I feel often like I am sacrificing myself. Always.

I miss what was.

Recent fights and money issues recently surfaced. Again. Negativity, blame, accusatory tones lingering just underneath a thin veil of reasoned argument ( Read more... )

I think it hard to maintain a positive outlook tonight. All the time constant negativity, pushing. Shoving. Forcing itself onto my life. No thanks bad juju. We'll be fine. I'll be better. Soon, and I know we've said it before, but soon the worst will have passed. Almost there Hall, hang in there.

D

Breathe in deep the crisp clean air and let the sins of this city be washed away. Listen to the sky as she offers her advice. The rain slowly encroaching. Pavement, a puddle, a pond, another Pacific Ocean. Let it rain. It won't be for more than a moment.

You are exactly where you want to be and how you want to live. For whatever fuck ups you've managed over the years, something went right more often than not. Well done future Doug, we're getting there.

Part of what I tried to explain to New Orleanians was the redemptive power of the sun for seattlites. That the grey days make the warm, sunny ones like today pop. It almost sears positive energy into you. And it feels so much better than any given 85 and sunny day you could have there ( Read more... )

No more smokes while at work.

No more weed, ironically, because it's not Nola.

No more money. Too many bills.

No more drinking just cause. Too many bills.

Homecoming was a little more no than I had hoped. Everything is still in development, especially me.

Hope you get a few more yeses,

d

Got a little closer to work crew, but there's still a chasm between my humor and everyone else. Wah wah. That mean there's something off with me ( Read more... )

Excited to start back at work at the noble fir Friday. It'll be nice to do what I'm good at again. At a place that doesn't encourage dysfunction ( Read more... )

Blah blah, every day is just like the last. I don't hate it, in fact it's damn near my dream if you tossed in spending cash, but it's a little humdrum. That's on my end ( Read more... )