talked to brian. seems like everything was a big misunderstanding. he was gone the whole weekend and he lost his cell phone. things dont feel the same. probably cuz i havent actually hung out in almost a week. secret santa was fun. i love confusing people. mwahhaa! i have a sophmomore and everybody thinks i have hannah or emily or hailey. wells ee.

brian came over for like 15 minutes. hes super cool. babysat. talked to brian when i got home. all of a sudden i got into a depressed mood and tol him im not worth his time and stuff. then i told him i didnt mean it and now things seem kidna shaky. i feel soooo alone. i hate depression. i wanna be happy so bad. *push me off lifes lil edge... cuz im ( Read more... )

school=blah. didnt have to work after all. went to the mall w/ brian. he makes me laugh sooo much. we had a connection. i dont wanna set myself up but hes sooo sweet. i hope this 1 works out.

brian: my girl is my world. <3 i LOVE spending time with her. as much as possible, but time for friends is important. very important. i can get alil jealous ( Read more... )

why cant i let myself be happy. i try so hard to be happy. its not working. so hung out w/ kc after school and hung out at kroger forever and talked to ronnie and aaron. may of gotten kc fired. i would feel aweful. put whip cream all over ronnies windshield. fun stuff. sat w/ him in his truck during his break. i dont think we will work out. ohh ( Read more... )

worked. parade. choir concert. free cuz of brock. cookies. mmmmmmmm. hott kaylie and hott hott nolan. i was watching it and i was like woah there are 2 guys up there that ive hehe kissed. lol. got 2 hang out w/ 2 hotties- kathryn and jj. my restrictions expired today. but still broke the law by pileing everyone in my car and almost dying every 5 ( Read more... )

guys make me sick!!! plain and simple. the only good 1 i had i was so dumb that i lost him. im trying not to live in the past. i really wanna date. i like the mystery of dating. ohh well. i pray that god leads me in the right direction cuz sometimes im afraid that i let him down so he is letting me doqn. i know thats not the case. im really trying ( Read more... )

all i think about is him. i hate this. i wanna be with him. i dunno why but i really do. i was talking to the lovely jj last night and i figured out that im sorta falling for him. so mountaintop was fun. road rage. watched basketball videos w/ alissa while she laughed her head off at me. cant blame her. at least i made a basket. after i took out 1 ( Read more... )

been extremely busy. always working. after work i sat and talked to kurt for 3 hours while he was working so we could hang out afterwards. we stopped by his house and his mom said we couldnt hang out. grrr. so went home and chilled w/ my sis and steffan. today i went to my church and to bryans house which is a home for kids who are infected/ ( Read more... )

worked alllllll day yesterday. pimped out w/ my manager and jenny on our hour and a half break. lol. some black guy and his "possie" hit on me while i was working. well actually i got hit on several times. whats the big turn on w/ the fair costume? lol/ turns out sean was working and i didnt know that till i left the mall. kurt came and talked to ( Read more... )

havent felt like writing in this lame thing. last night i stayed the night at britneys house and we went to courtneys house. me and brit talked to sean for a while. hes awesome. then we prank called him selling orange juice. then did the same thing to daniels voicemail. his mom heard it and called me back yelling at me. haha funny stuff. then went ( Read more... )