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[mystiri]

first i was filled with pain and turmoil
then i was filled with pain and anger
and now i'm just empty.
dead.


i spend most of my time at home staring out my bedroom window
writing songs and trying to find some reason
all i wanted this year was to go away
i wish this fear had something to say
but my wishes are rarely granted
and i wish for so much
everything i've ever wanted
but i wish for thigs such
that no one could ever give me
of course there's world peace and happiness
but i really want stability
a loving family for each
i just want some possibility
i wish for hope and faith and charity
i wish for this war to end
i wish someone could solve mme
bring this pain to an end
i wish i could stop biting my nails
i wish i could talk to my best friend
i wish i didn't feel like i'd failed
i wish i had energy to send
and i wish for so much
everything i've ever wanted
but i wish for things such
that no one could ever give me
of course there's world peace and happiness
but i really want stability
a loving family for each
i just want some possibility
so i go through life filling out forms and lying about myself
and i try to find a way to reform
while i'm screwing up everyone else
and this life i've managed to create
built on broken hearts and false hopes
well it's a life i've come to hate
i've torn down my walls in one stroke
and i wish i could solve the world's problems
i wish i could balance the budget
but every move i make, something stops them
and we keep nurtuting this deficit
and i wish for so much
everything i've ever wanted
but i wish for things such
that no one could ever give me
of course there's world peace and happiness
but i really want stability
a loving family for each
i just want some possibility
i spend most of my time at home staring out my bedroom window
writing songs and trying to find some reason
and all i wanted this year was to go away
i wish this fear had something to say
but my wishes are rarely granted