in due time you will forget that i am gone, gone, gone
school is uncool. for the first time EVER i'm actually trying to do well, and i am, for the most part. except for intro to business and algebra, because they don't require homework AT ALL, so... i haven't done any. i've got midterms in may so i should probably get on that. business law i'm somehow doing well. i don't even have the textbook yet. it amazes me that i can keep a decent grade without a textbook. but i need to get that this week. my midterm for that class is the 13th. why february? i have NO idea. who does that?
but accounting it grating on my very SOUL. i'm trying, really, to understand this shit and i just DON'T get it. i just emailed the professor telling him that no, i'm not sending in the assignment for this week because i don't get it and it's not done and the parts that ARE done are WRONG. and then i asked about tutoring. i can't afford to repeat classes. i don't have the time, i don't have the money, and i DAMN SURE don't have the patience. oh, and i just realised that we have a weekly discussion which is required, and i managed to do this week's but i'm still missing 3 weeks of credit because i'm dumb.
anyways.
work is work. as always. forever until i die. it's the saaaaaame story. people suck, people suck more, people don't do their job, people suck AND don't do their job. whatever. they're hiring an assistant manager, which i will apply to, because i've got to give it one more try before i leave. they're not going to hire me, but at least i'll have tried. i guess that's all that matters. but if they hire some bum off the street again, i'm going to have to get out of there, because it causes nothing but problems forever and ever.
chris and i just celebrated our anniversary. (aww congratulations!) thanks. i thought it might not be as fun as i'd hoped, because we didn't end up going to busch gardens, but it was fine. we went to chuck e cheese (my FAVORITE) and played games and ate pizza. it was a lot of fun. i'm kind of glad busch gardens didn't work out.
i don't think i've ever been as happy as i am with chris.
i'm kind of upset that people that i thought were so close to me don't keep in contact with me, even when i try. i'm not asking to talk to them every fucking day, i just want to know what's going on every once in a while. i mean, shit. stacy and i talk once a month, MAYBE, but at least i know what's going on. at least i feel like we're still close. same with raymond. he's planning on visiting me soon, you know? and all my other friends keep in contact through myspace or facebook or livejournal. but i haven't heard anything from matt, short of about 4 thirty second phone calls since i moved, which really irritates me, considering i thought he was one of my closest friends. i know he's busy, i know he doesn't like talking on the phone, whatever. but he doesn't even respond to me on facebook, and that takes what? 3 seconds?
it's just amazing to me how distance can prove who your true friends are. for a while i stopped trying, because what's the point? but... yeah. i'm just going to stop trying. i mean, it might be better that way. i can stop being irritated, and chris will be happy, too, considering he doesn't like matt because of our history (even though i explain to him ALL THE TIME that it's nothing and it WAS nothing and it was TWO DAMN YEARS AGO and he's just a good friend [was a good friend]). and i guess that me not being mad and chris being able to feel a little relieved are very positive points. the only negative i forsee is losing a close friend, but in all reality, i lost him a long fucking time ago.
ANYWAYS.
i have two more rats, which means FOUR fabulous little cutesy rats in total. veronica and phoebe, yes, but also clarice and laurie. they're sooooocute. i love them so much. they're like a little family.
laurie (named after laurie strode form halloween)
& clarice (named after clarise starling from silence of the lambs)
i can't stand how cute they are.
well, i think i'm going to play some video games before bed. i'm working 11-4 box, and then 6-10 usher. loooong day. i wonder what i'll do for that two hours in between.
but accounting it grating on my very SOUL. i'm trying, really, to understand this shit and i just DON'T get it. i just emailed the professor telling him that no, i'm not sending in the assignment for this week because i don't get it and it's not done and the parts that ARE done are WRONG. and then i asked about tutoring. i can't afford to repeat classes. i don't have the time, i don't have the money, and i DAMN SURE don't have the patience. oh, and i just realised that we have a weekly discussion which is required, and i managed to do this week's but i'm still missing 3 weeks of credit because i'm dumb.
anyways.
work is work. as always. forever until i die. it's the saaaaaame story. people suck, people suck more, people don't do their job, people suck AND don't do their job. whatever. they're hiring an assistant manager, which i will apply to, because i've got to give it one more try before i leave. they're not going to hire me, but at least i'll have tried. i guess that's all that matters. but if they hire some bum off the street again, i'm going to have to get out of there, because it causes nothing but problems forever and ever.
chris and i just celebrated our anniversary. (aww congratulations!) thanks. i thought it might not be as fun as i'd hoped, because we didn't end up going to busch gardens, but it was fine. we went to chuck e cheese (my FAVORITE) and played games and ate pizza. it was a lot of fun. i'm kind of glad busch gardens didn't work out.
i don't think i've ever been as happy as i am with chris.
i'm kind of upset that people that i thought were so close to me don't keep in contact with me, even when i try. i'm not asking to talk to them every fucking day, i just want to know what's going on every once in a while. i mean, shit. stacy and i talk once a month, MAYBE, but at least i know what's going on. at least i feel like we're still close. same with raymond. he's planning on visiting me soon, you know? and all my other friends keep in contact through myspace or facebook or livejournal. but i haven't heard anything from matt, short of about 4 thirty second phone calls since i moved, which really irritates me, considering i thought he was one of my closest friends. i know he's busy, i know he doesn't like talking on the phone, whatever. but he doesn't even respond to me on facebook, and that takes what? 3 seconds?
it's just amazing to me how distance can prove who your true friends are. for a while i stopped trying, because what's the point? but... yeah. i'm just going to stop trying. i mean, it might be better that way. i can stop being irritated, and chris will be happy, too, considering he doesn't like matt because of our history (even though i explain to him ALL THE TIME that it's nothing and it WAS nothing and it was TWO DAMN YEARS AGO and he's just a good friend [was a good friend]). and i guess that me not being mad and chris being able to feel a little relieved are very positive points. the only negative i forsee is losing a close friend, but in all reality, i lost him a long fucking time ago.
ANYWAYS.
i have two more rats, which means FOUR fabulous little cutesy rats in total. veronica and phoebe, yes, but also clarice and laurie. they're sooooocute. i love them so much. they're like a little family.
laurie (named after laurie strode form halloween)
& clarice (named after clarise starling from silence of the lambs)
i can't stand how cute they are.
well, i think i'm going to play some video games before bed. i'm working 11-4 box, and then 6-10 usher. loooong day. i wonder what i'll do for that two hours in between.