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Hi world. I finally found the time to post thanks to National Day that gave us like 5 days of holidays straight \(^0^)/ Sounds good? My foot. My project group leader insists that we make use of the long weekend to finish up our whole report. It's obviously an impossible feat. I should jolly well be starting on it now, but honestly, i don't want to touch it.
My parents just received my block tests results. The school is horrid enough to send our results back home through snail mail. The moment they saw the grades, they kicked a big fuss. I had expected that to happen. All my dad knows is to talk. As if he knows me very well. He's the last in the family that has any rights to comment on my academics. I don't mean to sound harsh, but when has he ever been concerned about what's going on for my school work? All he cares about is the test grades and like any Asian parents, nothing is ever good enough. It's my first block test in JC and i really worked hard for it. I didn't even work this hard for my secondary school promotional exam last year. The efforts simply didn't reflect on the results. Is it my fault that i'm stupid?
So now what. You want me to stop violin and piano? AS IF THAT'S GONNA HELP MAKE ME SMARTER. You don't even know where the root problem lies and simply jump on the most 'obvious', on-the-surface problem and come down to the conclusion that violin and piano is affecting my academics. HUH? WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME TO QUIT THROUGHOUT ALL THESE YEARS OF LEARNING THEN? How can that affect my academics when i hardly spend time practicing. I merely spend 2 hours a week attending lessons. That's erm, like one third the time i spend in front of the computer daily? I admit i do feel like quitting because.. of certain reasons. I do love music, but if music becomes a pain because of stupid reasons like being forced to take theory and practical exams instead of an enjoyment for myself, i would rather quit it and just play music myself. BUT. Bringing in violin and piano for something like results MAKES MY BLOOD BOIL. It only reflects more that you know nothing of me. And HUH. YOU'RE NOT EVEN THE ONE PAYING FOR THE LESSONS and you dared say how much money it would save for you per month if i quit. ANYWAY, I WONDER WHERE THE MONEY SURPLUS WILL GO TO. On the family? Wait till the cows come home man.
I don't deny that my results are disgusting. DDUDE. That's what's written.
Like telling me in my face that
DUDE, you need to work harder and harder.
DUDE, you need to stop using the computer.
DUDE, you need to stop fangirling.
DUDE, you need to stop sleeping during lessons.
DUDE, you need to start revising your work.
DUDE, you need to stop doing rubbish like this.
DUDE, you need to stop slipping into negative thoughts.
DUDE, this isn't the end of the world.
DUDE, you'll get the As and shut your parents' mouths!
Sigh.
Btw, U = ungraded. You see, it's bad till the point where they can't be bothered to give you a grade. That's chemistry thanks thanks.
I realised, i am slowly distancing myself from fandom after what happened to KAT-TUN. I am slowly coming to terms with it but it feels like my heart is dead ever since 20th July. I still love KAT-TUN. But i'm afraid of stirring up my emotions. It's rather awful and i don't want to feel it anymore. Thankfully my time has been occupied by many many ongoings in life during this period. During this period, i turned 17 too. With growing comes increasing responsibilities that i should not shun away from anymore.
Now i should focus on schoolwork and.. A level. Even though it's still more than a year away, i already can't wait for it to be over. Is this a Singaporean life?
My parents just received my block tests results. The school is horrid enough to send our results back home through snail mail. The moment they saw the grades, they kicked a big fuss. I had expected that to happen. All my dad knows is to talk. As if he knows me very well. He's the last in the family that has any rights to comment on my academics. I don't mean to sound harsh, but when has he ever been concerned about what's going on for my school work? All he cares about is the test grades and like any Asian parents, nothing is ever good enough. It's my first block test in JC and i really worked hard for it. I didn't even work this hard for my secondary school promotional exam last year. The efforts simply didn't reflect on the results. Is it my fault that i'm stupid?
So now what. You want me to stop violin and piano? AS IF THAT'S GONNA HELP MAKE ME SMARTER. You don't even know where the root problem lies and simply jump on the most 'obvious', on-the-surface problem and come down to the conclusion that violin and piano is affecting my academics. HUH? WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME TO QUIT THROUGHOUT ALL THESE YEARS OF LEARNING THEN? How can that affect my academics when i hardly spend time practicing. I merely spend 2 hours a week attending lessons. That's erm, like one third the time i spend in front of the computer daily? I admit i do feel like quitting because.. of certain reasons. I do love music, but if music becomes a pain because of stupid reasons like being forced to take theory and practical exams instead of an enjoyment for myself, i would rather quit it and just play music myself. BUT. Bringing in violin and piano for something like results MAKES MY BLOOD BOIL. It only reflects more that you know nothing of me. And HUH. YOU'RE NOT EVEN THE ONE PAYING FOR THE LESSONS and you dared say how much money it would save for you per month if i quit. ANYWAY, I WONDER WHERE THE MONEY SURPLUS WILL GO TO. On the family? Wait till the cows come home man.
I don't deny that my results are disgusting. DDUDE. That's what's written.
Like telling me in my face that
DUDE, you need to work harder and harder.
DUDE, you need to stop using the computer.
DUDE, you need to stop fangirling.
DUDE, you need to stop sleeping during lessons.
DUDE, you need to start revising your work.
DUDE, you need to stop doing rubbish like this.
DUDE, you need to stop slipping into negative thoughts.
DUDE, this isn't the end of the world.
DUDE, you'll get the As and shut your parents' mouths!
Sigh.
Btw, U = ungraded. You see, it's bad till the point where they can't be bothered to give you a grade. That's chemistry thanks thanks.
I realised, i am slowly distancing myself from fandom after what happened to KAT-TUN. I am slowly coming to terms with it but it feels like my heart is dead ever since 20th July. I still love KAT-TUN. But i'm afraid of stirring up my emotions. It's rather awful and i don't want to feel it anymore. Thankfully my time has been occupied by many many ongoings in life during this period. During this period, i turned 17 too. With growing comes increasing responsibilities that i should not shun away from anymore.
Now i should focus on schoolwork and.. A level. Even though it's still more than a year away, i already can't wait for it to be over. Is this a Singaporean life?