You are a priority,
And I think I might just be an option.

I'm remembering now why I don't do these.
It just hurts more this time around.

I re-read some old posts from years ago and I can't remember being that dumb.
Have we really grown up that much?
And will I look back at this entry in year to come and think the same thing.
Life is strange.

I have never in my life had trust issues.
If anything my issue has been that I trust too much,
and for some reason I don't believe 50% of the things that come out of your mouth.
I think that must mean something.

I'm boring, I don't know when this happened but I don't like it.

i feel numb.
void and unfilled.
i don't want to do this right now,
i can't do this right now.
this pain is crushing.
and you could care less.

so what happens now?
something good I hope.
because this is everything I've been waiting for.
for you.

And I never thought I'd feel this safe again
In a million years
And lying next to you, and hoping that it's true
And with you I'm truly in my element, my element with you.

I think the way you conduct yourself is so sad, and I wonder if you're ever really happy with the decisions you make. I'm starting to realize that most people don't want to spend the time needed to get to know someone. They don't want to waste the energy it takes to really care about someone. Things take time, and you'll miss out on so many good ( Read more... )

i wish that i could write you ( Read more... )

I can tell you not me.
but I'm not going to get ahead of myself
Lets see how this thing plays out.

lacking attatchemnts.
lets see who gets pulled down first.

this one might hurt.
stubborn.
boundries.

I love how nothing really surprise me anymore. Nothing makes me excited, are really happy. Everything is just very blah ( Read more... )