Day 1394
Just a quick update, since apparently I updated more recently than I thought. The last couple of days with Olivia were kind of rough, where she’d stay awake for five hours straight and cry and my husband and I would have to take turns with her. At one point I was so frustrated with her I was worried about what I’d do, and my husband is apparently secretly psychic and he took her from me so I could have a break, which was perfect timing. I binged on K-drama a whole lot yesterday. I never used to cry much at TV or books. Now when I cry at K-drama it’s not when the leading gets her heart broken - it’s always during the flashback scenes to a main character’s childhood, especially if they were getting bullied, because I imagine kids being horrible to Olivia when she’s older and it makes me so sad.
That being said...we closed on the house! A lot of prayers were answered and miracles happened, because the bank I’ve used across three states doesn’t have a branch in this state, and the closest branch is in Ohio about three and a half hours away. We needed a cashier’s check in a massive amount so we could close on the house on Friday, but you have to be a customer at a bank to get one. The other option was to get the money wired, but you have to appear at the bank in person to get the money wired. Olivia and I nearly went on a seven-hour round trip road trip to Ohio, but I called the bank where I first opened my account nine years ago (and did my best not to cry in sheer stress) and the bankers there were super helpful (it probably helped that I’d been a customer for so long and also our mortgage is through their bank). I had to answer security questions with two separate people, but we got the money wired and closed on our house on Friday with no hiccups and got the keys and everything! Once we get the second car seat base so we can take Olivia in Cody’s truck, we will move what few boxes I have packed over to the house, and I can make a little walkthrough video for curious friends to see our new place. Cody will take a couple of days off next week, so he’ll have a short week and a super long weekend to get us moved in (yay for a midweek holiday). We will have a fence contractor come to see the yard so we can get it fenced so Ivy and Dingo can run around their massive new digs (but hopefully not literally dig).
This house got crazy cluttered over the space of two days but I tidied it up and it was amazing how the clutter made me feel crazy and how the neatness makes me feel that much better. Everyone at church (they’re the only adults I interact with in person on a regular basis besides my husband lol) thinks I am handling motherhood much better than I am, but I do feel like I am hitting my stride even if Olivia has her fussy days (I think the last two fussy days might have been a growth spurt given how much she ate). I am learning to prioritize. I do think the crazy nature of my job, the way I would constantly have to shift gears and adjust to put out fires helped prepare me for motherhood, which is starting the day with a plan and having it go sideways pretty much from the get-go, but still getting done what I need to.
This next couple of weeks will be crazy, but I am excited. I’ve missed having a piano, strangely. I was thinking the other day that as soon as Olivia is old enough we can have our three-piece band! She is growing and developing so fast. I am enjoying her being tiny and cute and cuddly but I am also super excited to see the person she becomes. I have discovered that she doesn’t like having her picture taken - she will smile and coo, but as soon as I hold my phone over her she will scowl, which is also kinda cute.
I have also started using talk-to-text a lot more so I can chat with friends one-handed even while I have Olivia. It doesn’t like my accent sometimes, but I am getting better at it, as far as composing messages. When I worked at a law firm that was old school where the lawyers were supposed to dictate memos and pleadings I was awful at it and ended up having to rewrite just about everything I dictated, but I think I am getting better, and it might be an easy way for me to get words that doesn’t involve me hiding in the loo.
Here goes more adulting!