i hate losing friends. call me if you change your mind about blowing me off.

I don't think it's easy to explain how hard it is to tell somebody to whom you devoted a large part of your life, over a long period of time, that your feelings for them have died. It was like watching a child who has run away from home, come back to the house they grew up in only to find that their parents have moved ( Read more... )

me:"Wake up sleepy-head, a beautiful new world awaits you. "

him:"don't you lie to me."

on nights like tonight, when I'm plagued by this restless sleeplessness, i realize things about myself. i realized that if my attention is not devoted to one thing or another, i experience an almost crippling sense of nostalgia. the smallest things can trigger it; the first drag of a cigarette on a cold day and I'm back in fryeburg maine, a good ( Read more... )

one of the worst weekends of my life. every single one of my friends who said that they were going to be around and hang out with me, bailed on me. my best friend threw a party and forgot to mention it to me. and to top it all off my dad caught me blazing. i don't even know what to do with myself at the moment ( Read more... )

I had a dream about you last night. I took you on a date, just the two of us, and I made you laugh like i don't think i could do in real life.at the end of the night you slid up close beside me, and when i touched your face, you closed your eyes and i kissed you. you seemed surprised at first, but you pushed me onto my back in the booth and kissed ( Read more... )

it figures that the only girl I've met since the break up thats really made me say "wow, this girl is awesome" has a boyfriend that she's been with for several years. on top of that, i like the kid so its not like i could justify trying to steal her away.

such is life

there are some times in your life where, if only for a few minutes, everything falls into place. it are those moments that make you feel really alive for as long as they last. today, driving west on the highway into the sunset, window down, I lit a cigarette and turned up the stereo as the first chords of Wolf LIke Me started up. for a few minutes ( Read more... )

what i did on the day of my birth

mowed the lawn

went out to dinner

got ripped off for 80 bucks

fan-fucking-tastic.

i feel like i should give up on you. see the thing is, i don't know many people around here due to the fact that i have spent the last five years in maine. there are a lot of people around that i used to consider friends, but its hard to just pick up where things left off. So the few people who i have actually been able to keep a friendship going ( Read more... )