dying

[myxruina]

I feel like no one really knows what it's like to be dying inside, but I know that pretty much everyone at one point or another know what it's like.
Last night I went out with Anthony and we watched Mean Girls and loved it. Hilarious movie. Then we saw Heppy and then Mandi. I had to leave early though

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[xxairpaganxx]

*hugs* Do what honestly makes you happy in your life, but always remember that I love you.

-R-o-s-e-S-

[myxruina]

-hugs tightly- thank you for understanding that it seems the inevitable in the only thing that can really help me. I've lost everything but that.
I love you too darling.
<33 forever

[xxairpaganxx]

I don't want you to feel bad because of this, but just something to know... you dying would rip my world apart.

It's not the best for everyone.
It's not the best for you nor me.

-R-o-s-e-S-

[myxruina]

I've thought it over for so long now.
It is the best, it's just hard to see, because no one feels ready to let go.
But if they just did, it would all be better.
<33

[regurgitate_me]

You know that I care..and that is why I say this.

It is selfish to believe that you are the only one in the world that feels the way you do. Many people go through shit every fucking day..and many people die and want to die every single day. To think you are the only one who knows what it feels like to be dying inside is ignorant
Suicide is also fucking selfish..no matter how Bad things get no matter how terrible they are..there is always hope for things to improve. There is always hope. Time is not for you to decide, 'all you can do is decide what to do with the time that is given to you' to end it abruptly is not in your path.

I don't know you and I've never met you..but I would still suffer a loss...and who is there for me to be close to? who is there to bring together around me? No. I stand alone.
And you will too if you end your life.

xoxo

[myxruina]

I know it was selfish to write that no one knows what its like to die inside.
Everyone knows, at one point or another, what its like to die inside.

My death would save so many. And it would save myself. I know it is selfish to commit suicide, but sometimes you need to do things for yourself to bring you peace.

Right now I'm most likely in delusions, but it is how I truly think right now. I may think differently at another time, but I still feel every morning and I wake wishing for death.
And that line you got, from Lord of the Rings, which inspired me to write and to live in grade 7. That book saved my life, but sadly, I've found that there is no good left in this world, despite what Sam Gamgee may plea.

I love you darling.
<33

[regurgitate_me]

I think Sam is right...personally. I know that it may be hard to see at times, but I do believe that among all the hatred, saddness, murder, and terror of the word..that there are tiny specs of good.
LOVE is worth living for.
think about what gandalf says about death...that comes from death naturally..I believe that suicide takes you somewhere different..somewhere like mordor. The life of an orc or goblin.

Ok, enough of the LOTR analagies. I'm sorry if my words were harsh, you worry me. I hope that all is well. Please take care of yourself..I know things may be hard now..but I'm always here.
<3

[excruciation]

I can relate. Believe me.