I don't exist.
I'm quite sure that this 
Idea of existence is something I 
Invented in my lonely darkness.

And if my existence is a fiction,
A sham, a bedtime story 
I read myself,
I wonder if my made-up friends,
My created life,
The fire that used to burn
Within me,
Will mind very much 
If I can manage 
To snuff out the candle,
Throw myself into the vortex, 
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L'shanah tovah, everyone.

It's amazing how much things have changed- how much I have changed- in the past year. I've grown in my faith, which is something very worthwhile for me to mention. I think it's mostly for the better (all of it). Atleast I hope so. Went to temple tonight, and it was amazing, of course. Thinking about last Rosh Hashanah.... ( Read more... )

so i'm not doing very well right now. this is going to be an entry full of frustration, so if you aren't interested, i won't be offended if you stop reading right now. i just need to vent ( Read more... )

well, that is that, n'est-ce pas?

i'm slightly drunk on working out, bob marley, and kosher wine.

sweeet. RA training is exhausting, for real. basically 9 am to 9 pm. almost over. freshies check in on saturday. we went to smith mountain lake for an RA retreat....i sat out on the dock at midnight and wrote a poem in my head. it was beautiful, but fleeting. i couldn't capture the ( Read more... )

this isn't going to be a very long entry, because i'm having trouble getting my thoughts into order. there are so many of them.

i'm back at roanoke. all set up in my room, seeing friends, doing RA things. i'm really really glad to be back. i missed this place. and these people.

is it possible to be utterly confused and yet completely content at the ( Read more... )

so i got...a tattoo. this morning.

i was very proud of myself for not chickening out. we had to wait for an hour, but it was worth it! yay, i'm so excited. it looks gooood. :-)

look up to the stars, not down at your feet
look into the night, look into the deep
write me a book and i'll sing you a song
hum me a lullaby, i'll hum along
take me a picture, make me a rhyme
show me your heart and i'll show you mine.

last night we went out to a restaurant/bar down at 
the beach place 
in fort lauderdale. 
the waiter thought i was 22. 
i totally did not get carded for my 3 for 1 pina coladas.

sweeeeet.

it's my last day at work for right now! i get to have NO work till next tuesday. awesome ( Read more... )