i got it i got it i got it i got it ( Read more... )

you know... i hate this ( Read more... )

wow ( Read more... )

so i'm a very good human being for helping him not suffer. i still feel like crap. putting a pet to sleep, even one you're not heartbreakingly-attached to is still a crap way to spend an afternoon thinking about. let alone doing. at least it was quick. lot faster than i thought it would be... just gotta tell myself it's for the best.

good kitty.

well, ok, it's not his fault.

he's really old (almost 14yrs) so he's had a great run of it... it's not his fault he's costing me an arm and a leg to find out his kidney's are failing. not that he could have done anything to tell me this or prevent this. it just happens. and i am unfortunately not a nice enough person to bankrupt myself on kidney ( Read more... )

that being ignored makes me angry?

course lately the things i want to say i say there on private too... so, apparently i just don't have much i want to share lately? or lots i want to share but can't really because of self-censoring for the audience? not really sure which...

getting nervous about moving... i know i want to. i know i need to. hell i don't wanna stay here. but fuck if ( Read more... )

a random resolution generator told me that i should resolve to 'generate more bad karma' this year

i like this... kinda fitting, seeing as my year didn't start as optimistically as i had been hoping it would...

not that anyone reads this one anymore (which, maybe, is a good thing)

been to TWO PURECirkus events since i last wrote. i think i want to run away with the cirkus... or at least get lost with them for a while. they're even holding auditions but i alas have no really marketable "cirkus" skills... i don't juggle, i don't fire dance (though that might ( Read more... )

dual meanings today for that one...

sick of tracking stupid down to collect money from him. which he finally dropped some off friday. less than he needed to and first time in three months he's bothered to do so. what an ass. and he doesn't even seem apologetic that he lies to me constantly about this. i keep thinking i'm going to call him & try to ( Read more... )