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I dont like crying at 2 in the am.
It often results in puffy eyes and lack of sleep.
It makes me feel ugly. ..
I hate it.
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My emotions are for some reason slightly unhinged.
I am a damsal in distress.
Overly dramatic & critical.
& my emotions are going to explode, full force.
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I don't know what's wrong.
I can't explain my frustration with some people as of lately.
I can't tell you why I feel like everyone is against me.
I don't know why I bother giving it my all anymore.
Nothing is gratifying anymore.
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However, I am looking forward to Saturday.
Elli may be kind of weird, and he may be kind of emo, and hits on me way too much.
But he's an amazing person & an awesome musician.
We might hang out, providing I go to classes for the rest of the week.
& definately take cute emo pictures of him, because he's photogenic and beautiful.
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Brian is distant, which is even more frustrating.
No words could describe what an amazing person he is.
He just, seems edgy lately..and sometimes it feels like he regrets me.
Like I'm a burden.
I know the difference, that he loves me and cares about me.
But I can't help but wonder if I'm not enough for him.
And I already know he deserves better, which kills me.
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I hate when things don't work out the way I want them too.
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Danielle, I'm sorry about your whole situation.
You know if you need to talk, I'm only an IM/phonecall away.
I understand, to some extent, what you're going through.
& I don't think you deserve it at all.
You're an amazing person, and only one person is forgetting that.
I love you, girl.