I have to calm down. I have to think more. There's a lot that I need to find out ( Read more... )

I suffer from chronic nostalgia. It's part of who I am, and something that people love me for (I have a knack for remembering important dates in the past, but only in my life, and not birthdays) but it makes dealing with depression more difficult ( Read more... )

Screw school. I've been in this fucked up system for over 14 years now. It just feels like a waste of my lifetime ( Read more... )

It is strange, letting go of people. I've done it my whole life, without much thought. I let go of friends I was very close with in elementary school when we went to middle school. We just moved apart and neither felt the need to pretend to be horribly upset over it. It was sort of a nice unspoken agreement of "We had good times, but they're ( Read more... )

Its odd that someone who has never met Duk or me can so easily say we won't make it living together. When we've already lived together for a year, and been dating for a year before that. Its a reminder to me not to be such a hypocrite. I need to slow down. I need to *remember* to slow down ( Read more... )

So I finally got to go to my appointment that I made months ago, and now I need to do physical therapy to solve the "bladder" issues I've been having since March or April. I can't even remember now. I'm pretty fucking nervous about it, not excited at all. Pelvic exams suck, but this is going to be an hour of prodding and making me feel worse ( Read more... )

I once kept a pocket notebook. It looked like a very small book, no more than three inches high. I drew in it and kept notes to myself. I gave it away to someone. I want another.

Expensive things\anything that costs money that I need/want:
-another tattoo (probably sunflower on my upper thigh)
-new mp3 player (this one-seals for Franz's ( Read more... )

Dukasaurus was here, we went to a wedding, it was fun. Duk made friends, everybody asked about his kilt, I saw some friends I haven't seen in a long time, it was cool. Even if weddings are cheesy and all (well, mostly the stupid speeches at the reception, and there were SO MANY of those, 'cause speakers got free t-shirst), it was nice to see lots ( Read more... )

Maine was disappointing. Rained everyday except Tuesday, family got on my nerves, bed was not comfortable so my back hurts and I didn't sleep well. Nika and I took off early. Pluses: saw Baba, people bought me stuff, I GOT ALADDIN PANTS (aka. harem pants), got a little bit of sun on Tuesday, took some hopefully good pictures ( Read more... )

Franz is still not orange. Maybe next weekend. I hope. I won't have time for Franz this school year, in all likelihood ( Read more... )