the darkness that is all around yet can be over looked. unnoticed. every 'almost hit me.' every pain. when my stomach feels like its physically being twisted. fear that hits my shoulders and runs down my spine as if something was behind me, turning around too slowly to ever see it. the unknown that sweeps fear over me that is so deep that i could ( Read more... )

 so i switched my schedule yet again. hopefully it's near what itll be next semester ( Read more... )

ive  been thinking. i really want to get in touch with that which is bigger than me. i am so fascinated by time, eternity, fate, free will. it's all so peculiar isn't it? Cant really get it, cant put my finger on it, just think of it, just wonder.  
i also really want to learn all about the Catholic and Jewish faith and how they parallel each other ( Read more... )

i have nothing really to say. except its a little after midnight and i dont want to go to bed yet, though i should.

soooo yeah. monday was interesting, hmm wait. i was going to write down my morning, but im deciding that it's better said in person cause i tend to talk with my hands and this is a story that needs that, it adds to the ridiculousness.

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i feel useless. i wish there was something i could do. if i could fix it but i cant. useless.

i feel distant. like im letting it slip away. like i knew and wanted to pretend its not real. just pretend.

i feel dumb. im just a silly girl who doesnt know want to know the truth if the truth is what she knows it is.

i feel small. i am small.

on a lighter ( Read more... )

i wish there was something i could do.
just give a hug and say everthing will be fine, and everything actually be fine.
geez.

i feel so i  dont know like full of so much i dont know like i could get up and talk in front of a thousand people pouring my little heart out about why its so important, but really id just be talking to myself. i get passionate about something and all im doing is trying to get myself to hear it. sometimes i need to get frustrated(thats the wrong ( Read more... )

 it's weird. i dont feel like it's been that long. ive been doing this that and the other thing, but it's already october 24th and im at asu now and looking back at pictures it's all so i dont know distant. i miss people but right now thinking about it i realize how completely distant we've become. there's so much i would want to say and im sure ( Read more... )

im so close, yet so far.

i feel like im playing bingo when you have four of five lined up all around the board and youll win but it just keeps jumping around the pieces you need... except it's not bingo..

it's monopoly...

 i want to switch my major ( Read more... )