Tuesday : Great Grandmother dies
Wednesday : 13 yr old Cousin gets hit by a car and dies
Friday : Funeral
Saturday : Funeral (9th one)

A guy just called and asked if we had donuts...

and the next time someone rents a room with a credit card . i will ask them to fill out the whole sheet . See 1)Address 2)Phone Number . and i will buy alot of shit with it online .

Things are changing . I've tried facing my fears , but i get luckier just running further and further away from them . My dreams still leave me waking up saying fuck . One good thing about working 11-7 i suppose . I need my life to start , i need to start figuring out things , i need to start figuring out how i can write so much entries about the ( Read more... )

when the fuck is shit going to even out in MY life . im fucking tired of watching peoples life always fucking even out and actually weigh more on the better side and my life just getting worse and worse . nothing ever fuckin happens for me , never .

"We might kiss when we are alone
When nobody's watching
We might take it home
We might make out when nobody's there
It's not that we're scared
It's just that it's delicate"

thank you , damien rice , that's very 'comforting'

There are times when things make sense . and the times when you like to believe that they don't make sense . You try to believe for the longest time that its the other way around but we all know what we all think deep inside and that in the end everything makes perfect fucking sense . It's all there , the proof , the insight , the anguish , the ( Read more... )

when am i just gunna kill myself?

and then there are times when i just love life ...

...and "sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in."