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nachotummy

Exhausted Ramblings about Coffee shop conversations

Oct 09, 2009 14:27

I did not sleep well last night. I don't know why.
I finished an assignment around midnight. I tried to sleep for two hours. No luck.
I watched the Office. I loved it.
I watched Grey's Anatomy. It was alright.
I got to sleep at 4:30. Up at 7:30. Went to class.

Class was fine. Went to a coffee shop with my Canadian friend Stephanie. Stephanie and I ( Read more... )

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jessicariley October 9 2009, 23:09:09 UTC

Hmm I think I am who I want to be. Sure I'd like to lose weight but I want to be exactly what I am. Wife to Dennis, Mom to Landon.
I want to be better at being kind, better at getting the things done that I need to do and thing like that but I believe I do actually know. I think God gave me this.. this is where he wants me to be. Maybe he's just not done preparing you for what you will be and in that waiting period you feel unsure? I think it will come to you :)

nachotummy October 10 2009, 17:35:30 UTC

I think I'm who I want to be too. I don't know if I'm heading toward a career that I want, though.
How do I want to spend my time/earn a living? Answers to this basic question have always alluded me.

jean_yus October 10 2009, 12:50:49 UTC

I'm too self assured to find guys (or girls) who say things like that interesting. (No offense Ned). I hear about the cold and indifferent girl and think if that was me, it's not that I'm afraid of what I want, it's that I don't want YOU and so that's how you're going to get around my rejection without fracturing your eggshell ego ( ... )

nachotummy October 10 2009, 17:33:54 UTC

Were you inspired to keep one or lose one?

I kind of think that masks are entirely appropriate a lot of the time. For example, with above presumptuous Parisian, I'm not going to offer any real piece of myself. This doesn't mean one isn't honest. It just means that one isn't necessarily forthcoming.

I know i didn't explain the story well. He wasn't trying to get with the girl. He was observing how she acted towards another guy who he considered (with evidence that kind of made sense) that she was interested in. Like she asked about this guy after he left, but was haughty or something? I don't know. I was kind of out of it yesterday.

jean_yus October 12 2009, 01:19:43 UTC

I was inspired to lose one/them. Andy was gay. And he's been married and had kids since then. 25 years married or so by now. But he is who he is. And admits who he was. Not in a flaunty (pretentious) type way, just the, yup, that's my story. But now I'm healed and look what God has done!!! He's very good to bring it back to God always. And has been honest about it with his kids and wife and now when people ask, "I heard you're dad was gay...?" The kids respond with, "YEAH! But now he's not and it was God..." and they testify ( ... )

jean_yus October 12 2009, 01:23:35 UTC

Oh, and I think "social grace" is a type of mask that is definitely appropriate. I think that often it's more important what I DON'T say to my husband, my siblings, my in-laws, my co-workers, my parents, my church family, my friends and the general public that truly shows Christ living in me. Because often, the things I think to say aren't the best things to say. So I don a "mask" (social grace) and keep quiet, or choose encouraging words, instead of saying what the abrupt self of me really wants to say.

Funny thing is, most people think I'm very straightforward and often harsh. If only they knew what I was thinking and chose not say....