I love you so much, darling. Your words are true and caring. I just feel lost. I threw away everything I once had in this life, I threw away my future and my present. Now I wake up and I no longer have the strength to breathe anymore. It's too much for me, despite how selfish that may sound. Yet at the same time, I know my death would save so many. This is something I really need to spend a long time thinking about, because the one thing that would sadden me would be the fact that my sister is planning a wedding for next year, and she wants me to be there. She drove 6 hours and got into town at 4 am just to surprise me in the hospital over 2 weeks ago when i attempted suicide. It's just that nothing has gotten better. To me..I can't even see beauty in the world. I can't write, I can't draw, everything I cherished I can no longer find the strength to do. I just feel like death would be my savior. Though I need time to think about it. xoxo Thank you so much for your input darling. <33 love you forever
I love you too Sophie! But I really thing that your death wouldn't save anyone. Not even yourself. There are many people that would miss you and be hurt, because they will feel like they did nothing. Things will get better. When you have family and friends that truly love you, things do get better, because true friends and your family will fight for your life. If there were more I could do then leave comments in your LJ, I would. Because it makes me so sad to know someone feels like everything needs to end in order for them to be happy.
baby please don't. i fear i am already too late. but i love you, i love you so much. i pray you don't do this. -hugs you tightly- you're beautiful, and i want to fight everything with you, for you.
you're not too late, hunny. I'm still hear, and I love you so much too. It's just something I think I may have to do one day. One day when everything gets to be too much to handle. It's already hit that point and I just can't survive this anymore. <33 I love you -hugs on tightly-
Look, Sophie! Don't you see how many of us love you? We -all- love you! And with every piece of my aching heart I beg you not to leave me without you in this world. I want you to go on and see that life will get better, it really will!
Just please don't leave me! I know I told you do what makes you happy, but will this really make you happy in the -long run-?
I really believe it will make me happy. I don't know what there would be for me in this world anymore. I'm sorry. I don't know when, but just thinking that I have a way out makes me happy and smile. <33 I love you x forever
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I love you sweety
<33 forever
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I just feel lost. I threw away everything I once had in this life, I threw away my future and my present.
Now I wake up and I no longer have the strength to breathe anymore. It's too much for me, despite how selfish that may sound. Yet at the same time, I know my death would save so many.
This is something I really need to spend a long time thinking about, because the one thing that would sadden me would be the fact that my sister is planning a wedding for next year, and she wants me to be there.
She drove 6 hours and got into town at 4 am just to surprise me in the hospital over 2 weeks ago when i attempted suicide.
It's just that nothing has gotten better. To me..I can't even see beauty in the world.
I can't write, I can't draw, everything I cherished I can no longer find the strength to do.
I just feel like death would be my savior.
Though I need time to think about it. xoxo
Thank you so much for your input darling.
<33 love you forever
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i fear i am already too late.
but i love you, i love you so much.
i pray you don't do this.
-hugs you tightly-
you're beautiful, and i want to fight everything with you, for you.
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I'm still hear, and I love you so much too.
It's just something I think I may have to do one day.
One day when everything gets to be too much to handle. It's already hit that point and I just can't survive this anymore.
<33 I love you
-hugs on tightly-
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Don't you see how many of us love you? We -all- love you! And with every piece of my aching heart I beg you not to leave me without you in this world. I want you to go on and see that life will get better, it really will!
Just please don't leave me! I know I told you do what makes you happy, but will this really make you happy in the -long run-?
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I don't know what there would be for me in this world anymore.
I'm sorry. I don't know when, but just thinking that I have a way out makes me happy and smile.
<33 I love you x forever
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