29 years old today. It should be a great day, so many people 'wishing' me a Happy Birthday. But honestly, I feel broken, empty, and depressed. I didn't want to get out of bed. I don't want to see, or talk to people. The only reason people remember is because of Facebook. I really feel easily forgotten. Just another social media reminder. I am no ( Read more... )

In 21 days I will turn 28, it's hard to believe that. I feel like nothing I wanted to happen by now has. I thought I would be married, and be having a child by now. That I would have gone back to school. But, that is no where near where I am. I lost my baby, and im at a job, where I am under appreciated for all I do, I get taken for granted, and I ( Read more... )

So in the past year, I have gotten back into knitting. I am in the process of several projects. They are Christmas gifts for family. I wrote a pattern for the blanket for my sister in-law. It was loosely based on a pattern I liked, but I wanted it to be different, maybe more defined. I hope it turns out alright, but I've barely started on it. I'll ( Read more... )

Ok, I'm super drunk right now. I drank about 1/2 a bottle of vodka... I have thought this for years, I really believe that no one actually likes having me around, they just tolerate me. I try to be a good be, a good friend, but i never felt that i can be what people want me to be. I'm not enough as i am. I love with all i am, i take care of the ( Read more... )

I am a little frustrated today, In January i got a concussion at work, and have had a headache that won't go away, and frequently turns to a migraine. Nothing seems to help it. I have only been allowed to work part time until the doctor says i can go back to work full time. I like my job, but being on a computer for even just the 4 hours a day i am ( Read more... )

Me again, I don't know if anyone will read this, but there are some things that I need to say. For 13 years I have been battling depression, I know it is an uphill battle. Some days I have felt like giving up. But I keep going. I have experience loss, love, and many other things that life has to offer, not all good, not all bad. There is one thing ( Read more... )

I have a million things to do today. My sister is going to be coming up to my place today (Wednesday),and she will be staying at my place untili have to take her and her hubby to the airport at 03:30 Thursday morning. Iam excited o see them,but at the same time, I really do not like being on the road at that time ( Read more... )

I am kind of anxious. I have a million and one things to do. I have to make sure I have everything I need to go to Vermont next month. I have so many things to get yet. I am trying to lose weight, but it is hard to do when you have doctors and physical therapists telling you that you can't do hardly anything anymore. I hate the fact that some drunk ( Read more... )

I am so excited for August!! There are several great things happening (in no particular order)!!

1. My BF and I are going to be ivingout to Vermont for my Family Reunion ( Read more... )

I have not posted on here since 2011. It has been a very long time.

I hve not really been up to whole lot since then. Mostly just work. I love my job. I have been here for just over 4 years. I feel like working here, I have been abe to help people and make a difference. I helpe protect people's homes and buisnesses. But like every job there is a ( Read more... )