I don't know what to fucking do. I don't know what's real and what's a lie anymore. Why do people lie so fucking much? If it's something you are going to regret, then don't fucking do it in the first place. What that heck is going on with everyone!? I'm sick of getting hurt and seeing the people I care about getting hurt. AGH! Fuck!

I have so many emotions running through my body right now and I don't know which one is the strongest so I don't really know how the hell to express myself tonight. I've just randomly been yelling profane words in my dorm room tonight which my roommate finds somewhat ammusing. I love her though. The Steelers lost. That pissed me off. My Chem Pre- ( Read more... )

I'm hurt. I'm angry. I'm sad. I'm pissed at myself. I waited so freakin' long and when I finally got what I wanted it's not what I wanted at all because what I got was a lie that ended up hurting me. Pretty sweet how things work out that way. My trust is gone.

I just found out that my gay cousin has HIV. That sucks.

Today Philosophy totally blew my mind. Not really the stuff we were discussing, but the stuff that I thought of when we were discussing what we were discussing. I think I'm just gonna write a bunch of stuff that I've been thinking about cause I'm afraid that if I don't write it all out that I will lose all my thoughts and never be able to come to a ( Read more... )

I was going through all the clothes that I brought with me to college and I was looking at my jeans. In the back right pocket of a pair of jeans that I haven't worn in quite awhile I found my old SEP lunch card. It kinda made me laugh. Wish it had been like $20 or something, but whatever.

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Came home to visit my family and Ben this weekend. It was a good time. I saw everyone I wanted to except Megan Churchill. I miss her ( Read more... )

My first week of classes at the University of Iowa were quite boring although I do love my Philosophy clas. It will by far be my favorite class and I am excited to see where it will lead me as far as changing my major. I'm already having second thoughts on doing physical therapy. 1 week. haha. o well. I've got plenty of time to figure it out.

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I love Iowa City even more today then I did yesterday. Last night was amazing. I don't even have time to tell you why because it would take me 5 hours.

I love Robyn my roomie, Heather Mother F'in Gilmore, and my Emmanemma. They are my favorite people ever!!!

Classes start tomorrow Booo!!!

O well. I'm actually somewhat excited. Yeah for college!