Mr Clearwater
This has been saved on my hard disk for months and I completely forgot about posting it! but here it is under the cut
Jacob Leah A-Z Fics
She's been gone for two years. She's back now but it doesnt really change anything, does it?
Mr Clearwater.
Leah has the day marked off in her diary; she clears all her plans and leaves her phone on the dresser. She’s never actually told her mother but she’s sure she has a fair idea when she makes her a cup of coffee and leans up to kiss her daughter’s forehead.
Seth wakes up earlier than usual, he leans in her doorway and looks at her softly. Neither of them says a word but Leah has the strongest urge to wrap her long arms around him - so she does. Little Seth isn’t quite so little anymore and that makes her want to cry just a little bit.
Say hello for me.
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Everything passes her by in a blur; cars roll by in slow motion and faceless people greet her. She walks down the roads she memorised as a child. The reservation is her land its her parents legacy to her, so many bad memories it holds but she could never let it go. And God did she try. Her mother always told her to be proud, her father told her to be happy. Leah let out a sigh, she hadn’t kept her end of the bargain -she hadn’t even tried.
“So its true, you’re back” Leah blinked, before her stood the boy (another boy) she tried her hardest not to think about.
“Yeah, looks that way Black”
She cant stand the way he’s looking at her, the pity she can guess that’s in his eyes. She shrugs uncomfortably not knowing what to say, she hasn’t seen him in two years but of all the questions that she’s wanted to ask him, none of them seem quite so appropriate.
“That’s all you have to say?” He says, the soft look in his eyes replaced by a growing anger. “No goodbye, no letter not even a single goddamn phonecall and that’s all I get from you?”
Leah noticed atleast three heads turn in their direction, she met his stare. ‘Keep it down Jake alright, I didn’t come here for this, I don’t wanna fight you.” Her voice was firm but quiet, something in it surprised him, he looked at her as if she’d grown two heads. His mouth opened and shut promptly.
“I cant do this right now but I’ll come find you ok” she saw that he was about to protest, “Please Jacob. Please. Just give me a little while, I’m not gonna disappear again…ok?”
He looked unsure with his hand clutched tightly at his sides as if he were trying his hardest not to drag her back to the Clearwater house and have a nice long discussion right there and then but he slowly nodded, watching her with hooded eyes. She didn’t chance looking back at him before he changed his mind she just took quicker strides ahead.
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It took her exactly 8 minutes and 23 seconds to get there.
She rested her bag down against the bark of the tree and sat down cross legged in front of it. It was the same tree that she got the scar peppered along her knees from climbing when she was six years old. Three years of sunny skies, she was happy for the change, a little cloud never hurt anyone.
“Hey dad” She started,
dusting her hand over the white stone, “It’s been too long. I’m sorry about that, I’ve missed you.”
She remembers warm hands brushing her hair back and smoothing it down.
Leah, don’t cry
The steady feel of his heartbeat under her cheek as he carried her up to bed from where she’d fallen asleep sat in front of the television.
Shhh. Go back to sleep.
And the comfort of his words that only a father can give. She remembers dark days after Sam and an aching heart and a father who she’d thought would always be there, wiping her tears away, reminding her that happiness is never out of reach.
Everything will be alright sweetheart
I’m here
Except he’s gone now, and it’s not okay, and it hasn’t been for longer than she can remember but maybe it didn’t have to stay that way.
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One day turns into two and two days turn into three and Leah cant even pretend that she’s not a coward. She chooses to ignore her mothers pointed glances and Seth’s murmurs of disapproval. She stayed indoors getting reacquainted with the Clearwater house, taking in all the details down to the new photo frames. People she’d long grown up with had gone and settled down with their special moments frozen on film and scattered along the walls.
Its when she see’s a picture of him that she knows its time. It was a photograph taken at Sam and Emily’s wedding funnily enough, with a vinyl black border around it. Jacob had his head thrown back laughing while Leah is sat close at his side with bright amused eyes. She closes her eyes,
“Hey Jake?”
“What?” He said the fork full of cake still hanging out of his mouth.
“Thanks” She said chewing on her bottom lip nervously, in an action so unLeah it shocked him.
“What for?”
“For being here, for letting me stay in your pack. And I guess I just wanted to let you know that I am… trying, I’m trying to be less…well less of a bitch, it’s - “
“Jake! Oh hey Leah” Embry had wandered over to their table.
“Hey Bastard” She said smiling sweetly before turning her attention towards Jacob, her smile morphing into a wicked grin.
“Trying with you and Seth anyway.”
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She hears him long before she turns to look him in the eye. He never was one for subtlety more of an ‘I’m here, deal with it’ kind of guy.
“Done avoiding me yet?” He asks.
“Guess I don’t really have a choice now do I, Alpha O Alpha?” She shoots a smile his way, hoping he’d take her words for what they were, a white flag, a towel in the ring, anything for a reprieve.
He didn’t look amused, but at least he hadn’t phased.
He sat down beside her at the Clearwater table.
“Listen Jake, about what I said… Before I left, I don’t want it to be an issue here, I can-“
“What you said…Oh you mean how you told me you were in love with me right before you ran away for two years.” His eyes were accusing. She expected Jacob to take the way out - not seek out this conversation, it was awkward enough without the details.
“It seemed like the best thing to do at the time.” She said shortly. She was working to keep her anger in check, Jacob knew it too.
“You didn’t have to leave.”
“Yeah, I did…I didn’t leave to punish you, you know. But I couldn’t stick around and watch you with Nessie and every single one of the guys running along happily with their imprints, reminding me everyday of how much fate seems to hate me. Its not an issue anymore, I’ve had two years, you don’t have to worry about it I promise.”
“But you didn’t have to leave,” He said again, his words heavy with frustration. “when you told me, I was just surprised…I didn’t know how to deal with it,” He paused, “I have an imprint.” He finished softly.
She chuckled, “No, really?”
His lips curved upwards for an instant before his face fell, “Leah…”
“I know Jake. It’s okay, really.” Her voice was light, even though his words were ripping old wounds wide open.
He ran his big hand over his face and blew out a warm puff. He shook his head and Leah was reminded of her simple life back in the city.
“No” (What?) “No” He repeated, his voice pained. “It’s not okay…and it wasn’t a surprise…That night you told me. I wasn’t surprised Leah. I just didn’t know what to do, it wasn’t just you -I knew what was happening between us but its like it was okay so long as neither of us voiced it.”
“Jacob stop.” She whispered. She set steady hands onto the table and pushed herself up, the table was too small, the room too stifling she thought as she walked into the living room and settled by the window.
“I missed you.” Came a voice from behind her, she didn’t move. “I missed you and I couldn’t say a damn thing because I didn’t have a right to. And it was all my fault in the first place.”
His voice cracked.
“Seth didn’t talk to me for weeks. Sam..” He sighed, “he didn’t take it well either. Your mom wouldn’t tell me where you were and The Cullen’s” He gave a wry smile. “ The Cullens just gave me this sad look, like they understood just because Edward had been snooping around in my mind.”
Leah’s fingers latched onto the curtain lace, running them along the delicate patterns.
“Nessie” Leah fought to hide her frown at the name, “was more aware of what was going on around her than any of us realised…” When Leah had left Renesme was already a teenager, she imagined she was a fully grown woman by now, it was partly why she’d decided to come home.
“I’m not gonna try and get between you if that’s what you’re worried about. Not like I could anyway Jake.”
“That’s not what I’m saying.” He lay a warm hand on her shoulder, “They’re gone… They’ve been gone the past year” Her face shot to his. There was no way a wolf could stand the pain of being without his imprint that long.
“How could they do that to you?” She asked, outraged on his behalf. “Don’t they know-“
Jacob closed the space between them. His big arms wrapped around her waist and his face hidden in the crook of her neck. He nuzzled the skin exposed almost reverently it brought tears to her eyes.
“I’m sorry Jake, maybe you can still find them and tal-“
He pulled away from her sharply. She stumbled back slightly from the force of it.
“Damnit Leah I know where they are.” Her face crumbled in confusion, if he knew then why was he still in La Push. “ They’re in South America, Nessie is with Nahuel.” Leah gasped.
“It’s not like that,” he said softly, “It just, wasn’t right between us. I couldn’t stop thinking of her as the child she was just a couple years ago, Nahuel doesn’t look at her like she’s his sister,” His smile was unguarded and happy, “seriously, they’re like Edward and Bella, part two.”
Leah looked at him in disbelief, how could he be happy, his imprint was off frolicking with another man in South America.
“I don’t know what to say.”
“You don’t have to say anything,” He said, his gaze intent. He placed his hands by her waist light enough for her to pull away if she wanted but with enough pressure to feel the fire of his touch even underneath her clothes.
“just don’t go running again unless I can race you there.”
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It took her exactly 8 minutes and 23 seconds to get there.
“Hi dad.” She rested the yellow daffodils onto the stone, brushing away a few stray leaves.
“So it’s been a while. I miss you.”
A hand from beside her incased her hand in his warmth. She smiled up at him, gratefully for once feeling in fates favour. She stroked her fingers over his knuckles and he leaned down to kiss her temple.
“Hey Mr Clearwater…We have something to tell you.”
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The end
Jacob Leah A-Z Fics
She's been gone for two years. She's back now but it doesnt really change anything, does it?
Mr Clearwater.
Leah has the day marked off in her diary; she clears all her plans and leaves her phone on the dresser. She’s never actually told her mother but she’s sure she has a fair idea when she makes her a cup of coffee and leans up to kiss her daughter’s forehead.
Seth wakes up earlier than usual, he leans in her doorway and looks at her softly. Neither of them says a word but Leah has the strongest urge to wrap her long arms around him - so she does. Little Seth isn’t quite so little anymore and that makes her want to cry just a little bit.
Say hello for me.
---
Everything passes her by in a blur; cars roll by in slow motion and faceless people greet her. She walks down the roads she memorised as a child. The reservation is her land its her parents legacy to her, so many bad memories it holds but she could never let it go. And God did she try. Her mother always told her to be proud, her father told her to be happy. Leah let out a sigh, she hadn’t kept her end of the bargain -she hadn’t even tried.
“So its true, you’re back” Leah blinked, before her stood the boy (another boy) she tried her hardest not to think about.
“Yeah, looks that way Black”
She cant stand the way he’s looking at her, the pity she can guess that’s in his eyes. She shrugs uncomfortably not knowing what to say, she hasn’t seen him in two years but of all the questions that she’s wanted to ask him, none of them seem quite so appropriate.
“That’s all you have to say?” He says, the soft look in his eyes replaced by a growing anger. “No goodbye, no letter not even a single goddamn phonecall and that’s all I get from you?”
Leah noticed atleast three heads turn in their direction, she met his stare. ‘Keep it down Jake alright, I didn’t come here for this, I don’t wanna fight you.” Her voice was firm but quiet, something in it surprised him, he looked at her as if she’d grown two heads. His mouth opened and shut promptly.
“I cant do this right now but I’ll come find you ok” she saw that he was about to protest, “Please Jacob. Please. Just give me a little while, I’m not gonna disappear again…ok?”
He looked unsure with his hand clutched tightly at his sides as if he were trying his hardest not to drag her back to the Clearwater house and have a nice long discussion right there and then but he slowly nodded, watching her with hooded eyes. She didn’t chance looking back at him before he changed his mind she just took quicker strides ahead.
---
---
It took her exactly 8 minutes and 23 seconds to get there.
She rested her bag down against the bark of the tree and sat down cross legged in front of it. It was the same tree that she got the scar peppered along her knees from climbing when she was six years old. Three years of sunny skies, she was happy for the change, a little cloud never hurt anyone.
“Hey dad” She started,
dusting her hand over the white stone, “It’s been too long. I’m sorry about that, I’ve missed you.”
She remembers warm hands brushing her hair back and smoothing it down.
Leah, don’t cry
The steady feel of his heartbeat under her cheek as he carried her up to bed from where she’d fallen asleep sat in front of the television.
Shhh. Go back to sleep.
And the comfort of his words that only a father can give. She remembers dark days after Sam and an aching heart and a father who she’d thought would always be there, wiping her tears away, reminding her that happiness is never out of reach.
Everything will be alright sweetheart
I’m here
Except he’s gone now, and it’s not okay, and it hasn’t been for longer than she can remember but maybe it didn’t have to stay that way.
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One day turns into two and two days turn into three and Leah cant even pretend that she’s not a coward. She chooses to ignore her mothers pointed glances and Seth’s murmurs of disapproval. She stayed indoors getting reacquainted with the Clearwater house, taking in all the details down to the new photo frames. People she’d long grown up with had gone and settled down with their special moments frozen on film and scattered along the walls.
Its when she see’s a picture of him that she knows its time. It was a photograph taken at Sam and Emily’s wedding funnily enough, with a vinyl black border around it. Jacob had his head thrown back laughing while Leah is sat close at his side with bright amused eyes. She closes her eyes,
“Hey Jake?”
“What?” He said the fork full of cake still hanging out of his mouth.
“Thanks” She said chewing on her bottom lip nervously, in an action so unLeah it shocked him.
“What for?”
“For being here, for letting me stay in your pack. And I guess I just wanted to let you know that I am… trying, I’m trying to be less…well less of a bitch, it’s - “
“Jake! Oh hey Leah” Embry had wandered over to their table.
“Hey Bastard” She said smiling sweetly before turning her attention towards Jacob, her smile morphing into a wicked grin.
“Trying with you and Seth anyway.”
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She hears him long before she turns to look him in the eye. He never was one for subtlety more of an ‘I’m here, deal with it’ kind of guy.
“Done avoiding me yet?” He asks.
“Guess I don’t really have a choice now do I, Alpha O Alpha?” She shoots a smile his way, hoping he’d take her words for what they were, a white flag, a towel in the ring, anything for a reprieve.
He didn’t look amused, but at least he hadn’t phased.
He sat down beside her at the Clearwater table.
“Listen Jake, about what I said… Before I left, I don’t want it to be an issue here, I can-“
“What you said…Oh you mean how you told me you were in love with me right before you ran away for two years.” His eyes were accusing. She expected Jacob to take the way out - not seek out this conversation, it was awkward enough without the details.
“It seemed like the best thing to do at the time.” She said shortly. She was working to keep her anger in check, Jacob knew it too.
“You didn’t have to leave.”
“Yeah, I did…I didn’t leave to punish you, you know. But I couldn’t stick around and watch you with Nessie and every single one of the guys running along happily with their imprints, reminding me everyday of how much fate seems to hate me. Its not an issue anymore, I’ve had two years, you don’t have to worry about it I promise.”
“But you didn’t have to leave,” He said again, his words heavy with frustration. “when you told me, I was just surprised…I didn’t know how to deal with it,” He paused, “I have an imprint.” He finished softly.
She chuckled, “No, really?”
His lips curved upwards for an instant before his face fell, “Leah…”
“I know Jake. It’s okay, really.” Her voice was light, even though his words were ripping old wounds wide open.
He ran his big hand over his face and blew out a warm puff. He shook his head and Leah was reminded of her simple life back in the city.
“No” (What?) “No” He repeated, his voice pained. “It’s not okay…and it wasn’t a surprise…That night you told me. I wasn’t surprised Leah. I just didn’t know what to do, it wasn’t just you -I knew what was happening between us but its like it was okay so long as neither of us voiced it.”
“Jacob stop.” She whispered. She set steady hands onto the table and pushed herself up, the table was too small, the room too stifling she thought as she walked into the living room and settled by the window.
“I missed you.” Came a voice from behind her, she didn’t move. “I missed you and I couldn’t say a damn thing because I didn’t have a right to. And it was all my fault in the first place.”
His voice cracked.
“Seth didn’t talk to me for weeks. Sam..” He sighed, “he didn’t take it well either. Your mom wouldn’t tell me where you were and The Cullen’s” He gave a wry smile. “ The Cullens just gave me this sad look, like they understood just because Edward had been snooping around in my mind.”
Leah’s fingers latched onto the curtain lace, running them along the delicate patterns.
“Nessie” Leah fought to hide her frown at the name, “was more aware of what was going on around her than any of us realised…” When Leah had left Renesme was already a teenager, she imagined she was a fully grown woman by now, it was partly why she’d decided to come home.
“I’m not gonna try and get between you if that’s what you’re worried about. Not like I could anyway Jake.”
“That’s not what I’m saying.” He lay a warm hand on her shoulder, “They’re gone… They’ve been gone the past year” Her face shot to his. There was no way a wolf could stand the pain of being without his imprint that long.
“How could they do that to you?” She asked, outraged on his behalf. “Don’t they know-“
Jacob closed the space between them. His big arms wrapped around her waist and his face hidden in the crook of her neck. He nuzzled the skin exposed almost reverently it brought tears to her eyes.
“I’m sorry Jake, maybe you can still find them and tal-“
He pulled away from her sharply. She stumbled back slightly from the force of it.
“Damnit Leah I know where they are.” Her face crumbled in confusion, if he knew then why was he still in La Push. “ They’re in South America, Nessie is with Nahuel.” Leah gasped.
“It’s not like that,” he said softly, “It just, wasn’t right between us. I couldn’t stop thinking of her as the child she was just a couple years ago, Nahuel doesn’t look at her like she’s his sister,” His smile was unguarded and happy, “seriously, they’re like Edward and Bella, part two.”
Leah looked at him in disbelief, how could he be happy, his imprint was off frolicking with another man in South America.
“I don’t know what to say.”
“You don’t have to say anything,” He said, his gaze intent. He placed his hands by her waist light enough for her to pull away if she wanted but with enough pressure to feel the fire of his touch even underneath her clothes.
“just don’t go running again unless I can race you there.”
---
It took her exactly 8 minutes and 23 seconds to get there.
“Hi dad.” She rested the yellow daffodils onto the stone, brushing away a few stray leaves.
“So it’s been a while. I miss you.”
A hand from beside her incased her hand in his warmth. She smiled up at him, gratefully for once feeling in fates favour. She stroked her fingers over his knuckles and he leaned down to kiss her temple.
“Hey Mr Clearwater…We have something to tell you.”
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The end