gosh i hate the feeling that i'm not good enough. i KNOW there are awesome things about me. but fuck sometimes it's questionable. i feel down. i love my brother. he makes me smile. i just want to be fucking happy. please. i either want to have him 100% and be happy or just for him to get the hell out of my life and be over him 100%. i make ( Read more... )

talk to ppl in ur gotdamn neighborhood and find all the bitchin parties.  ok let's cut to the fucking chase... click the picture and do something that should've already been done.  join mother fuckers.  ok?  greattt.


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my depressed post a while back about "not a soul understanding how bad it hurts to lose jon" got an anonymous comment. it touched me soo deeply that after reading the first sentence i started to cry. SORRY THAT MY PAST FEW POSTS HAVE BEEN SAD! all of this hurts like a bitch and i have a feeling it's only going to get worse and im just trying to ( Read more... )

not a soul... not a damn soul knows what it's like. i gave someone 4 years of my life. i gave them every inch of me. every damn thing i possibly could. i got boring. god that burns so bad. if i could lay in bed for the rest of high school i would. god send me an angel. nothing ever hurt so bad. i hope i can find it in me to move on. god ( Read more... )

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well things have been going okay lately. jonathan and I are going through things that anyone could hardly grasp. but to all of you cute little gossipers out there... no i'm not getting back with him. it's hard when you love someone though. but.. he really just didn't care about me for a long time. so anyway... sadie hawkins dance was not fun ( Read more... )

<>this weekend was pretty fun.  i'm in need of something more fun though.  i miss my old days.  i got ready and almost had shit to do.  luckily kaleen came and we went out.  hmmm yes i hope next weekend is better.  but i cant expect anything.  thanks bye.

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i wanna do something fun tonight.  but nothing strikes me.  nothing grabs me.  there's another party at the same house as last night's.. but i wonder if it's gonna be fun or raided all quick.  hmm.  well call me if you wanna do something.  hey wanna see the two sexiest things in life?? k look....


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hey wow. jonathan, you are soooo over. i'm feelin a little crushed but i can get through anything. it's good to see who my true friends are and how gay other people can be. ahhh i love shell and dee. much ( Read more... )

so today is cheer banquet.  the official last day of junior varsity 2004.  we were the shit.  im gonna miss it.  that was some fun ass shit.  we were so close.  i love you guys.


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