Deeply, I think. Deep inside, I'm ..... just trying too hard to try to resist "growing up" ... It's childish, I know. I know I have to, some day. And even right now, I'm considered a "young adult" or. whatever ............... and that I'm not supposed to be making silly day dreams and sitting at home and drawing and doing absolutely nothing.
I know ... with my skills and art, I'll never make it somewhere in Life. I'll never get anywhere. So, I'm sorry.
I truly grieve at It. I truly hate myself for it.
and I feel like saying "sorry" to It, every single day.
But. Where will I ever be, without It, in the first place? Where would I have been, today, without It? ... So. I am grateful, of It, at the same time.
But. I ........... hate the fact that I am choosing the way to "survival" rather than the path of "happiness" ....
I keep telling myself " I've gotta put a stop to this, sooner or later, anyways .......... " ... but I can't let it go.
I can't.
That's why it makes it all really hard.
I think. It's really hard to let go of art, once you've start on it. Once you've become attached to it. Once you've tried your best at it. Once you've come to LOVE it. It's hard to let go.
... I've always .... imagined how. terrifying it would be. .... without being able to draw .... but, I guess. Once......... Once everything becomes busy, once ... you "grow up" -- ............ you just. you move on with your Life, I guess. I guess. You just... live. You just follow that... same path that everyone goes.
And I don't want that.
But what can I do?
....
And I still can't resolve this.
Because there's too many .... factors, lying heavy on these decisions.
It's not like I can go and declare that " I am going to be an artist! " ........ just like that. it's not going to work. That idea is too naive, I know that better than anyone else, yet, I'm always getting told that " you can't just say that and think you can do it, the world doesn't work that way. you'll just fail. " ......... and. I wonder. If any of those words are true.
Logically, probably.
I'm no big-shot artist. I can't produce amazing shit. I can't ... DO amazing shit. I'm not "oh zomfgz popular" as some amazing desu artist.
I'm not.
But. I don't think my passion and love for wanting to "draw" and "create" art ... is any less than their's. I want to say that ... my desire and crave and LUST for art &drawing is more than their's will ever be-- because ....... I'm consciously counting for the day that I would end up ... parting with art.
And there are days... I find myself in withdrawal. Find that I don't want to draw -- that it seemed to clear to me that ....... it doesn't matter whether I draw or not, because, in the end... it won't matter. It's not going to be part of my "future" ... anyways.
...
but, I always run back to It. .... and so. I can't let go of it. I feel that I'm ... still desperately clinging onto it.
I wonder. Where I will be. Five years from now. Ten years from now. Twenty years from now ............. would Art still be there?
Or would it become a memory that's faded into my "past" ......... I wonder. Or would it become something so big that even if I don't want it, it would still be there?
I wonder.
And. To say the truth, there's really no path for me, when it comes to art. I dunno.
You see. I'm not... in-to commercial artings and selling. I'm not. I don't ... really see art as a way to profit -- I only sees it as a way to enjoy it. It's probably only a "hobby" to me..... so yah. Even if I am doing "commissions" now... it's mainly for myself to practice, and "get something out of it, while I'm at it" .... so. Yah. ..................
I dunno.
I wanna do theater props sorta things = w=a ... but ugh ... every 'influential' factors in my life opposes it hahaaa \ = A=)/ .... and I'm a very ... easily swayed person, methinks. In action... but not in mind.
I'm just a sore loser, that's all.
◆ Thank you.
Now please fill in the next columns by writing the names of the artists that match the criteria.
Artists tagged must fill in this baton.
... ohh =w= I dunno. Can fill it out if you want, if not, then whatever? OTL ..... though, sum of the mentioned people probably don't ... even know the existence of me? @ U@;
Cool:
Cute:
Stylish:
Unique:
Moe:
Tasty:
Smart:
.... UGHuh?
Sexy:
Admirable:
@ A@ ... they're... sorta... in alphabetic order (eachpersonsineachgroups)? LOL orz.
OHWAIT. CRAP. IS THIS MEANT TO BE.... ADJECTIVES THAT DESCRIBES THE =ARTIST= OR.... ADJECTIVES THAT DESCRIBES THE ARTISTS' =ARTS=?! orz...!!?? .... o-oh well = w=.
LOL.
If anyone wants to, they can ask me why certain people (&themselves?) is in which category and what not :'D HAHA. *hasmyreasons* OTL.
THOUGH. THERE WERE........ ALOOOTTT THAT WAS HARD TO DECIDE ON, FOR ME D8> ....!! 'cuz some can fit in two or three groups = 3=;; huuu.
... I think, there are moar people that I'd like to put in these groups, haha =u=;; b-but that'd take too long OTL. ... these are mainly the people that.... I go " ohyahIknow8D! " ... (huh?)
Mmmyah.
LOL. I NEVER OPENLY SHARE ABOUT WHICH ARTISTS I LIKE/SECRETLY STALKS AND SHIT T AT. Mmmm ... yah. I know some of the listed people aren't active/removed their gallery ... but ugh = A= FROM WHAT I REMEMBER + OTHER SOURCES OF GETTING THEIR ARTS (lol) ... THAT'S WHAT THEY'RE LIKE, TO ME. SO STFU @ A@!!! Too bad, if you can't see it DDDx<...!
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K. SORRY :C .... IT WASN'T SUPPOSED TO BE SUCH A EMOFAGSAD SORTA ENTRY. D8; ... ooops. ...
and UGH. WTF @ W@!! *still can't change my Mood thing* WTF?!?! /annoyed/ orz...
It's not sorrow though >8/ ..... kinda like. Bored, but busy. ah hahaa;;
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... by the way. (I guess I forgot to mention this! ... this somewhat important point?! orz)
No. Actually. No. All the people in the above listed groups ... isn't up there because they're amazing. or epic. or godly. or popular artist... or whatever.
They're simply people that I see as ... the category describes them. c:
"Admirable" does not mean "idol/gods" to me. I mean, right, admirable -- because they can draw pretty? Not exactly.
It's because there are.... certain elements that GRABS my attention = w= ... their arts, that is. huhuhuu ...
and well, I think
is an amazing artist, and "admirable" ... but isn't listed ... mainly because ... ugh. the ones that I've listed have... some.. some.... something special about their art that just.... = w=!!!! .... *can't tear eyes away* >A>; .... ... BUT IT'S NOT TO SAY THAT, THAT ARTIST'S ART IS ANY LESSER THAN THE ONES LISTED ABOVE? and. It's not like I don't think that artist is super admirable... but I dunno. maybe it's just me, but there's something lost ......... I'm not sure what I'm trying to say, T AT; ... but. there used to be something in .... there that captures my attention ... but somehow sorta lacking naow -- or in, lesser pieces, I'M NOT SURE WHAT I'M SAYING, SORRY T AT *beatenup*
ART. IT'S ALL ABOUT PERSONAL PREFERENCES, THAT'S WHAT I THINK... AND THAT'S WHY I LIKE IT, DAMNIT. (whoo should be my catchphrase = u=b ... 'cept, my catchphrase is something else LOL...)
and. right. yah. I watch alot of pretty awesum pretty art creating artists.... but ugh o AO... these are the people that ... triggers my mind pretty darn quickly LOL orz...........
and yes, there are "friends" listed up there... but no, it's not because they're "friends" that they're up there @ n@; .... I don't lie about shit like this, lol. (that's why I said that ... if you want a reason, I'LL GIVE ONE TO YOU, BITCH @ U@!)
THIS IS A SRSBZNS JOURNAL OR SOMETHING 8|;;;
*feels really honest&truthful right naow* haha = A=; ...!
So. No. No one's on there because they're "amazingly popular god artists" or. whatever =w=a ...
I personally believe that everyone worked their way up ... so um. jyah =w=a... and. I'm sure that they would appreciate it... if people stop treating them like GODS -- then, again, there ARE artists out there that WANTS to be treated like gods, I dunno = A=;; ... for me. I like to treat everyone the same, hopefully? @ W@; ... I MEAN. IT'S TRUE THAT .... SOME 'GODLYAMAZING' ARTISTS ARE INTIMIDATING. AND MIGHT SEEM MEAN. BUT. I BELIEVE. VERY FIRMLY. THAT... THERE ARE ALOT OF REALLY SUPER NICE ARTISTS OUT THERE. SUPER NICE AND FRIENDLY AND MADE OUT OF FUCKING SQUISHY AWESOME .... MARSHMELLOWS OF LOVEEE T AT///// ....................
Yah. I dunno.
Maybe. Maybe, to me, their arts have personalities. 8D Or. Maybe. It's because the artists themselves have "personalities" sooo I dunno e__e!
.... actually. My "cute" is better than my "moe" (as in, my word term) OTL. .... in a way D: I dunno. OTZ........ but that doesn't mean that Moe is any worst than Cute DDDD8; gyaaa;;; ........ forget it. orz. ........ but ugh yah. I don't like to say "cute" too much 8/ 'cuz it feels generic, damn. T AT;; so I guess, it's special, in a way? 8D... then, again, I don't use Moe very often either, HAHAHA orz. /getting nowhere with this plz.
but anyways.
Please don't lump me with some random fangirls that's out ta get the attentions of amazing artists/etc. plz \ = w=)/
I dunno. I think that ... "attention" is something that someone needs to earn, so, 'course, you can go up to someone and liek praise the FCKING LIVING DAYLIGHT OUT OF THEM and keep saying YOU'RE FCKING AMAZINGLY TALENTED ... and think that they'll love you right away -- I dunno @ W@; maybe some will, but ugh. I dunno. I wouldn't. LMFAO @ U@ *against you stereotypes!!!* orz.
... because. I personally think what I have is a =skill= ... not a =talent= ... not something I've been "born" with, but something that I've worked my ass off ... and made out of hardwork ..... @ U@! ...
t-though... I hope that none of the 'amazing' artists I hinted at/mentioned ... is reading this OTL; .... because, I erm. am. erm. too shy yah..................... *hidesunderarock* I DON'T MEAN TO SPEAK AGAINST/UP FOR ANYONE. OR. WHATEVER. BUT IT'S JUST... MY GENERAL OPINION T AT...!! ... if you agree with me, you agree, if you don't, you don't... @ w@; let's be peaceful&civilized about it plz ;u;!!! ... THEN AGAIN. WHO THE HELL IS READING THIS LONG AS ENTRY, LMFAO? ... HOMFGZ. orz.... I'm sorry for wasting your tiem, I'm sure you've got something better else to do with your Life?! OTL ... I hope. If not, feel free to hang around with me T AT)/ ... 'cuz everything I do in my Life is pretty pointless, and I enjoy wasting time (+other people's time) ... SO YOU'RE FREE TO STAY WITH ME HERE *pats a seat next to hers* 8DDDD.... ! v ... BUT. NEVERTHELESS. THANKS FOR READING THIS FAR, AS ALWAYS///
AND. IF NONE OF THIS MAKES SENSE, THAT'S OKAY. IT'S COOL. LOL. I HOPE IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE T AT *doesn't wanna get beat up by someone that misunderstands her* orzorzorzorz;;;
THE END. I'M DONE. orz.
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LOL. THIS IS GONNA BE LONG. 'CUZ I TRIED TO ANSWER IT, SERIOUSLY. I THINK. 8D;
◆ Your name?
SPAAAAIN!SAKU. (笑)
◆ If possible, your age?
Turned 81 last month... FTW.
◆ When did you start drawing?
Ughm. Never thought about this, LOL ... I've been drawing since forever and forever ago = w=a ... IT'S LIKE HAVING THIS. BEATING. FUNCTIONAL HEART. OTZ. EACH HEARTBEAT, I DON'T AND CAN'T EVEN COUNT ANYMOAR, JUST LIKE THE YEARS I'VE BEEN DRAWING ;DD *romanticplz!* SHT. MAN. DRAWING. ART. ITS LIKE. MY FUCKING LIFE-LONG LOVER, BITCHES @ W@!!<333333
......... seriously? I think it can go as far back as ... kindergarten or earlier?? = w= ... seriously started to draw "animuu" shit is probably ... around 3rd grade? I dunno. 8D.
But that's liek. with pencil and marker and that kinda ghetto crap @ u@)/!!! ... ... probably around 8th grade I started CG that sorta spiffed out shit, I think? @ W@ ..........
◆ Which hand do you use for drawing?
... right, when I'm srs. Left, when I'm bored -- I think my left hand creates THE MOST EPIC SHIT ever \ @ A@)/ (nokidding!)
◆ Which is easier to draw - male or female?
.... female, I guess. orz. Because. I... am someone that needs to observe anatomy and sht alike -- and I feel ... awkward, staring at a man's crotch when I'm trying to figure out how to draw something -- LOL. AS IN. I DON'T CHECK GUYS OUT -- .......... ohsht. This makes it sound like as if I check girls out instead TAT !!! ... N-NO! It's 'cuz I'm a girl, too LOL?! ... so .......... yah. if... that made any sense, WOW. 8D;
But. All in all, I like ... androgynous things. Oh, my pretties<333...
◆ Which is easier to draw - long hair or short hair?
Ughmm .... I guess long, but it's a pain to colour? @ W@; ... Short is. simple and easy. but I really fail in capturing the "layerings" LOL orz... so they always look ... FLAT /criez/ ..... but. hopefully .... because I have short(er) hair now... I'll be able to draw better short hairs? = w=b...
I dunno.
◆ Is it easier to draw the head facing towards the right or the left?
.... I prefer drawing faces that's towards... the left ... orz. I can do right. But. when I flip it, it doesn't look good :c ... so I get really super paranoid about it and gets all over perfectionist freak tendencey @ W@; .... (actually, I flip my facing-towards-left drawings, too LOL just to double check...) orz;;;;; YES. I GET VERY... OBSESSIVE WITH IT. Therefore, I really DON'T like to draw couples and/or more than one characters - 'cuz they always gotta face the opposite direction, ya'know?! orz.
◆ Is it easier to draw the side view of the face or the front view?
... I wish I could draw prettier/better side views :'c ... I've been practicing that, lulz. So... ugh. I guess it's easier to draw front view = A=; ... I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW TO DRAW HAIR, WHEN IN SIDE VIEW *criez*
◆ What do you have problems in drawing?
.................. l-like what? ... I guess, my wannabe perfectionist tendencey is a problem. Srsly. Orz. *can't bullshit things* .... it's. um. hard for me to... step out of = w= ... WHICH includes my problem of having to do super neat fcking awesum clean and neat nice linearts. OTL. ... btw, which, I don't like very much -- because, the 'clean' lineart + black lineart = very confined. veryveryvery VERY confined. I don't like that @W@. I WANT MY ART TO FLOOOWWW BITCHESSSS orz. .........
Also. I think. My art is too ... stationary and boring = A=; always boring people smiling pretty smiles, the end. There's no action. No cool layouts. and all that cool shit.
HOMFGZ. THIS MAKES IT SEEM LIKE THE VERY EXISTENCE OF MY ART = A PROBLEM. *criesincorner*
◆ What do you like to draw?
..... I like. Unicorns.
(.....?)
... I dunno man. 8D I like. to create random OCs ... like those one-time-use OCs, just 'cuz I want to create a story. Btw, I'm talking about something that I don't show to people LMFAO @ A@;; it's only some few... exceptional people that sees it, huuur.
... I like to draw trees, LOL. yah.
◆ Are you a traditional artist or a digital artist?
.............. I like to draw traditional more. There's usually more flows & actions to my traditional arts. Also. I like my traditional art ten billion times better than my digital ones >A>; It's more like. ... ........traditional art ... is my own guilty pleasure (whut?) @ W@;; ... What I draw traditionally ... is usually what I LIKE to draw, and what I WANT to draw-- get it, get it?? ..... and ... to me, digital art has .... over the years, become something to "please the eyes of the public" and I hate that, thanks 8DDD... < selfish and wants to do everything for herself @ W@;;;
AND. TO SAY THE TRUTH. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO CG AND DO DIGITAL ARTS... OTL < always just slapping things on and hoping it looks good OTZ;;;;;; .... as opposed to... when I draw traditionally... I tend to KNOW what the fuck I'm drawing and doing instead of just going ' UGHH *slaps down some lines and colours and shit* ' ... orz;
But. 'course, digital art has its own advantages =w =a ...
But. I think. I draw faster/better traditionally OTL; ... even though, I really ... don't show much traditional arts = 3=; huuu. Digital art sure is time consuming... 8/
◆ Where do you start drawing from?
.... usually the headshape, I get it down... and then the eyes, nose, mouth ... then hair, ear ... and then, I look everything over, all paranoid-ly .... and correct things =w=; .... I tend to draw eyes too high on the face 8/ ... so shift things around ... and/or eyes too big or small .... so gotta resize those around.... orz. sometimes, too much hair, sometimes too flat... and so forth and so on = A=;
I get very paranoid with.... correct anatomy. OTL. I think. taking that physiology/anatomy class .... was helpful = w=)b ... but then, it makes me go overally paranoid, I'd be like " FCK, THAT DELTOID LOOKS OFF. NOOOO. FCKING TRICEPS, WHICH WAYYY?!!!? .... DAMNED PECTORIS, I CAN'T DRAW MALE. FCCCK. sexy collar bones, whoo!! " .......... but, half of the time, I forget ... what I'm doing = w=; it's really until I lineart everything (away from the sketch) ... that... I realize what the fck is wrong OTL-- actually. It's usually AFTER I coloured everything that I go " WELL DAMN. I SPOT SOMETHING THAT'S WRONG THERE. FCCCCCCK. /poor attempts to fix it and then gives up/ "... yah. 8D
But that's digital =w=a....
Traditional is less pain staking, but about the same method -- headshape, eyes, nose, mouth, hair. Sometimes, I start with the eyes, then the hair and then the other facial expressions THEN the headshape =w=.... but generally, I like to start with the headshape<3.
◆ What is your drawing habit that you are aware of?
... when drawing traditionally, I have a BAD habit of ... leaning my head on my left arm. OTZ ... and so, my drawings actually ... comes out slanted ROFL -- it's pretty funny, orz;;;;..!!!! ...... been trying to correct that -- it's so bad to the point that.. it's ruining / unbalancing one of my eyes (left, if I remembered correctly -- I've been told by the optometrist that I ... strain my left eye too much, and that's badddd ... but I'm not sure if this would be the cause??) OTL;; ..... ...
... when colouring, I'm um. not exactly thinking about the colouring, half of the time = A=;; *is thinking about other stuffs* LOL. this is ESPECIALLY amusing when... I do it at night / early morning hours where I'm not really thinking about anything and not really "awake/conscious" @ A@; it's pretty cool. LOL. j-just... watching the hand work its magic = A=;; and I'm just.. spacing out ROFLZ. and then, later, when I snap back, I'm liek " hosht. I put down all the base colours already?! * A*;;; " hahahaa... fun, fun. = w=;
Can't think of any other habits though -- 'cept that... leaning on my left arm one 8/ ...!
◆ What do you keep in mind when you do lineart?
............... the smooth-ness of the lineart? I dunno. 8| so that... it. flows. hopefully. Half of the time, I'm trying to correct my anatomy OTZ;;; ..... sometimes, my sketch is clean enough to pass off as lineart @ W@; (especially true with a lot of my traditional arts LOL; but those takes time = 3=; ) ...... I don't ... think I really think half of the time when I'm drawing T AT; -- well, thinking, as in, thinking about how to draw .... I'm thinking about other stuffs -- RL shit ... or what I'm going to eatt and what I'm supposed to be doing, but am nottt 8DDD??
◆ Any tips for coloring/shading?
......... yoooooooooooou ... slap on the colours @ W@bb (....) ... ... I dunno man. ... 8|; .... o-observe other people's drawings, LOL? ... I find it fun. whenever I look in the mirror, after taking a shower, my hair seems sorta shineh from the light @ U@; and then. I observe that highlight and sum shadows here and thar-- but I don't even do realism, ROFLZ ............
I'm sorry, I fail in teaching @ W@)/ ... it's also probably 'cuz I don't know what I'm doing half of the time when I'm CGing OTZ;;; ...!!! ...
JUST. SLAP ON THE SHADOWS, WHERE EVER YOU THINK SEEMS RIGHT @ A@;;
btw.
I'm a cheater, just so the world knows :c .... I change layer opacity & effects around to make my shades and lights work = A= huuu.
There's .......... really no. erm. special tricks to my colouring... OTL; THAT'S WHY IT SUCKS!!! orzorzorzorz........
... I was telling a close friend 'bout how I CG ... and then, she was like " ohhh " and then I told her " lulz, there's nothing special and amazing and spiffed out about how I do it :'c ... " ... and she agreed, LMFAO T AT!!! ....
◆ How long does it take to finish a piece of art?
... depends on what I'm drawing and what I'm using to draw? @ W@. .... it doesn't take long, if I ... focus -- but that's not what happens most of the time, HAHAHA = w=;;;!!!
Waist up, single ... probably some few hours D: ... I'm thinking around 4-1o hours . A.; *FAILS AND IS SLOOOOWWW* orz .... most of the time is usually spent on the sketch (+corrections) ... and the lineart. ... I tend to make my sketches rather somewhat ... detailed OTL but it's... messy? so I re-trace it ... and that becomes the lineart OTZ ........... .... colouring is somewhat easier D: because of my lame way of colouring, orz;; yaaah. and if I have to slap on a background, it'll probably take another hour or so = A=;; /LAME AND FAILS AT IT, OKAY/
◆ What music do you listen to while you draw?
... depends on my mood/day/thesky/etc. @ U@)/ ... I'm a... very ....................... .... mood dependent person OTL; ... most of the time, I'm not paying attention to what I'm listening to, though @ W@; .... so I can have a song on repeat for weeks and won't realize it 8/ ... until. that is. someone yells at me to change it LOL (usually my sisters or mum :'DD) ...
I listen to mainly Japanese, and Chinese = w=a ... some Korean .... some English (most are pretty old, songs from back in my... middle school days LOL >u
Sometimes, it's just pure silence. ............ until I snap out of it and go " OH LOL. THERE'S NO MUSIC. HAHA 8D!!?? " ...........
... I had a phase where, I only ... really liked to listen to game OSTs @ W@;; (FF8, particularily .... sometimes FF10) .... @ n@;; but jyah. I listen to random OSTs ... LOL = A=;; LIKELIKE... OOFURI'S <3333 ... BACCANO! ... Bartender ... = w= hmmm... KamiKazoku ... DOTHACK. .. ah hahaa = w=..................... yah.
◆ How long does it take you to come up with an idea?
......... depends on what we're talking about? @ W@; ... as in "idea" -- as in, the whole drawing itself? or coming up with a character/story? ... or. what 8|; huu. .... poses, I tend to take forever, unless I can seeeeee the pose. in my mind =w= but it never comes out the way I want, OTL.
◆ Your favorite drawing utensils?
...... pencil&eraser. I guess :'D! ... pens are fun, too =w=a ... random ball-point pens. LOL..... but I'm not too good with 'em but I liek it! ........ ahhh ... tablet&photoshop, I guess = A=;; ACTUALLY. NO, TO PHOTOSHOP. 'CUZ. THATS THE ONLY SHIT I KNOW HOW TO USE *feels lame* T AT!!! it's not even an art program! OTL .... note the "PHOTO" in its name??? D: ...
◆ Your favorite color/the color that you use a lot?
.... my favourite colour depends on my mood, bitches @ W@! .... lol. I've had people ask me that question, quite a lot 8|; .... but ugh jyah = A=; I guess a scarlet red or wine red... or crimson red.... works. or the blues and colours of the skiess * u*!!! ..... my favourite colour "combination" is definitely green x orange!! > u< ... and I can't stand... blue x orange. OTL. THAT IS SUCH A SIN. DDD8 .... it's definitely blue x yellow. but the. I like yellow x purple more... SO BLUE'S JUST SINGLE. OKAY DDD8; ... orz. but yes. I don't really like it when green or orange is paired with other colours ('cept themselves) OTL < has problems..................
colours that I seem to use alot, I noticed... is black and white 8|;; or. well. a lot of people that commissions me uses black and white, alot. >8/ ...
I like to use orange and green @ W@;; and soft pastel yellow .... ughmm jyahh .. .ALSO. EYE HURT NEON COLOURS. HOMFGZ. LOOOOOOVEEEE <33333
◆ Your favorite style(s)?
............ that's. hard to say. LOL @A@; ... ... I like that sexy kawaii style. (huh?) ... '''OTL??? ................. ... I'm not sure @ 3@; just... whatever captures me -- and I have... somewhat odd tastes, OTL or so I've been told huuu;;; .... a lot of normal things don't ... capture my attentions D;
◆ Are you satisfied with your current art?
... I dunno man ... :/ .... .... I ............. ... I'm still looking forward to seeing my art 'mature' ... I dunno if that... means anything OTL; I want to see a more... "mature" style, steming outta my art, I think. D: ... I still sees it as "too childish" I dunno........... OTL; *weird* ....
◆ What kind of artist are you aiming for?
THE AMAZING KIND (huh?) orz........... not really.
I wanna be .... the kind of artist that's ... able to draw whatever he/she wishes ... that's not quite of the norm, and unique in its own ways... but yet, attracts people \ @ u@)/ ?? ... but it's not for the sake of "popularity" and "feeling good 'cuz everyone loves me" .... type of things. ........... I dunno. OTL.
Then. Again. there's really no "aim" and "goal" to an artist, methinks. Because ... I think ... artists are always creating things, and thriving higher ... and trying to reach a new "depth" to the colours and lines and things that they create ... sooo ... if there is a "goal" and "aiming to be" ... that means there's a finish line. But. What's beyond the finish line is more of the question to me... do you stop once you've reached the finish line? Or do you keep going, and look for the next marathon to run? ... I wish I can run for forever ... if it's for art.
I ..........
... want to draw alot of things. I want to create alot of things. I want to see alot of things. I want to paint alot of things. I want to see the different colours come to live, the objects come to live. I want to ... do alot of things, with art.
But alas.
...
it always makes me want to smile sadly, whenever I think about the future. And how empty it would be, without art to fill it. My future, that is. It's such a boring ... future, I think. I think, my future would be so boring I'd want to die everyday. And feel suffocated. Because, it's going to be one without art, and without drawing.
But who am I to complain?
The Disney cutesy types of happy ending and great future, and successes through "hardwork" doesn't exist in our world, not much anymore.
But what can I do about it?
... and, to say the truth, I'm a coward. A complete coward.
That is why, I can't aim for art. Because I'm a coward. I'm like your typical person in our society&world. I'm too scared to reach for it. It's just like how when you're too afraid to confess to someone. You're afraid of rejections.
I'm afraid of rejections.
I'm afraid that... if I followed art, and is "led astray" by it... ... then, my future might as well be plummeting into the abyss.
But I wonder, is it really that bad? I wonder.
Somehow, the idea of ... having art in your future ... is such a romantic idea, to me.
... you see. I'm really not that much of a "smart" person. I'm not an outstanding good and upright citizen who does community works and go out there and make money and sociable. I don't know anything. I don't want to know anything. I'm selfish and self-centered, I just want to .... encage myself and draw, safely.
But safety doesn't exist. So, what do I do, I abandon It.
It. That gives me so much joy. I let it go.
And. I think ......
More and more, I'm trying to make time for it. More and more, I want the "now" more than the "future" ....... I know I'm growing up. I know I'm getting older, I know I'm supposed to be more mature. I know I'm supposed to ... do this and that, and be independent, be responsible.
And. Someday. I won't have the time to draw. Someday. I might forget about it all. Someday, I might not ever be able to draw again. I don't know. I don't know when that might be.
But the thoughts of that "someday" always chokes me up. And so, I think. I tend to draw like I'm desperate. Like a fish out of water, trying to ... get back into what was once my environment.
But ya'know. The duties of .... a person that's no longer a "child" .... becomes heavier and heavier. And.... I don't know what to do anymore.
Deeply, I think. Deep inside, I'm ..... just trying too hard to try to resist "growing up" ... It's childish, I know. I know I have to, some day. And even right now, I'm considered a "young adult" or. whatever ............... and that I'm not supposed to be making silly day dreams and sitting at home and drawing and doing absolutely nothing.
I know ... with my skills and art, I'll never make it somewhere in Life. I'll never get anywhere. So, I'm sorry.
I truly grieve at It. I truly hate myself for it.
and I feel like saying "sorry" to It, every single day.
But. Where will I ever be, without It, in the first place? Where would I have been, today, without It? ... So. I am grateful, of It, at the same time.
But. I ........... hate the fact that I am choosing the way to "survival" rather than the path of "happiness" ....
I keep telling myself " I've gotta put a stop to this, sooner or later, anyways .......... " ... but I can't let it go.
I can't.
That's why it makes it all really hard.
I think. It's really hard to let go of art, once you've start on it. Once you've become attached to it. Once you've tried your best at it. Once you've come to LOVE it. It's hard to let go.
... I've always .... imagined how. terrifying it would be. .... without being able to draw .... but, I guess. Once......... Once everything becomes busy, once ... you "grow up" -- ............ you just. you move on with your Life, I guess. I guess. You just... live. You just follow that... same path that everyone goes.
And I don't want that.
But what can I do?
....
And I still can't resolve this.
Because there's too many .... factors, lying heavy on these decisions.
It's not like I can go and declare that " I am going to be an artist! " ........ just like that. it's not going to work. That idea is too naive, I know that better than anyone else, yet, I'm always getting told that " you can't just say that and think you can do it, the world doesn't work that way. you'll just fail. " ......... and. I wonder. If any of those words are true.
Logically, probably.
I'm no big-shot artist. I can't produce amazing shit. I can't ... DO amazing shit. I'm not "oh zomfgz popular" as some amazing desu artist.
I'm not.
But. I don't think my passion and love for wanting to "draw" and "create" art ... is any less than their's. I want to say that ... my desire and crave and LUST for art &drawing is more than their's will ever be-- because ....... I'm consciously counting for the day that I would end up ... parting with art.
And there are days... I find myself in withdrawal. Find that I don't want to draw -- that it seemed to clear to me that ....... it doesn't matter whether I draw or not, because, in the end... it won't matter. It's not going to be part of my "future" ... anyways.
...
but, I always run back to It. .... and so. I can't let go of it. I feel that I'm ... still desperately clinging onto it.
I wonder. Where I will be. Five years from now. Ten years from now. Twenty years from now ............. would Art still be there?
Or would it become a memory that's faded into my "past" ......... I wonder. Or would it become something so big that even if I don't want it, it would still be there?
I wonder.
And. To say the truth, there's really no path for me, when it comes to art. I dunno.
You see. I'm not... in-to commercial artings and selling. I'm not. I don't ... really see art as a way to profit -- I only sees it as a way to enjoy it. It's probably only a "hobby" to me..... so yah. Even if I am doing "commissions" now... it's mainly for myself to practice, and "get something out of it, while I'm at it" .... so. Yah. ..................
I dunno.
I wanna do theater props sorta things = w=a ... but ugh ... every 'influential' factors in my life opposes it hahaaa \ = A=)/ .... and I'm a very ... easily swayed person, methinks. In action... but not in mind.
I'm just a sore loser, that's all.
◆ Thank you.
Now please fill in the next columns by writing the names of the artists that match the criteria.
Artists tagged must fill in this baton.
... ohh =w= I dunno. Can fill it out if you want, if not, then whatever? OTL ..... though, sum of the mentioned people probably don't ... even know the existence of me? @ U@;
Cool:
Cute:
Stylish:
Unique:
Moe:
Tasty:
Smart:
.... UGHuh?
Sexy:
Admirable:
@ A@ ... they're... sorta... in alphabetic order (eachpersonsineachgroups)? LOL orz.
OHWAIT. CRAP. IS THIS MEANT TO BE.... ADJECTIVES THAT DESCRIBES THE =ARTIST= OR.... ADJECTIVES THAT DESCRIBES THE ARTISTS' =ARTS=?! orz...!!?? .... o-oh well = w=.
LOL.
If anyone wants to, they can ask me why certain people (&themselves?) is in which category and what not :'D HAHA. *hasmyreasons* OTL.
THOUGH. THERE WERE........ ALOOOTTT THAT WAS HARD TO DECIDE ON, FOR ME D8> ....!! 'cuz some can fit in two or three groups = 3=;; huuu.
... I think, there are moar people that I'd like to put in these groups, haha =u=;; b-but that'd take too long OTL. ... these are mainly the people that.... I go " ohyahIknow8D! " ... (huh?)
Mmmyah.
LOL. I NEVER OPENLY SHARE ABOUT WHICH ARTISTS I LIKE/SECRETLY STALKS AND SHIT T AT. Mmmm ... yah. I know some of the listed people aren't active/removed their gallery ... but ugh = A= FROM WHAT I REMEMBER + OTHER SOURCES OF GETTING THEIR ARTS (lol) ... THAT'S WHAT THEY'RE LIKE, TO ME. SO STFU @ A@!!! Too bad, if you can't see it DDDx<...!
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K. SORRY :C .... IT WASN'T SUPPOSED TO BE SUCH A EMOFAGSAD SORTA ENTRY. D8; ... ooops. ...
and UGH. WTF @ W@!! *still can't change my Mood thing* WTF?!?! /annoyed/ orz...
It's not sorrow though >8/ ..... kinda like. Bored, but busy. ah hahaa;;
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... by the way. (I guess I forgot to mention this! ... this somewhat important point?! orz)
No. Actually. No. All the people in the above listed groups ... isn't up there because they're amazing. or epic. or godly. or popular artist... or whatever.
They're simply people that I see as ... the category describes them. c:
"Admirable" does not mean "idol/gods" to me. I mean, right, admirable -- because they can draw pretty? Not exactly.
It's because there are.... certain elements that GRABS my attention = w= ... their arts, that is. huhuhuu ...
and well, I think
is an amazing artist, and "admirable" ... but isn't listed ... mainly because ... ugh. the ones that I've listed have... some.. some.... something special about their art that just.... = w=!!!! .... *can't tear eyes away* >A>; .... ... BUT IT'S NOT TO SAY THAT, THAT ARTIST'S ART IS ANY LESSER THAN THE ONES LISTED ABOVE? and. It's not like I don't think that artist is super admirable... but I dunno. maybe it's just me, but there's something lost ......... I'm not sure what I'm trying to say, T AT; ... but. there used to be something in .... there that captures my attention ... but somehow sorta lacking naow -- or in, lesser pieces, I'M NOT SURE WHAT I'M SAYING, SORRY T AT *beatenup*
ART. IT'S ALL ABOUT PERSONAL PREFERENCES, THAT'S WHAT I THINK... AND THAT'S WHY I LIKE IT, DAMNIT. (whoo should be my catchphrase = u=b ... 'cept, my catchphrase is something else LOL...)
and. right. yah. I watch alot of pretty awesum pretty art creating artists.... but ugh o AO... these are the people that ... triggers my mind pretty darn quickly LOL orz...........
and yes, there are "friends" listed up there... but no, it's not because they're "friends" that they're up there @ n@; .... I don't lie about shit like this, lol. (that's why I said that ... if you want a reason, I'LL GIVE ONE TO YOU, BITCH @ U@!)
THIS IS A SRSBZNS JOURNAL OR SOMETHING 8|;;;
*feels really honest&truthful right naow* haha = A=; ...!
So. No. No one's on there because they're "amazingly popular god artists" or. whatever =w=a ...
I personally believe that everyone worked their way up ... so um. jyah =w=a... and. I'm sure that they would appreciate it... if people stop treating them like GODS -- then, again, there ARE artists out there that WANTS to be treated like gods, I dunno = A=;; ... for me. I like to treat everyone the same, hopefully? @ W@; ... I MEAN. IT'S TRUE THAT .... SOME 'GODLYAMAZING' ARTISTS ARE INTIMIDATING. AND MIGHT SEEM MEAN. BUT. I BELIEVE. VERY FIRMLY. THAT... THERE ARE ALOT OF REALLY SUPER NICE ARTISTS OUT THERE. SUPER NICE AND FRIENDLY AND MADE OUT OF FUCKING SQUISHY AWESOME .... MARSHMELLOWS OF LOVEEE T AT///// ....................
Yah. I dunno.
Maybe. Maybe, to me, their arts have personalities. 8D Or. Maybe. It's because the artists themselves have "personalities" sooo I dunno e__e!
.... actually. My "cute" is better than my "moe" (as in, my word term) OTL. .... in a way D: I dunno. OTZ........ but that doesn't mean that Moe is any worst than Cute DDDD8; gyaaa;;; ........ forget it. orz. ........ but ugh yah. I don't like to say "cute" too much 8/ 'cuz it feels generic, damn. T AT;; so I guess, it's special, in a way? 8D... then, again, I don't use Moe very often either, HAHAHA orz. /getting nowhere with this plz.
but anyways.
Please don't lump me with some random fangirls that's out ta get the attentions of amazing artists/etc. plz \ = w=)/
I dunno. I think that ... "attention" is something that someone needs to earn, so, 'course, you can go up to someone and liek praise the FCKING LIVING DAYLIGHT OUT OF THEM and keep saying YOU'RE FCKING AMAZINGLY TALENTED ... and think that they'll love you right away -- I dunno @ W@; maybe some will, but ugh. I dunno. I wouldn't. LMFAO @ U@ *against you stereotypes!!!* orz.
... because. I personally think what I have is a =skill= ... not a =talent= ... not something I've been "born" with, but something that I've worked my ass off ... and made out of hardwork ..... @ U@! ...
t-though... I hope that none of the 'amazing' artists I hinted at/mentioned ... is reading this OTL; .... because, I erm. am. erm. too shy yah..................... *hidesunderarock* I DON'T MEAN TO SPEAK AGAINST/UP FOR ANYONE. OR. WHATEVER. BUT IT'S JUST... MY GENERAL OPINION T AT...!! ... if you agree with me, you agree, if you don't, you don't... @ w@; let's be peaceful&civilized about it plz ;u;!!! ... THEN AGAIN. WHO THE HELL IS READING THIS LONG AS ENTRY, LMFAO? ... HOMFGZ. orz.... I'm sorry for wasting your tiem, I'm sure you've got something better else to do with your Life?! OTL ... I hope. If not, feel free to hang around with me T AT)/ ... 'cuz everything I do in my Life is pretty pointless, and I enjoy wasting time (+other people's time) ... SO YOU'RE FREE TO STAY WITH ME HERE *pats a seat next to hers* 8DDDD.... ! v ... BUT. NEVERTHELESS. THANKS FOR READING THIS FAR, AS ALWAYS///
AND. IF NONE OF THIS MAKES SENSE, THAT'S OKAY. IT'S COOL. LOL. I HOPE IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE T AT *doesn't wanna get beat up by someone that misunderstands her* orzorzorzorz;;;
THE END. I'M DONE. orz.