*sigh*
ok so i had a really good time last night. went to Laura's house at about 6:30ish and we sat around and chatted and watched tv, laying around on the sofa laying on her tickling her foot lol Got chinese take out later sat in the back room on the sofa hugging chattin more ticklin more lol was pretty tired after a while so i was just laying on her lap facing her while she was stroking my hair which was nice. but yeah theres obvioulsy a down side to this all which is ive really fallen for her again, well then again i never really didnt from the last time i asked her out. sucks :( i really want to go out with her shes so my type and i know her so well so i know what shes like and she just such a nice person :( all the lil comments we have between us like me asking her if she was going off to uni and her saying "yeah im doing a course thing that means i get to live in spain for a year, you should come stay with me" and cause she want to live in spain after uni cause she goes there loads seeing friends over there and told me i shouold come stay with her when she lives over there.
umm YES much. then theres the small lil things weve said like last night her going on about bridget jones 2 and that in the film the dude travels the world to save her and that no one would do that for her, so i said without thinking "id travel the world to save you" which i got a kinda aww reply but not an actual aww. yeah i know i look into these things too much but so what.
The diet/exercise/workout bla bla etc thing ive started over christmas and up to my 18th will hopefully pay off ya know. ok so ppl would say why you dont need to. but it would nmake me happier and id like to actually look nice for my 18th ya know. hopefully it'll pay off. lots of swimming and exarcise and diet. and why not whats wrong with wanting to look nice if you feel better about it really.
yeah also what else applies to the exercise etc shit is well ya know. if im happier with what i look like then id be more confident and hopefully have more confidence to act a lil more forward with laura, like more flirty (more so then now that is lol) not saying im trying to look better to get "into her league" shes really not like that either shes a sweet girl. but hey looking nice helps right lol but its not like im relying on looks to get with her. its the confidence i need to show her all my personality. ok im blabbin on. but i mean if she acts the way she does with how i am now.. who knows what reaction i get when i (for the love of god cause im puttin the effort in) feel and hopefully look more attractive. im not expecting some miricle!! just better!! lol
right im off now bye