old journal entry

[nailsxnotes]

so i was looking through my little logbook tonight. it's a book i started last year to track my moods throughout the day. just at various times, whenever i remembered, to jot down how i was feeling, if anything set me off, depressed me, what i'd eaten, etc...

a few entries caught my attention. i was like, "whoa, I wrote that

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[grumpybubble]

Seems like you had OCD attack (well, if there is such thing. BTW I have tiny OCD) and panick attack. Were these times you had in really hard situation? I guess it took loooooooooong time to layering m&m's!!

What I cant believe was no one come to toilet to see if you were ok when you were in toilet for more than 1hr!!! Hello??? If I were there, I would come to see if you were ok!!!My friend do that to me, when I was really stressed about work and I had to go to toilet to cry at the meeting I was in toilet for about 10min and my friend came to see if I were ok. Poor girly going thru so much... *hugs*

[nailsxnotes]

i think the reason nobody checked on me was because at the time i was disfellowshipped. so, yes, i was going through a hard time then.

and i have minor ocd as well. i guess that explains the m&m's? i don't really know. i just thought it was funny as i had forgotten about the situation entirely until i read back on the book..

[grumpybubble]

oh i understand now.

I had really hard time when I was 14 and I totally dont have any memory of back then. I remember I was in school play and prepare for it. but other than that I dont remember anything. wierd huh?

[haggard]

babygirl i don't even know what to say

[krysanya]

Humm, if you layered the M&Ms, then you didn't stick your hand in the full jar?

I know I know not the point, but I'm sure it would feel nice. Plus then you'd get to eat them yourself... "that's my jar, I stuck my whole arm in there!" ;)

For a positive outlook, just think of how you're doing better because you have the ability to look back upon these days.

Little little at a time. ^^

[nailsxnotes]

haha, i seriously laughed outloud about the "that's my jar, I stuck my whole arm in there!" comment. ;)

[lilidarkstar]

Okay, I'm not one to sort my candy into colors, however, sticking my hands in m and m's would be awesome. Granted, I wouldn't obsessive over it and think about it all the time to the point where I would have to do it, but it would still be fun.

To make you feel better, I'll tell you one of my little disorders. Gel candles. Cherry smell. I can barely keep myself from eating them. I haven't been able to buy them anymore cause they mess with me and taunt me so bad. They smell so good, and they *look* like jello, and then suddenly I want jello, but don't want to wait..and keep smelling the cherry goodness and have a little melt down. There...feeling better yet?

[nailsxnotes]

ha, yeah, i don't feel so weird anymore. i think a lot of people have these weird idiosyncrasies, but don't ever put them out in the open.