I cannot express how much I love my job. Why androids to not dream of electric sheep is simple. We don't sleep. I'm operating with full resources right now. I haven't been feeling well the past week or so probably because I have had some sort of system virus. I will say that my connection with the machine world is greater than I previously thought ( Read more... )

girl robot? where are you? I'm here. waiting.

I think I've used that subject line before. I must be slipping in my old age. My apologies for not updating seeing as how I know no one really gave a crap. Lots of stuff going on in my life... new girl... new car... new job... new school hopefully. I'm excited about it all but at the same time I have my own fears and insecurities about starting a ( Read more... )

At first glance, last night I really should have initiated project "kill yourself" but I started talking to someone who for the first time in a long while made me laugh. After having a heavy conversation about marriage and fatherhood with a friend of mine (that really made me think long and hard about how much I'm not ready to settle down... YET). ( Read more... )

After hearing a few songs off an album I bought and literally threw away after hearing a few songs off it... I really am into this band now. I feel the fall coming. Winter is just around the corner and I will be making trips to go skiing this year. No more sitting around doing nothing ( Read more... )

I was in a hotel in New Jersey after drinking all night with Michelle in Philly. This was the last day that I would be on the set of Jersey Girl... which still hasn't been released... stupid miramax. I had a great entry from that time in my life. I think maybe somewhere there's a copy of it, but oh well. it is lost now. it's too bad, it was really ( Read more... )

I like this song... I think that it sounds good. I'm glad I wrote it. The thing is... I wrote it when I was in BMT. I still have flashbacks from that place... ugh, I hated it there. The mental prison that it was. Not only that, I just feel like knowing what it's like to lose every basic freedom really frees you in more ways than you can imagine. I ( Read more... )

you see what time it is? oh yeah, 4 am again. I go to bed at 4 am and wake up at 8 or 9... the latest I slept is 11 am. I don't know what's wrong with me. I dream of a world that doesn't exist. I constantly think I'm losing my grip. I think that there is something more to life than what we actually see. Something unprovable. Something that has no ( Read more... )

so I'm not sorry I haven't updated, but I feel somewhat foolish for not keeping up to date with this journal. I can't look back on what I was feeling and see if any of it has changed. Today was just like any other day and sometimes I think I've seen one too many movies or that I'm plugged into a machine trying to wake up from a reality that doesn't ( Read more... )

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