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Okay so I am embarrassed around other people if I don't have a bra on, and it's physically uncomfortable to not have these puppies supported if I'm doing anything more than slounging at home.
This is going behind a cut for lots of second-guessing myself and talking about asthma, breast reduction, lumps, and surgery.
32GG ya'll.
I already planned on getting a reduction someday, but after some self-observation, I've gotten some extra data to add to the pile of "why I'd like to get rid of these things pls k thnx".
It's physically easier to breathe without a bra on.
Like, I don't have solid way to measure that? I haven't dug out the home spirometer and checked it. It just...I don't think there's much difference between the times I make myself take in a deep breathe on purpose, but for the regular unconscious breathing, I think it's like...the same amount of muscle effort is getting me more air.
It might be something I'm imagining? But considering the indentations / marks the bra band leaves, I think I might be on to something.
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I just got word from my mom that they've successfully gotten me on to my stepdad's new insurance policy. So along with my job hunt, I should look into finding a local doctor to check up on my asthma and refill my albuterol prescription.
It's supposed to be a rescue inhaler but honestly I think I'm supposed to be using it or maybe a different medication more often. I almost always feel some wheezing or tightness when I'm sick, but I don't use the damn thing often enough. Partly from hating the buzzing feeling, partly from being scared of running out.
Bro's wondering if he should get back on one of the other meds for it.
I'm nervous about getting on a daily medication because I'm kinda shit at remembering to take stuff. Bro might be able to help me remember though. I should talk about it with a doctor.
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I'm overdue for a ultrasound on my breasts aka BOOBTRASOUND.
I had a breast specialist I saw up north, 'cause I got referenced to her by the student clinic during college. I should probably look for a local specialist if I'm gonna pursue this, but I liked working with her.
I need to find out more of what a reduction would actually entail. If I'm gonna do this, I want to get rid of as much as safely possible. If I can get down to "totes comfortable sans bra" I'd like that. I'm worried that might mean getting rid of the fun bits, though [nipples are awesome, okay? kinda wanna keep those if I can]
I've heard some people who've used binders that it doesn't affect their breathing at all. But I've also never heard anyone say their bra affected it either?
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Back this winter, in the span of a couple months, my lumpectomy* came up with three different people. One was a coworker who'd had a double mastectomy, one was an optometry tech [their forms asked if I'd ever had any surgeries], and the other was either a nurse or doctor at the clinic.
I was 23 at the time. All three of them exclaimed "You're way too young to have had a lumpectomy!"
I kind of wonder how they'd react if I'd told them the surgery itself was when I was 19, and that we first noticed the lump like halfway through high school.
*it was benign, by the way, and we were 99% sure it was benign before the surgery. Fucker was big though, and kind of unusually shaped. A bit small in mass than a golf ball, and looked like "several bubbles fused together". Fibroadenoma, aka a "breast mouse" 'cause they kind of move a bit if you poke 'em. It's what happens when the fibrous tissue grows in a ball/lump instead of a sheet like it's supposed to.
There's a much smaller lump in my other breast, which is one of the reasons I'm supposed to be getting ultrasounds regularly. I do self-exams in the shower but and it doesn't feel like it's changed but yeah, once insurance is confirmed I need to find a primary care physician, a breast specialist, and an ultrasound tech.
My mom's family has a history of benignly lumpy breasts. I would like to be free of them sooner rather than later.
Maybe I can call my doc up north and see if she has an recommendations down here.
This is going behind a cut for lots of second-guessing myself and talking about asthma, breast reduction, lumps, and surgery.
32GG ya'll.
I already planned on getting a reduction someday, but after some self-observation, I've gotten some extra data to add to the pile of "why I'd like to get rid of these things pls k thnx".
It's physically easier to breathe without a bra on.
Like, I don't have solid way to measure that? I haven't dug out the home spirometer and checked it. It just...I don't think there's much difference between the times I make myself take in a deep breathe on purpose, but for the regular unconscious breathing, I think it's like...the same amount of muscle effort is getting me more air.
It might be something I'm imagining? But considering the indentations / marks the bra band leaves, I think I might be on to something.
~
I just got word from my mom that they've successfully gotten me on to my stepdad's new insurance policy. So along with my job hunt, I should look into finding a local doctor to check up on my asthma and refill my albuterol prescription.
It's supposed to be a rescue inhaler but honestly I think I'm supposed to be using it or maybe a different medication more often. I almost always feel some wheezing or tightness when I'm sick, but I don't use the damn thing often enough. Partly from hating the buzzing feeling, partly from being scared of running out.
Bro's wondering if he should get back on one of the other meds for it.
I'm nervous about getting on a daily medication because I'm kinda shit at remembering to take stuff. Bro might be able to help me remember though. I should talk about it with a doctor.
~
I'm overdue for a ultrasound on my breasts aka BOOBTRASOUND.
I had a breast specialist I saw up north, 'cause I got referenced to her by the student clinic during college. I should probably look for a local specialist if I'm gonna pursue this, but I liked working with her.
I need to find out more of what a reduction would actually entail. If I'm gonna do this, I want to get rid of as much as safely possible. If I can get down to "totes comfortable sans bra" I'd like that. I'm worried that might mean getting rid of the fun bits, though [nipples are awesome, okay? kinda wanna keep those if I can]
I've heard some people who've used binders that it doesn't affect their breathing at all. But I've also never heard anyone say their bra affected it either?
~
Back this winter, in the span of a couple months, my lumpectomy* came up with three different people. One was a coworker who'd had a double mastectomy, one was an optometry tech [their forms asked if I'd ever had any surgeries], and the other was either a nurse or doctor at the clinic.
I was 23 at the time. All three of them exclaimed "You're way too young to have had a lumpectomy!"
I kind of wonder how they'd react if I'd told them the surgery itself was when I was 19, and that we first noticed the lump like halfway through high school.
*it was benign, by the way, and we were 99% sure it was benign before the surgery. Fucker was big though, and kind of unusually shaped. A bit small in mass than a golf ball, and looked like "several bubbles fused together". Fibroadenoma, aka a "breast mouse" 'cause they kind of move a bit if you poke 'em. It's what happens when the fibrous tissue grows in a ball/lump instead of a sheet like it's supposed to.
There's a much smaller lump in my other breast, which is one of the reasons I'm supposed to be getting ultrasounds regularly. I do self-exams in the shower but and it doesn't feel like it's changed but yeah, once insurance is confirmed I need to find a primary care physician, a breast specialist, and an ultrasound tech.
My mom's family has a history of benignly lumpy breasts. I would like to be free of them sooner rather than later.
Maybe I can call my doc up north and see if she has an recommendations down here.